Having an aha moment

Today I had another aha moment, I have been reading and studying the book Women Food and God by Geneen Roth.  I had a moment almost two months ago and immediately changed how I ate. I don't deprive myself of food, I really think about what I am eating. I make a conscious choice to listen to myself and put myself first. I used to say, I don't have time to eat breakfast, I make time now.  I never took a lunch but then I would buy junk food to eat, now I take lots of vegetables and fruit so that I never even think of buying junk.

Lately though, I have been wondering how I could  be eating so healthy, so thoughtfully and still not losing any weight. Today I realized that it was because I have tortured my body for so many years by never listening to it, by depriving it of food or gorging beyond belief. I understood that my body is not believing me because I have never listened to it in the past but I know that the weight loss can not be denied as my body will catch up with my mind and the weight loss will happen.  My body will believe what I know what my mind already knows.

I also want to teach my children differently, especially my youngest daughter at home, I know that I have to set the example before she will ever learn it. I have to show her that food is not love and that if she really is to love herself, she will listen to what her body wants and she will deal with the pain without shoving it down with food.

I am so incredibly grateful that I have been open to the message and that I have continued to be open to each message that meant to help guide me to be the best me.

My birthday wish

The older I get, the less that I want things for my birthday, the more that I want relationships to be happy and fulfilling. The truth is that you cannot take things with you when you die but the love you feel for someone is always in your heart.

So, for my birthday wish this year, I want someone special to realize how wonderful they are and I want them to know how special I am too.  We would be amazing together if we just took the chance.  I believe enough for the two of us;)

Oh and honestly, I could care less what other people think of who I care for, it is not their life and they don't make decisions for me.  I make my own decisions. Too bad I wasted so much of my life caring what other people think but atleast I finally got it and didn't waste my whole life being that way:)

I have learned to love myself which I know will help other people to love me too, for no one can love you enough if you don't love yourself first. You attract what you give out, that is why I know that I can attract what I want in my life and now the sky in the limit.  I only want the best now, nothing second rate, just the person that I love:)