Never Settle

When I stopped being a victim about my past relationships, I was open to a healthy loving one. I pondered my past relationships and learned the lessons they were meant to bring.  This really made me see, people are in our lives for a reason, we just have to figure out why. 

Being empowered is so much better then living in fear. I don't fear losing this man I'm with, we both feel grateful to have found each other.  We want to be together because we actually like each other, we feel the other person is interesting.

What a novice idea for me and most woman. A man who loves us for ourselves, no games involved. I would never settle for less in the future.

I had to know for myself that I was worthy of real love, when I did, he appeared or re appeared.  This man is my high school crush and since he's always been kind and honest, I can believe him when he tells me loves me.

Settling is sad and if all people could feel real love, they'd want nothing less!

I Won't Give Into Fear

It amazes me daily that when I have a negative thought, it doesn't last because I see it for what it is, fear. I refuse to live in fear ever again, I want to do things that I swore I would never do when I was younger.  I want to show that girl she was so much stronger than she ever believed.

She never believed that having someone truly love her was a possibility, wow... I was so afraid of never having it that I pushed it away and I did things to prove I was lovable and put up with things that I never should have tolerated.  I am so grateful though, if I had not went through that journey, I wouldn't be where I am right now.

I wouldn't trade my experiences in the past because I may not be where I am now and be who I am with.  I have someone now who I believe, he's honest, kind, caring, thoughtful, sweet, loving... he is what every woman would want in their life.  I want him in my life because he's led me to believe that I too am someone he can believe, trust, feel safe with.  I wish everyone could have that, it is better than any love we attempt to fill our lives with in the past and present.

A Christmas wish I have had for many years was to have a calm, happy and relaxed Christmas.  I am getting that and I get David with it, he's right, we are both lucky to have found each other.

I have goals again, I've had a desire to travel... I am planning for that to happen now.  I have many things that I want to do, I am looking forward to everything. I love that I feel so alive, I love that I believe in myself and mostly I love that I don't give into fear.