Handling Curve Balls

I stumbled upon a new blog, I try hard  not to add new blogs since I am following so many but I can't help myself sometimes... If someone can draw me into their world within the first paragraph I am usually hooked... add another blog to my list.... This one is so inspiring and full of uplifting thoughts, I am excited to see each new blog post in the future.  It is simply called Christine Hassler  the post today titled Are you WAY to serious?

If you have a chance pop on over and read it, she had a few bad incidents after another over a few days and how she ended up reacting to them.  It reminded me of a time in March of 2008, one morning I woke up and decided to do my laundry... my wash machine had died, I stayed calm and ordered another one, I went off to work and ended up being taken into the office and told that I would be suspended for two days... mind you, they never explained why... I chose to take vacation pay for the whole week and I started looking for a new job, within five months I landed my job where I am now. Third I arrived home late to receive a call from my land lady that she wasn't going to renew my lease, I asked her if there was anything else, I thanked her for calling me and I went about finding a new apartment within three months, where I currently live.

I don't remember the actual day in March of 2008 but I can tell you this, it is a day I will never forget, it is a day where I handled one catastrophe after another and not one single one of them fazed me in the least.  It was because I figured that two of the three incidents happened for a reason and that if I went with it instead of against it, I would see big changes.  I say this because, I had been talking about moving for six months prior to this and talking about getting a new job because I knew where I was working that they were going to lose the project due to the horrible management.  Even though I had talked at length about making these changes, I did nothing until that day. That day was an answer to pushing me in the right direction, I felt like it ended up being one of the best days I have had.  I handled one thing after another and even smiled...

I especially smiled when I was being suspended without any reason explained... I smiled at my boss, asked her if there was anything else and then I thanked her, smiled and left the office.  You should have seen the look on their faces, they had no idea what to make of me, I didn't care, I know that I am an extremely hard worker who puts a lot of myself into my job... especially when I feel appreciated for my efforts. The previous company just didn't appreciate me, that is their loss... Now I am with a wonderful company that rewards the effort you put into your job.

What I learned from that day was that sometimes life throws you every curve ball in the book ... it is like bam, bam, bam... one right after another.  How we choose to react most of the time will impact how we deal with that challenge.  It's not always easy to just say, oh well... I will just move or I will just get a new job... but sometimes we are given those trials to get us to get up off our butts and make some changes.

I remember Oprah talking about how we get a whisper of what we need to do, then we get a shout, then we get a brick.... if we don't get it before this, the whole wall tumbles on us.  This is so true, I wish I wasn't so resistant to change all the time, I have proven time and again that when I flow with change, it ends up being amazing.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥

Gaining Strength Through Adversity

First I want to apologize but I had to put on the comment moderation due to the fact that there has been so much spam lately.  You just won't be able to see your comment immediately.  I also wanted to give you a quick update on my leg.  I am healing slowly... I have got out for two small walks... maybe 15 to 30 minutes, a bit exhausting for me but I am taking my time.

Wellness, ease, synchronicity, and tiny miracles are delicious indicators that I'm in tune with myself, my message, my purpose, and my innermost essence. ~ Dina Proctor

This quote touched me to the core, for this has been true in my life, when I am in tune with myself, I am peaceful with me.  Lately I have been going through something personal that I haven't talked about because I have decided to be as positive and uplifting that I can be on my blog.  So, I have been coping with this on my own, I am finding that although it is painful... I can see how it will be okay, eventually.

This is just a process that I have to go through so that I can be in tune with myself... to really understand my innermost essence.  It's because I can see that everything will work out the way it was meant to that I can get through this most painful time.  I am grateful that I know this will only be short term, this won't last.

One day I even hope to look back and see that I became stronger because of it and maybe I will even be able to smile... That is when we really learn the lesson and we stop making the same mistake over and over.  I still have many of those lessons to learn, I am taking them one at a time....

"The flower that blooms in adversity is the rarest and most beautiful of all." ~ Walt Disney

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥

My Thoughts On Two And A Half Hours Sleep

I was up most of the night last night.  I kept waking up, dozing...  I was so tempted to stay home and rest my leg and get some much needed sleep but as a single working mom, I don't have that choice.

I'm already making up time from missing a Monday, this would only be adding to it more.  If there is anyone who wants 2012 gone now, it's me. I had such high hopes for this year, it just didn't work out the way it should have.

I'm stuck in Nova Scotia when my 'D' is not feeling good.  I want to be there for him, I want to take care of him.  I just sit here worrying and praying that he'll be okay and mostly that he won't have to go back in for surgery again.  It seems like every other person I talk to is having great difficulties... how I wish everyone's load gets a little lighter soon.

