I Only Need To Give Love

I am of infinite worth, I deserved to be loved by my David, my David deserved to be loved by me.
We both had to know that,  for us to have worked, not just one of us.  I needed to remember that I am of infinite worth and I deserve to be loved. David doesn't have to love me for me to know that, I had to know that for myself. I have felt that before but not like I did tonight, I actually had chills from it.

I was reading a blog by a young woman that is a daughter of my very good friend from church which is titled Laura plus Jeremy: Our Little Life Together.  I was so moved by her honesty and openness about how she felt inadequate but that she had been touched by a very inspiring talk by one of our church members who talked about how we just needed to love Heavenly Father, love ourselves and don't compare ourselves to others. We are all deserving of infinite love, all the things we pick apart about ourselves is to keep us from remembering that Heavenly Father loves us, we should love ourselves and we should stop wondering if or why someone has it better or worse than us.

 Which only causes us to forget that we all deserve better and we shouldn't let the things we play in our head over and over, that somehow we are not good enough, for reasons we come up with where we think we don't deserve to be loved and from things we have been told throughout our lives by other people we know or have known.

I have not heard affirming affirmations most of my life... I have usually heard degrading things. Well as an adult I know they are not true but whenever I allow my mind to dwell on those thoughts, I am not allowing myself to see that I do deserve infinite love.  Just like we all do... Laura's blog so inspired me. I am seeing things from a different point of view, it is like I have done a one hundred and eighty degree turn.

I wanted, or rather I needed to write this tonight because I know the day may come that I will have a bad day where I allow my thoughts to dwell in those inadequate feelings,  I wanted this written blog post to remind me that they are not true.  They cannot be real if I don't give them part of my mind to dwell in... I am not even sure I can convey how much of an amazing feeling I had understanding this concept.

I am going to talk about something that I don't normally talk about because I do not like to come of as preachy.  I believe we all have the right to believe what we believe and that we should be respected for our beliefs.  I don't judge other people and I love all people, no matter what religion they are.

So when I read Laura's blog, I really felt the truth that Heavenly Father loves me, Jesus Christ loves me, I don't have to be perfect for Him to love me, I just have to be working at being a better me, a more loving and a nonjudgmental me.  I think I have come a long way in that department and for this I am grateful.

I am hoping I didn't come of too preachy because that is just not how I live my life, I am grateful for my knowledge and I believe strongly in my Faith but that doesn't mean I would profess to tell another how to live.  It is not my place to judge another, it is only my place to love.

 I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥

Being Uniqe And Standing Out

First, I did get a little sleep last night... not that I don't want more because I do... but I did get some, which was good as I was a lot less giddy then I was the day before.  One of my friends messaged me and asked what was wrong with being giddy, I said you may want to talk with my co-workers.  I have a loud laugh that I do not hold back when something strikes me as funny and when I have not slept... well, let's say it so much louder.  They are all good though, they told me it wasn't the same without me there and that the aisle I am in was much too quiet. 

I am positive that the people I went to junior high and high school would be in massive disbelief that I am as open and friendly as I am today.  I was incredibly and painfully shy that if someone looked at me, I would wish the floor would open up and swallow me...   Of course the people at work only know the boisterous and friendly me and find it incredibly difficult to believe that at one point in my life, I did all that I could to blend in so no one would see me.  At least I have my David who could vouch for me, he knew me when I was at my shyest, he says he likes how open I have become over the years, I know I am much happier not trying to conform to what others want.

 

I am me and if someone doesn't like me, oh well... I do what I can to be the best me and that is all I can do.  Not everyone is going to like me or get me, I am quirky...  but I like that I am unique and that I can make people  laugh with all my silly antics.  Where I may have been mortified in my youth to stand out, I relish the challenge... I no longer care nor do I want to be a cookie cutter of anyone else... that is the biggest issue with people these days.   People trying to be someone they are not to have someone like them or to conform to what they think they need to be able to fit in.  Really??? we are not in high school, we are adults and I for one celebrate all of our differences, it is what makes us special. 

I like being special, memorable and quirky... I am anything but boring and I don't ever plan to be boring...  Fitting in is just not where it is, it is those people that are willing to stand out that get places in life.  The question is do you want to sit on the side lines for fear of what other people will say, today I don't care... let others sit on the side lines... I don't want to get to a point in my life and regret not living my life to the fullest, I want to say WOW... I really lived life to the fullest and I had an amazing time.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