Don't Wait For Tomorrow, Dream It Today

Treat today like it was tomorrow. Think about what you want for tomorrow and manifest it today. No excuses... just live your dream now! ~ Colette Brown


I have given up on all the old excuses that I have had in the past, anytime I am afraid... I am just going to do it.  Every time I face a fear, I am going to get stronger... I'm stronger already.. I want to thank David for seeing that in me and not letting me hide under the fear... he never lets me say I can't do it, he tells me every time we talk that I can do it... he expects nothing but the best from me, so now I only expect the best from me too. 


I've lost 44 lbs since February, I know I am going to need another push to get me to the next mile stone, the weight is coming off slower.  I've be walking sporadically when the weather permits, I need something more reliable.  I'm questioning myself on how much I want to lose this weight. 


If I want to lose it, I'll put all my efforts into it without any excuses.  When I'm on my own, I have NO desire for junk food; yesterday was my Valentina's birthday and so I allowed myself a small (and I do mean small) piece of cheesecake and one Ferrier Roche Chocolate. I wouldn't even have that type of food in my house but I have to learn that it will be around and I have to say no. 

I also need to kick up the exercise, one of the girls at work is trying out a personal trainer for a week free.  I've asked her to have him contact me, the worst thing that could happen was that I could learn some new tactics for weight loss. At best I might be able to figure out how to keep him so that I can reach my goal that much quicker. 


It's time to live my dream fully and to start today!  I will have all that I hope and wish for, I am tenacious and I will never give up until I have attained each and everyone of my dreams!!

Nine Years Ago Tonight

Nine years ago today, I had an awesome miracle happen, I gave birth to my beautiful daughter Valentina Anastasiya. I was 39 and although it is beyond simple for me to get pregnant, basically a man just had to breathe on me, lol. However; staying pregnant proved more difficult as I got older but my little girl was born at 9:35 pm on May 15, 2003 and she was a lovely average size, 7lbs, 8ozs. I'm old school, still into pounds :).

Let me say, I thought for sure I was carrying a boy, Valentina made sure she was a surprise:). The minute she was born, the doctor said, you have a girl, I was like I'm sorry Valentina, I love you<3. At least I had both names picked out.

I was blessed that she was a pretty easy baby as I was 39, did I already mention that, lol ;). It's quite a feat to carry a baby at that age. Your body gets tired so much quicker.

The years have flown, she is close to being a teen, can I say I'm scared. Those teen years are insane, I was sure I wouldn't survive my oldest and she was actually quite a good teen, she just yelled and wouldn't go to school. I'm hoping that I will be more understanding with Valentina and that she'll be gentle on me, lol.

I will be in my 50's when she's a teen, heaven help me, I see massive prayer in my future. Heavenly father gives us teenagers so we will pray, either that or drink. I don't plan to drink, I'm sure I'll be on my knees 24/7. I'll need to be to survive. Have I mentioned I'll be in my 50's when she's a teenager, lol.

Children can be a challenge, mostly they are a blessing. I'm grateful that I could be a mommy at 18 and then a mama at 39. I've been so blessed to have two beautiful girls and hey, they've put up with a slightly crazy mother. I know, I know; slightly? Cut me a break, I'm going to be 50 in a little over a year :).




















Happy Birthday to my sweet Valentina on her 9th birthday