Patience Can Be A Challenge And A Gift

I am the type of person when I have something difficult going in in my life that I have to talk it out, I need to discuss it and it helps me to release some of the pain, anger, fear, sadness or frustration.  I feel like I would burst if I didn't say the words out loud to someone and hear their opinion.  I like to hear other people's opinions, I don't always follow it... I do have my own ideas.

So when I end up dealing with someone who becomes a total introvert when something befalls them, it becomes a learning game for me... because although I need to converse, not everyone does... some people have to deal with it on a personal level before they can get to the next step.  Can I say I have not always been patient with that trait, usually I become frustrated and look at ways I can try to make things better for that person.  I have learned that sometimes it is much better to give people their space to deal with it the way they need to...

The only thing I do in these situations is offer my support, whenever they need it and let them know I will be ready and waiting. It's all I can do, anything else would be judgmental and the last thing I want to do is step on someones toes with how they need to deal with their pain. Is it easy for me, no... I would be lying if I said that but as I get wiser with age, I recognize that my way is not always the right way and it definitely isn't the right way for everyone else.

I also am aware that men and women handle challenges differently, I have found that the majority of women I know want to talk about it, discuss it, analyze it... figure out a solution.  The men I have known, want to hear the issue, they give a logical response and if I didn't take their advise, they seemed baffled.  David was and is different, he gave advise but he also listened and understood why I wouldn't always take his full advise. 

While I am waiting patiently, I am learning that sometimes all you can do is send out positive happy thoughts and pray...

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥

Learning To Have Patience

I think writing the last post I wrote finally helped me to sleep.  It would be so much better if I could say it to him, I have to learn to have patience (something I lack).   Maybe all this is happening to teach me to be patient.

I remember the saying that goes something like this 'humble yourself or the Lord will humble you and it will be harder to bear'.  I'm beginning to think I have had to learn patience and I have fought it, wanting what I wanted, no matter the consequences, now I'm having to be patient for something very important to me.

It's a rainy day in Nova Scotia, kind of matching my heart right now.  The sun will rise again and my heart will heal. I don't know if it will heal enough to ever love another man but I know it will heal.  I have to have faith and believe that everything will work out and something wonderful will come along to make me laugh and smile again.

It must be the song I'm listening to 'Everybody Hurts' by REM, makes me know that we are all the same, we all hurt, we can all heal and we'll all feel love again.  It's a part of life to be sad to find a way to be happy in spite of it and to find true joy.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

Patience Teaches Faith

 The Circumstances in life do not make or break you, They reveal who you really are. ~ Richard Carlson

Off I went to church today and of course the talks were exactly what I needed them to be about; having patience. Handling challenges is having patience, knowing that everything will work out as it should. That isn't always easy especially since we live in a world where everything is instant. Instant pictures, instant messaging, instant access!

True happiness isn't instant, even though I know that David is the man for me, he is the love of my life, my soul mate. When things didn't work out for us immediately, I almost lost hope. Those talks reminded me that truly good things come to those who wait. I just have to have patience and remember that love does prevail.

I know without a doubt that David and I are meant to be together but if he never learns this as I have learned, I will open my heart to another. I am not meant to be alone, I am meant to have love in my life.  We are all meant to have love, it depends on if we open up to it or not; when we close down... we lose all of our opportunities.

The amazing thing about all this is that I do have patience when it comes to love, I never had that before, hence I have rushed into horrible relationships, just to have a relationship, good or bad. I will pray, have patience and love; regardless of how this all turns out. David has his own free will, he will have to come to this on his own.

I will always and forever love David, he is and will continue to be a part of my life. I feel sorry and sad if we don't end up together as the people that we do end up with will have to accept that David and I will always be close. That would be a lot for another person to handle, it takes massive trust.

I trust David completely and he trusts me with his whole heart. There is nothing or no one that could shake my faith in David, I know his heart as he knows mine.