Blessings Abound

There's a big day coming up for my Valentina, she's getting baptized on Saturday June 9th, she is pretty excited about it.  I am grateful that she has been open to all the teachings and lessons she has received. There has been issues getting to this point but I knew there would be, there is always opposition, if there wasn't I would be concerned then.  Everything is a go,  just my part which is the cooking, the program and making sure everyone that is taking part is ready.  I'm not stressed or anything, lol... yeah... I am but it will all come together.

I had the day off today and I didn't accomplish nearly one tenth of what I wanted to do, I just wasn't in the mood to do any of it, I spent most of day just relaxing.  I sometimes shut down when I have too much on my plate, if I have too much to do, I do nothing.  Not always the best answer but it seems the only way I can sometimes handle stress.

I am in need of a good long talk with David, we are supposed to talk tonight, depending on how things went with his course.  It seems he is still working on it and it is getting quite late even for him. I know I am certainly looking forward to having my course completed, I know David will be over the moon once his course is done.  It is exhausting for both of us for different reasons.  Mine because I am working full time, I am a mama and I have my need to write.  David's is because he has massive amounts of reading to do, along with papers that are due regularly and he works full time.

I honestly have no idea how people have a family, hold down a job and go to school.  I am doing it but not great, I really am not organized enough.  I keep putting things off which I know will come back to bite me in the behind if I don't get some control over it. Once I am free of this course, I am taking a long break from worrying about another course.  I just want to relax and have fun, I want to smile and laugh... just be my happy self.

The me in the past would be freaking out that David wasn't available right now, I am not worried, he will be there, he is just very busy with his course.  I will NOT add any stress on him, he has more then enough stuff happening in his life, he does not need for me to make it harder on him.  He is understanding of what I need to do and I believe in him.  I pray all the time for him to understand what he is learning and to pass this course.

Well, I am off to bed... tomorrow is another day and good things are on the way, I have lots of blessings on the way;)

Love Is Written In The Heart

“Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased. Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken. But it is inscribed on a heart and there it shall remain forever.”

Have you ever known someone with you heart?  You know where you can say anything to them and you feel safe that they will take it as it's intended.  I've only known one person like that, my David.  I can joke around and tease him, when he puts up an embarrassed face, I can call him out and say haha, you do not embarrass easily, remember I know you? lol.

When I do that he's like, yes you do know me, haha.  People that don't know each other are never sure that what they say may be taken out of context.  It's awesome to feel safe with someone where you know you can say anything and everything.  I know there are people that have this, I was not lucky enough to have this all my life.

I always wanted it, that emotional connection where you just know and feel the other person.  No words are necessary, although the words are abundant.  The conversation is never boring (I'm too interesting to be boring, lol). Having someone who cheers on all your accomplishments, someone who truly loves you for you. 

I realized something last night that makes me smile now.  I started panicking, getting out of control; I finally gave myself a 'mindful smack' (as Mastin would say).  I figured out that the closer that I get to my goals the more opposition I receive.  It just shows me that I'm on the right path, otherwise I'd have no opposition.

Opposition brings rewards, the more opposition, the more rewards ;).

Embracing Change

"If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies." ~ Author Unknown





"We must learn to view change as a natural phenomenon ~ to anticipate it and to plan for it. The future is ours to channel in the direction we want to go... we must continually ask ourselves, 'What will happen if...?' or better still, 'How can we make it happen?' " ~  Lisa Taylor

Change has always scared me in the past, I'm like most people who want to be in control. I had to go through lesson after lesson in my life to learn to embrace change, it is the only way I can live up to my potential.

When I go with the change knowing that it is the only way I can grow, I've been inspired to do, say or write something that someone has needed to hear. I'm grateful when someone is opened to change, they inspire me.  Isn't that we want to do, inspire and uplift each other?

I have had endless opposition lately, I was fighting it, now I say bring it on!  I know where I'm supposed to be in my life, I'm not afraid. I will do what is asked of me, I will go where I'm guided to go. I am stronger then the fear, my resistance is gone.

I forgot what it was that brought me to where I was supposed to be, I started thinking I wasn't good enough, I was sure I didn't deserve all of the wonderful opportunities that were placed in front of me. I nearly pushed it away. That is fear, I am done listening to that weak side of me. I am going to remember that being positive, happy and uplifting drew exactly what I wanted into my life.

I deserve the best, I deserve exactly what I want and I'm NOT giving up until I get what I want.  Whatever I want also wants me; this is my new motto from Jack Canfield. What I want is excellent and an opportunity of forever. I have asked, I believe and I will receive.

"Change has long been a fearful thing for human beings ... and at the same time, it is our most Divine opportunity. Clinging to the banks of the river may seem safe and more secure, but life's possibilities are truly engaged only when we trust, release and become part of The Flow of the Universe." ~ Chelle Thompson, Editor of Inspiration Line