Well this weekend turned out to be much better than I had anticipated, just when I thought I had another dull weekend, surprise. Oh, what a nice surprise too. Now I am hoping I won't have to wait so long in between being surprised again.
I have a busy week coming up at work but at least I will start it off on the right foot, in a fantastic mood. I am going to relax as much as I can this year end, I don't want to get all stressed out like I normally do. If I do, I need to find a better way to relieve the stress than I have in the past couple of years.
I realized this weekend that I want to downsize even more, I have much more than I thought. When I have too much my house gets out of control and I really don't like that. I like when my house is in order, so purging here I come. I have another plan or goal and to attain that I have to purge and organize.
I just can't believe how happy I am at this moment, I am trying to enjoy every minute of it. Sometimes I wish this feeling could last forever but I guess if it did we wouldn't appreciate it so much. Unfortunately it seems like we have to have the down times to enjoy the up times more. I am thinking that this is where we need to change things, we need to be happy where we are, easier said than done.
I feel so lucky and blessed to be where I am in my life right now, just enjoying myself and not taking life too seriously. I have a lot to be grateful for and this weekend was just icing on the cake.
Waiting on Pins and Needles
I've had a pretty good week so far, just when I am beginning to think maybe somethings are not going to happen, things change on a dime. Now I just have to wait and be patient, instead I am on pins and needles. I am so terrible about waiting for what I want but I am trying to change that.
My mind has been on over load for the past couple of days, it's made it hard to focus. I have been thinking a lot about how I have come to where I am in my life. What a journey I have had, being in my forties have been enlightening. All the things I believed in so strongly when I was younger have been challenged in the past couple of years. It is good to rethink your ideas sometimes though, we never want to be rigid.
The thing I want so much to work on is my self esteem. I don't have an issue with meeting new people and I can carry on a conversation easily with just about anyone. I just want to believe I am good enough and deserve to be happy with someone. A big part of me has a difficult time with this, especially when every time I think it will work out, it hasn't.
What the future holds, none of us really know but I am looking forward to it. Change can be good even when it is scary, the bigger the change the better the reward. So I am just waiting as patiently as I can for the next change in my life.
My mind has been on over load for the past couple of days, it's made it hard to focus. I have been thinking a lot about how I have come to where I am in my life. What a journey I have had, being in my forties have been enlightening. All the things I believed in so strongly when I was younger have been challenged in the past couple of years. It is good to rethink your ideas sometimes though, we never want to be rigid.
The thing I want so much to work on is my self esteem. I don't have an issue with meeting new people and I can carry on a conversation easily with just about anyone. I just want to believe I am good enough and deserve to be happy with someone. A big part of me has a difficult time with this, especially when every time I think it will work out, it hasn't.
What the future holds, none of us really know but I am looking forward to it. Change can be good even when it is scary, the bigger the change the better the reward. So I am just waiting as patiently as I can for the next change in my life.
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