I'm trying to stay positive and uplifting, especially with my David. He's finding it difficult to feel good when he keeps having these set backs.  I know how he feels though, my leg starts getting better then I walk somewhere and the pain sets in for a couple of days. It's hard to keep myself up but I don't give up, if I did I would never get out of bed.

I wonder when I'm just going to feel like myself again?  I don't expect perfection, I just want to feel okay.  Battling your health is nasty, I've known how blessed I was, I can't wait to feel that way again.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield 

Choose One Challenge

I was reading up on all the blogs I follow and I came upon this one about choosing one challenge from All Good Things 

CHOOSE ONE CHALLENGE

Turn off the TV for a week

Catch the bus to work or the shops

Take your lunch from home, to work, everyday for 1 week and save @ $25.00

Walk to the shops

Make a budget for yourself or your family

Make a weekly menu for dinner

Write down 6 things that make you happy that don't cost money

Give up smoking

Drink tap water instead of soda, juice or soft drinks for a week

Do not purchase anything for a week: make do with what you have

I have chosen to create a weekly menu for dinner and really follow it.  I will be starting this on Wednesday.


Are you game? Which one will you choose?

Check out the blog below, it is about good things, quotes, ideas, places and people:


http://good-allthingsgood.blogspot.ca

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield 

 

Life Experiences Give Us The Opportunity To Strengthen Our True Character

The only way to get what you want is to risk being uncomfortable. The greater your gratitude for discomfort, the greater the opportunity. ~ Chris Cade

Some people raise us up, some people pull us down.  Why do we choose to waste our time on the one's who drag us down?  I think we (people who believe others can change) really believe that people are good underneath.  That isn't always true though, some people are out to hurt us no matter how good we are to them.

I've made a conscious decision to have people in my life who uplift me and care about me.  Life is too hard to have anything but the best people as your friends to support you.  I know that I have no desire to tear my friends down, I want them to be happy and successful. 

I heard something profound tonight, it made me cry because I realized I had been too wrapped up in other things, than taking care of myself.  I need to be thankful and grateful for the way circumstances have happened to me in my life.  From these things I have grown, the bigger the trial, the bigger the chance to grow.

So instead of looking at our trials as burdens we have to carry, we need to be really thankful for them as those trials have made us who we are.   If someone cannot appreciate that they could have had it all, that is their loss.  Each day I'm moving forward and building on being a better me and when the time comes as I know it will; I'll be there, not to mock and say I always knew exactly how everything would turn out.  I'll be there to understand and forgive; everyone makes mistakes, everyone can change.

 I'm really a forgiving person, I give people many chances.  I always forgive and move on, I don't want to waste any of my time or energy trying to figure out why someone would act like that.  I just move on and be happy.

Someone once told me that our life experiences teach us how to behave. But I believe our life experiences give us the opportunity to strengthen our true character. ~ Michelle Ernsdorff

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

Being My Own Knight In Armor‏

Your knight in armor should be yourself

I think my whole life I've had this sadness under the surface because I never ended up with the knight who would slay my dragons for me. I've come to realize I need to slay my own dragons and maybe slay a few for him too.  I feel I missed a great deal of my life by not being present, always looking for what was up ahead, it had to be better, didn't it?  Nothing is better than right here and now. It's truly all we really have. 

I talked to my Andrea on Skype and got to see my little grandson Jackson. That boy is handsome and my daughter looks like Adele (the singer) or I should say Adele looks like my daughter, both of them are beautiful.

My D is going away for 14 long days. No communication, I'll be sending him a homemade treat this weekend so that when he gets home, it will be there for him to enjoy. I'm going to miss him but 2 weeks will fly. See life is spinning away fast, I want to enjoy each minute I've been blessed with.

I only want to spend it with people who uplift me, people who care about me.   Those people are few and far between, the older I get the more I realize how difficult it is to really open up to another person fully.

I have traits or ideas that are quirky or different, I'm as unique as my name. I was born for a higher purpose as we all are but I truly know that now.  I think I was afraid of failing in the past, time is getting short though, I don't worry about failing nearly as much anymore.  Eventually it will lead to success. 

Although I know certain things for sure, where I have absolutely no doubt.  I have to live my life in the here and now, being my own knight in armor.  Until the day I have my own worthy knight that will help me slay my dragons and I'll help him slay his too.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

The Decision Is Ours To Make, When We Are Ready

Every moment is special and is worthy of your attention. ~ Leah Carey
 
Special moments are everywhere we look, we just have to focus.  Most times we as human beings are too self absorbed in our own life to see the beauty that is there for us.

I really looked this time on the way to work, beautiful flowers that were almost everywhere I could see.  Little children skipping along with their parents, the children show joy in all their surroundings.  Kitty cats sauntering along and then suddenly pouncing on something.  The calm waters in the harbor I drive over ever day.

I don't drive so I can take this time to just gaze while I'm on the bus.  Usually though I'm lost in my own thoughts, my own issues to see what is right there.  I have been feeling the need to be more present, more aware.

I had an epiphany the other morning, in my need to be loved, I forgot that it is me that makes me happy.  Also no matter how happy I am, I cannot make someone else feel this.  Some people are just not ready to be in that place, they want to be negative and in the "poor me" attitude. 

I just think they are afraid to believe that they have the right to feel happy and they deserve it.  Unfortunately they are missing out on the best times of their lives, the most wonderful experiences.  It's their loss, now that is truly sad. Especially when the opportunity to have sheer pleasure and joy was within their reach. They just had to believe and hold on for a little longer. 

The only thing I can do is be happy and radiate that as much as possible, if someone is not ready for that, I still have to continue on that path.... otherwise I will not be able to keep myself positive and uplifting.  I really refuse to go down to anyone's level again.  Instead, I am willing to help someone raise up so that they can feel worthy and loved too; all they have to do is want it.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

Happiness Is Contagious

"Happy people continuously change; and because they change they become more and more happy; and then more and more change is possible."- Osho

Isn't that quote above uplifting, because it reminds me of how deliriously happy I was last summer.  I was on cloud nine for all of the summer and the fall.  It seemed the happier I became the more I shared it, the more I radiated.  It was an incredible feeling. 

I'm not even sure my writing could do it justice, I don't think I have the words. This didn't even start with my David, that was the icing on the cake to follow.  I was just truly happy, I glowed... much like I'm starting to feel again and I'm so grateful!!!

I have returned to basics again, remembering what got me to where I wanted to be.  I lost my way by forgetting my own worth and not realizing my potential.  I have a way of making a list of what I want and then going about making it happen.

I stopped believing in myself and doubting that I could have what I want.  All because I allowed myself to think that there was something wrong with me when there isn't.  I'm a really good person, I am as honest as possible without being hurtful. I love with my whole entire heart.  I am faithful to the core. These are great attributes, every last one of us that has any kind of moral compass has awesome attributes too.

We all have our own strengths and weaknesses, it's our ability to recognize our strengths that propel us in our growth. Oh yes growth can be painful, I know this too well as each of us do.  We all have things we need to work on, I feel thankful that I remember that my strength was believing in myself and really know everything will happen as it should.  It always does.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

Freedom To Be And Breathe

I've been in a fog with my CPA course, finally done, a respectable 72%, if not the best mark, I think I did okay with everything that was going on with my life.  I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can breathe.  I'm taking 6 weeks to spend lots of time with Valentina and calling Andrea often.  I may take an accounting course in the fall,  I like accounting though:).  I also want to get caught up with my blog friends and their blogs.

I noticed today that I have over 100 followers, thank you everyone; that's a huge milestone for a personal blog.  I am really touched that so many people read and follow my blog.

Also, I really want to thank Dana for posting about how to get social media buttons on your blog, she sent me to a blog called Greatfun4kids that had it spelled out so easy, even I could make them.  They look so pretty across the top of my blog.  As well, I wanted to thank Rhodora for explaining how to add 'you may also like these links'.  Next I'm doing a full blog revamp, I'm not all that technical but I hope it turns out pretty.

This weekend I'm tweaking the inspiring blog I had and getting it posted soon.  It has really touched me, I have lots of ideas.  I did want to have everything created at the same time but I think I will just get the blog out, then create the Facebook page and work from there.

It's interesting that one thing can change your whole life on a dime.  I've had some life changing moments and they are becoming awesome even though they were difficult.  It's not easy to go through the refining process even when it ultimately makes us much better people.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

The Choice Is Ours

"Love is the greatest power on earth. It conquers all things."

"This is the miracle that happens every time to those who really love: the more they give, the more they possess." ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

I was talking to a woman yesterday that asked me how I was doing?  I said 'Awesome' with conviction; I am doing awesome and I'm very happy.  Life is great and each day is a gift.  She thanked me for being so positive as she found it so hard to be that way.

