I had an aha moment today... then I heard the quote "what you focus on becomes your reality". Which I am well aware of but sometimes I need to be reminded, I totally understand that people don't always know how to take me... for the most part I am really happy, one of those silly happy people that smiles radiantly. So when I am sad, I am the complete opposite of the spectrum, I am real, I cry, I sob, I feel so much pain.
It really bothers me when people don't understand or judge me or anyone else who is sad. I am real, I have feelings both ways and really the majority of me is really happy, really positive, really uplifting. So I really hope that when I am sad, people will be kind and remember that it is a part of life. I have had sad incidents in my life, I have overcome massive issues in my life.
Yes I will be sad but it won't last forever, it never has, even when it feels like that. I know better, I really know that it will pass eventually. The aha moment I had today was being reminded that what I focus on becomes my reality. Valentina reminded me of this because she has such a strong faith, she tells me things without doubts. I realized that I had lost my focus and I had forgot that I have asked, I believe and I will receive.
I also forgot that what I want is good, wonderful and even awesome. I neglected to remember that I needed to give up the painful things that weigh me down. A lesson at church reminded me of that today. I can give my problems up to Heavenly Father and he will take those troubles away that weigh me down. I need to stop taking on all the problems in my life alone, I am not meant to deal with everything by myself. I am able to rely on my Heavenly Father.
So, I am back on track, I have given up some of my problems, things I can do nothing about... things I cannot change. I also will pray with the heart of a child, like Valentina does, I will believe that because what I want is good, wonderful and awesome that I deserve it. Most of all I will focus on the good, there is always something good and I will believe.
