Sweeping It Under The Rug

The only thing that matters now is my mission.  Nothing will stand in the way anymore.  
This upcoming week is going to be insane. I don't know how I am going to keep it all together... My sister from New York state is in town until Friday, so I will want to see her. The final weigh in for the contest is Friday morning, so I will want to walk a lot. I have two physio appointments, a family dinner and I promised to get Valentina's ears pierced.  As well, I have regular cleaning such as dishes, laundry and sweeping... etc..

All of this with working full time and I am emotional... geesh. I know why I am emotional, I am just trying to sweep it under the rug until Friday when I will have time to deal with it.... I hope... I started feeling stressed when I realized I just don't have time to write this week, unless I give up sleep, which I don't advocate for me... However; I gave up a little sleep last night in hopes that it will be enough to tide me over until Friday... otherwise I might have a melt down. I know life is about balance but sometimes it is pretty hard to keep that balance when everything is being thrown at me from all sides.
I need to get through this week, spend time with my sister, walk as much as I can, win the contest and then deal with the issue under the rug. I'm afraid of that issue but I don't have the time or emotions to handle it right now; if I let myself think about it I cry... so I try not to let myself think about it.

I really pushed myself with my sister with walking yesterday, we walked over the bridge and back (1.3 miles each way) and we were able to maintain an average 15.15 minute mile. She challenged me, she looked like she barely broke a sweat, she could talk... I could not. She is in great shape as she has always exercised over the years where I have not... A good wake up call for me. Now that I know I can walk a mile in that time, I want to push myself to get there as much as possible... not every time but as much as possible...
Valentina and I are in need of mama/daughter time, which we will do tonight when I take her out to get her ears pierced ... next weekend will be about her and I as school is back in on Tuesday September 3rd... I took the day off so I could take her. I just want to help her get organized for the first day and I want her to feel special.  Starting out in the higher grades are scary, she is going into grade 5 and children are very clicky... I am trying to instill in her now that these children and their ideas are not important in the long run but it is really hard to get that through to your children as it feels all to real to them.

I have been so busy with exercising, I have had little time for anything else... hence why I swept some things under the rug... by doing this though, I have seen how emotional it makes me.. just a strong reminder that I have to deal with these issues as they happen... no matter how much I don't want to... no matter how afraid I am... There I go, crying again... If there is anything I have learned in the past two years is that burying anything just means it comes back bigger and more difficult to deal with... fearing the outcome is not a good enough reason to ignore it but time constraints are a good enough reason to at least hold off...

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥  

38 comments :

  1. I really hope you win the contest and I hope you and Valentina have some good mother/daughter time soon.

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    1. Thank you Keith... I'm pretty sure I'm winning the contest. I'll have to wait until Saturday for time with Valentina :-)

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  2. I am reallly really inspired by your amazing ambition to go over your limits...Valentina must be so proud of you...

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    1. Thank you Petronela... I'm amazed at what I have accomplished too ;-)

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  3. Have a great time with your sister this week! And I bet Valentina is so-o excited to have her ears pierced! Such a awesome milestone for every girl. Take the week to be with your family and walk and well see you in a few days, We'll still be here. :)

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    1. Thank you Joy... I'm going to exercise as much as I can in the morning so I can do the family and physio in the evening ;-)

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  4. Take a deep breath, and let it out slowly. Relax. It's gonna be okay. Enjoy your visit with your sister, your time with your daughter, and then go kick some butt at the contest results weigh-in. And remember, no matter what that scale says, you've already won. Just look at you! And smile.

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    1. Thank you Susan... I'll do the best I can to relax... I'll let you all know the results as soon as possible ;-)

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  5. I would be so proud if I were in your shoes. It is not about gaining or loosing, it is about trying and you have:0

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    1. Thank you Munir, I am happy with myself... I've accomplished a great deal ;-)

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  6. Me too....you inspire me. Your focus is amazing. Love it. Hey Launna...have fun with your daughter. Hugs

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    1. Thank you Nikki... I love my focus... I am incredibly grateful. Saying this I know it is available to anyone who wants it :-D

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  7. keep doing what you doing, you are doing amazing. I really am busy with my 3 boys too. but I make a bit of time for just post and go visit my favorite blogs.. but I also agree with all the words above:) thanks for stopping by Launna. have a lovely and enjoy your company with your daughter.

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    1. Thank you Tanya, I usually have more of a balance in my life... this week has been busier with my sister here and double physio appts. It will calm down a little soon :-)

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  8. I like the second quote, about priorities, it's very real!

    Xoxo!

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    1. Thank you Fashion Lover... I put that second quote up to remind me that I only thought I was busy... it was truthfully about priorities :)

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  9. I know that I stopped by yesterday, but I had to reread your blog entry to make sure that you are OK. Sometimes my mind just does not register every thing I read. Just take good care of yourself including a balance diet. Looks will come as a fringe benefit, believe me, I am an old timer.

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    1. Thank you again Munir, I am taking good care of myself, I see my doctor monthly and my sister knows nutrition, she has looked over my meals and says I am eathing very well :)

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    1. Thank you Inge... after today I can start working on that issue under the rug... :-/

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  11. ♥♥♥I still remember my childhood for the 1st time i ears pierced..feeling soo different n special..nway push urself is a good motivate but pls take care ur health and good luck for ur contest but for sure u already win now Launna..have a nice day smileee ^___________^ much ♥♥♥ from me..

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    1. Thank you Wawa, I am definitely taking care of my health, losing this weight is helping immensely :)

      Once I get Valentina's ears pierced, I will put up pictures :)

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  13. So glad to hear you are making such great progress with the weight loss and the walking! As far as sweeping things under the rug...yeah, that never works. it just festers inside you until you burst. You gotta let that stuff out before it poisons you.

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    1. Thank you Marcia, I am with you on dealing with the issue under the rug... I can only sweep it under there for so long. After today, I will be dealing with it:)

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  15. Good luck with the contest, you can do it!!

    Going and getting your daughter's ears pierced sounds like some lovely mother/daughter time. :) I remember going with my mom and grandma when I was 8.

    I hope you can begin to work through the issues that are bothering you soon. The way I deal with it when I start getting depressed is writing and exercising.

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    1. Thank you Camille, yes I can do it... we can all do it, we just need to put our minds to it:)

      I always write and now I exercise... this week was limited with no writing and not nearly enough exercise with everything else I had to do... that is changing after today... time to deal with the issue under the rug :)

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  16. Good luck on the contest :)and thank you so much for all these wonderful comments on my blog :)
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    1. Thank you Cindy for your comment on my blog... I will let you all know about the contest outcome very soon:)

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  17. don´t stop doing what you do, you are doing wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    1. Thank you Julie, I won't stop doing what I am doing, I am on a mission:)

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  18. Have a great weekend Launna. Speak to you soon!

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