Missing In Action

I've had the desire to write but first I had to write to someone.  It has been a very long time since I have sat down and wrote an actual letter by hand.  I wanted this to be personal, I seriously think we have became an impersonal society with all of our technology.  Instead of being thoughtful, we text out a quick sentence... it's wonderful that we have that ability but with that quickness we lose the meaning sometimes.

I have to admit it was taking me awhile since I seem to think so much quicker because I am continually taking in so much information all the time.   Like right this moment I am writing this and going back and forth reading notifications.  I'm not focused, I have been noticing this lately but I realized it more when I sat down to write that letter...

I had to turn everything off.. not an easy thing for me to do and I didn't know why.  Then writing that letter made me realize how I always try to keep it noisy, even when I sleep... I NEVER turn my phone off, that changes tonight... I often fall asleep with the TV... another thing to go.

That letter took a lot out of me emotionally... I wrote and rewrote it, it's finally done.  While writing it, I had no energy to write anything else... I had the desire but I was exhausted.

Tonight I was reading blogs and Dawn who writes Healing Morning wrote about meditation... it's the answer to what I need.  I'm starting this tonight and in the morning... I need to clear my mind, I need to make quiet time.  I know that when I do this, I will have a better start to my day, hopefully with less stress. 

It might help with my insomnia... it may have me focused in the morning.  I can see this being good for me.  I'm looking forward to that fifteen minutes or more... eventually I want it to be 30 minutes twice a day. An hour a day for myself seemed like a lot but I give those hours away so easily for unimportant things that I realized an hour a day for myself is a small thing to ask. 

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥

A Day Of Catching Up

I have had a hectic couple of days, the first thing is that I have a slight infection in my graft site, I am taking antibiotics... every six hours for ten days.  I am sure it will be cleared up by the time I am back to work.  I feel fine, I am even walking without my lovely (NOT) purple cane.  I am still building up muscle from being so stationary for so long.  I have been getting out a little each day and gaining a little strength slowly.

I finally purchased a new computer after twelve long years, I am very happy about this as my old one was sooo sluggish and slow that it would take me about an hour to get a blog post out after I wrote it.  I can see it will be much easier as it does not freeze up like my old one.  However; I have to say I am so very technically challenged and as much as I love technology, I also become incredibly frustrated easily. 

I had it set up yesterday and it took until late in the evening for me to figure out how to operate Window 8... lol.   Most of it is set up, I just need the scanner/printer and the sound hooked up.  I am letting Valentina use the old one, once we can get that one back up on line, I will need to move everything from that computer to this one... oh joy oh bliss.  All I can say is thank goodness for Cindy and any of my other techy friends.

I spent the majority of the evening tonight catching up on the blogs that I follow, I love reading other peoples stories about their lives.  What I love most about blogging is the connection with people all over the world.  I think it is amazing how I can converse with people in Finland, Poland, Australia, England, Romania, Brazil... I know I am leaving out countries, I apologize  and of course I cannot leave out North America.

When I think of growing up in the early seventies, I realize how small my world was... technology changed very little back then.  It sped up a lot in the nineties and for me it became a challenge to keep up.  I have to thank my oldest daughter Andrea, she led me into the new century of technology, with her love of every new gadget, as well she was so proficient in their uses. 

Although I adore all the new items to keep us more connected, I sometimes wonder if it doesn't disconnect us with the over load.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