I told her happiness is a choice each and everyday. I explained that I understood where she was coming from but that the whole truth was that if she really wanted to be happy she could be.  Sometimes we stay with our sad stories because we don't want to do the work.  We are getting something from those sad stories.  I know this because I used to do this, I was negative, depressed and sad all the time.  I had a poor me attitude and I felt like the world was against me.  Guess what, that's what I attracted!   I had to consciously decide that I wanted better, I wanted to attract happiness and love and I do now.

That's why I gave up blogging for a couple of days last month; if I cannot be positive and uplifting, I will not be there to bring people down.  I took the time to really think, that is when I got inspired and now I have my plan;). I have to say it's moving a long at a good pace.

I made the choice to be happy no matter what and I realized how little I had be valuing myself.  Really???   The truth is that when we don't value ourselves, no one else can.  I wonder where I ever thought it was okay to under value myself.  God/universe knows how wonderful we are and He's waiting for us to see this as well.

He wants us to feel wonderful, happy  and excited so that we can see the many amazing blessings in our lives.  When we can see these, we can share them and this will help us to be even happier.  Don't you want to be happier?  I do, I want to be exuberantly happy.

I want to uplift and be a joy to the people in my life.

"The quality of your life is DIRECTLY related to the amount of UNCERTAINTY you can comfortably handle." ~ Tony Robbins

Everything Is Possible!

When people say you can’t do it~that it’s impossible~never lose hope. Just because they couldn’t doesn’t mean you can’t.~DAVID COPPERFIELD

I don't know why I ever let myself have a defeated attitude... nothing and I mean nothing is impossible.  I just have to look at things from a different angle.  I have been looking at my issue one way, like there was no way around it.  There is a way, there is always a way.  I just need to stop being negative, stop thinking that I don't deserve exactly what I deserve.  I am changing my attitude today, this instant.

I am not giving up, I am going to just handle it differently than I have been handling it.  I have been sad, depressed, defeated... hmmm.... you get exactly what you put out there.  I put this quote on my Facebook the other day and neglected to believe it:  "Everything you want also wants you." ~ Jack Canfield<3

So, I am going to be myself, positive, happy, uplifting... also, I am going back to the cleanse for the food part.  I was supposed to start on Monday and I let it slip my mind.  I am starting it tomorrow.  I felt great when I was on it, getting rid of refined sugar and wheat.  I'm pretty sure I will keep dairy as I don't have an issue with that.  I LOVED eating so much salad, fruit and vegetables.

I have been inspired today and started on my plan, one small step at a time and then I will be exactly where I want to be, exactly where I should be.  I believe that what I want is always a possibility unless I take it off the table.  I am not taking this off the table, this is way too important...  There is the tenacity that I have blogged about... the part of me that won't give up until I get exactly what I want.

I Still Believe In Love

This post is inspired by a comment left by one of the people that reads my blog.  She said she didn't believe in the fairy tale of love,  after these past few months I have wanted to not believe either but I can't say that.  Love exists, what I have/had with David was and is real, I didn't imagine all those beautiful and amazing feelings.  Unfortunately dreams change, it is difficult when they change from what we know they should be.

I know my posts have been a little emotional and I am sure they will be for a little while.  Love doesn't go away easily, at least not with me. When I love someone, I love them with my entire heart and soul and the truth is that even though it has not worked out the way that I know it was meant to with David, it doesn't mean that it shouldn't have.  What it means is that people have their own agency and their own fears that they have to get past.

What I had to come to terms with this week is that I needed to figure out if I was strong enough to still be friends with David and I am.  My heart that is broken right now would never be able to heal without him in my life.  He believes in me, he centers me and he says I am his strong girl.  In the past I used to stuff all my feelings inside me, using many ways not to deal with what I was going through but because I have David there, I talk to him, he listens.  I never want to disappoint him.

I am lucky, luckier than even David... I have so many people in my life who pray for me, think positive and uplifting thoughts for me, who want the best for me.  I have people all over the world and I have my strength in what I know is true.  I am not alone and I know that I am extremely blessed.  David doesn't have all this, I will never let him feel alone.  Regardless of how sad I have been and how emotional my life is right now, I know that I will get through, I always find a way.

I believe in love, it does exist, I have felt it and I still do.

Who Do I Want To Be When I Grow Up?

A wonderful question was posed to me today in one of my many positive and uplifting emails I received today "Who do I want to be when I grow up?", not the old saying of "what do I want to be?" What I do for a job does not define who I am, who I am defines me.

I've been on overload lately, spreading myself way too thin. When did I think it was okay to do this to myself? I was on the way to work today, pouring down rain and my mood matched it. The bus was late, it didn't connect, someone was smoking in the bus shelter, I had to stand outside in the rain.

Finally I stopped, said a prayer that I would relax, in the grand scheme of life, I won't be late for work, I will just not as early as I like. Freaking out was NOT making it better. I calmed down, my bus showed up and I made the next connection.

Besides it's David's birthday, it's going to be an awesome day<3. So back to the question, who do I want to be? I want to be the girl who shows love, happiness, inspires people and myself, I want to live outside my comfort zone so I can grow to my potential. I want to serve and I want to follow the path that was meant for me

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For me to be all this and more I have to look after myself for if I don't do this no one else will. I will be no good to anyone if I keep stretching myself too thin. So today I'm not taking anything extra on my plate, I have work, my course, Valentina, blogging ~ that's my limit for now. Come Saturday I can add in other things I want/need to do.

I hope everyone has an awesome day and thinks about how they can reduce to remove unneeded stress in their lives.

A New Day, A New Choice

 A question I had about myself was if I could really walk the walk and talk the talk? Yesterday proved that I can and I will. The girl of the past would have ranted about the injustice and unfairness! I won't do that, I'll take the injustice and better myself. I won't let it drag me down, I'll rise above it.


Many other people in this world have had much more injustice than myself. My little issue is so small and insignificant that giving it any negative energy would only help it to grow. I am better then that, I am stronger.

Today is a new day, a day to work towards positive and uplifting goals, ones that will help me attain my truths. God/Universe loves me and wants me to succeed and I have surrounded myself with people who love and believe in me. I welcome apposing feelings if they come, for it means I'll learn a lesson that will help me to grow.

No one can bring me down but me and that pity train has left my depot with no more stops. When someone is negative with me, I smile and tell them I hope they have an awesome day. People tend not to be negative with me;). They are either positive or they ignore me, either way is fine with me. It is their choice if they want to grow, I can't make people feel happy within, only they can.

Don't get me wrong, I totally sympathize when someone has had a bad day or has had something truly horrible happen. I am talking about people who have nothing good to say ever. You know the one's I speak of, the sun can be shining and it can be an amazing day but they cannot (or refuse to) see the good. I need not waste my energy on them.

On a thrilling note, I'm on cloud nine; in less then one week my David will arrive home and I will FINALLY get to talk to him after a very long 40 days. I will be one ecstatically happy girl, I'm pretty sure I'll be floating and my feet won't touch the ground. I sent him the email that I had compiled over my 30 day cleanse, I warned him in the title it was a book, lol ;).

Also I am down another 2 pounds in 5 days, so that is a total of 42 pounds in 14 weeks. I can and will do this, I am more than capable of succeeding, I just have to put my mind to it. I'm not a quitter!!!

I hope everyone has an amazing day filled with positively and love<3

Attracting Your Own Reflection

 You attract to yourself reflections of that which you are. If you're friendly then everybody else seems to be friendly too."

Dr. David Hawkins

I am a quote fanatic for the people who don't know me personally;). Anything that is uplifting, thought provoking and resonates with me, I collect, save and use. There is more than enough to drag us down in this world, I work hard to counter act the negative events in life.

I am the type of person who always tries to see the positive in even the difficult times, that is the only way I'm truly happy. Otherwise I could let the weight of the world drag me down but I don't just want to be a survivor; I want to thrive and be my best.

I'm so thankful for all the blogs I follow, each one of them uplift me in ways most of you won't understand. I love the poetry, fashion, quotes, photos and the real ones where people are so honest about themselves. I believe in being authentic, if you can't be happy in this moment I understand, I just want them to know there is always an alternative around the corner if they choose.

I love following the big blogs with lots of followers because I want to have many people follow mine but I also love following blogs with only a few followers and commenting on what people have said.

I LOVE comments, so I know other people do as well, all we really want in this life is to be seen, heard, loved and to know that our thoughts count and matter. Although I love the comments, I'm getting past needing validation from my peers, I'm a work in progress. I look for validation within myself, from God and from the Universe.

There will be people who don't get my blogs and that's okay, I don't judge them, we all have our right to feel as we do. I'm just incredibly grateful for all the people I follow and who follow me, I have learned so much about all the different cultures around the world; AMAZING!!!

I walked to the mall again and was about 2 minutes short of catching the early bus, woo hoo. In no time I will be able to catch that one. I'm just happy that I didn't jump on the convenient bus at my door, I went past it and walked, YEAH

I hope everyone has a fabulous day, I know I will !!! Keep blogging everyone:).