The Unique Miracle Of Us

I REALLY love that quote above, especially the last line about 'Every person is an unrepeatable miracle'.  We are all unique... I always talk about about how quirky I am but the truth is we all are a little quirky and that is okay.  I remember spending so much time trying to fit in when I was in junior high, I didn't always measure up and so I was made fun of regularly.  Today I look back and think how grateful that I am an individual, being truly unique is a gift of it's own.  We all have that capability to be unique, we don't all take it... all for fear we won't fit in.   I say stand out, be your quirky self and enjoy the miracle of us.

We shouldn't be doubtful of the miracles that can happen, I think we all took a look at our lives that we could write a list of them.  Some of my miracles are that I survived a fire that burned my body by about 60% at the age of fifteen months, it was in 1964 and I even made the newspapers across Canada stating it was a miracle I survived... no doctors thought it would happen.  Having my two daughters are amazing miracles in my life, as challenging as it can be... it can never out weigh the massive blessings that come from being their mommy or mama.

I know that I have been doubtful but the last couple of days, I have been taking ten to fifteen minutes a day where I turn off all the sound, close my eyes and start listing what I love, I am specific about each thing, I am grateful for each thing.  I started doing this because I was reading a book that posed a question about how much do you really love?  We give up too soon because we doubt whether we deserve it but we do, we just have to say the feelings out loud and with gratitude.

Those ten to fifteen minutes a day have been really wonderful for me, I am finding that I am doubting less... The truth is that what you give out is returned... I plan to give out as much love and gratitude that I can and I will take the time to feel both emotions with my heart as I send it out. I feel blessed knowing that each of us are a unique miracle....

 

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥

I Will Have The Courage To Fly

It's not until you have the courage to step off the ledge that you'll realize you've had wings all along. ~ Gail Lynne Goodwin

The quote above is true if very scary, it is always hard to take that first step and have faith that we'll have the wings to fly.  We have been promised that if we have faith, miracles can happen.  I've seen this happen in my life often.
               

When we feel as though we don't deserve miracles is when we need to embrace this even more. We most assuredly deserve wonderful awesome things in our lives.  It's our human side that makes us feel as if we are not good enough.  Just because we are alive means we deserve amazing things.

It's the human side of us that is sure because we made mistake after mistake that we don't deserve happiness.  I've felt this for years, I even felt this when my relationship with David didn't work out.

There was no reason that it didn't work out so I felt it must have been because I wasn't worthy?  Something awesome was given to me, only to say, ha ha... Did you really think after the way you lived your life that you deserved someone as kind as wonderful as David? 

It's taken me years to believe that I do deserve someone wonderful, kind and loving. Just because I've messed up in the past, that does not mean that I don't deserve to be loved by someone with their whole heart and soul.

Some people don't realize what they could have had and they waste their opportunity.  I'm not going to waste mine, my time will come...  I just have to believe and have faith.  Everything will work out as I know it was meant to.

I will open those wings and soar above the clouds.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

Miracles Can Happen Every Day

I've been thinking about the decisions I've made in my life.  Some were great, some not so smart; I often wonder where my brain was at times?  Like I've said many times, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't change my past decisions, even for all the foolish mistakes, for I could have missed some of the best times I've had in my life.

I would never change having my children, not even at the age I had them; Andrea at barely 18 and Valentina when I was almost 40.  I do sort of wish that I could have given both my children better fathers.  I was never good at choosing good men.  Thank goodness I have such wonderful strong girls, I've truly been blessed.

There are days like today that I'm finally feeling like I'm healing.  At least it is measured in days and not just hours here and there.  For awhile there I wondered if I'd ever feel better?  My heart was crushed, it's still damaged but I now feel like it won't hurt as much as it has.  I feel like I'm coming back to me.

I've missed me, the happy optimist, I let her go with my self worth.  I allowed myself to feel inadequate, not enough.  Funny thing is, that is the last think David wanted for me.  He loved the optimist and exuberant woman that I was.  That was what drew me to him.

He adored how upbeat I was, he wanted to feel what I was feeling.  Instead of maintaining that feeling, I had allowed myself to feel less then positive, I was drained.  There is nothing wrong with loving someone with you whole heart and soul.  Just as long as you remember who you are and what it was that actually attracted someone to you.  Oh that's right, being myself.

I guess I didn't believe in myself enough and I changed, I didn't keep my positive and happy self. The sun is out today and my mood is in a sunny mood.  There are miracles waiting to happen, I just had to get up and attract them into my life.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield