Swing Highs

I've been extremely happy lately, for over a week straight. Very little has got me down. The only way I can explain it would be to liken it to something.

Do you remember when you were a kid, swinging on the swings?  Dropping your head back to make your belly feel funny but it made you feel great too?  Multiply that feeling by at least 10 fold and imagine having it almost all the time.

Well, that's what I feel like, it feels amazing. I want it to last forever but I know that it can't. I just want the memory of that feeling, I want to feel that good again for awhile.

It's been a long time since I felt this good, this optimistic and this positive. I am long over due in my life for a peaceful, calm and kind time period. Everyone needs that in their life at one time or another.

My life has been so chaotic for the past ten years of my life, too much drama!  I am so looking forward to a peaceful time in my life. I wish everyone could have that opportunity<3<3<3

On The Way

I am on the way, on a path I have long known that I was to follow.  Am I a little afraid, sure... but not to the point of not wanting to take the path.  I love where I am at in my life right now, I like that I am more motivated than I have been in a very long time.

I spent this last week, trying to keep organized so that I could spend time actually cleaning this week.  I was finally able to clean the kitchen floor, stove and fridge.  It looks so good out there, just making me want to do more.  I have purged so much and it feels so good, so energized. 

This week ahead is going to be so busy but it will all be worth it in the end, I will be ready for the next chapter of my life.  The next thing I need to do is start studying for my PCP.  If I am to make headway with work, I need to put more effort out there.  That will be my challenge trying to balance, home, work and fun, I can't allow myself to let it overwhelm me again.  I just need to focus better.

This whole next month is going to be exciting, Andrea will be delivering Jackson Lukka, I hope she and I can work things out sooner than later, I really want to be able to have a relationship with her. She is very important to me, I love her so much. We had question posed at work the other day about who we admired in our lives.  I chose Andrea, she amazes me with how far she has come.  She did not become a statistic of her circumstances, she rised above it all and made something of herself and fell in love with the love of her life. I am extremely proud of her.

I am also watching Valentina grow into a young woman, she is so kind and caring... I want the best for her, I want to nurture her kindness so that she will always be the strong and kind person that she is now. I have been blessed with two wonderful daughters, I am extremely grateful and thankful.

I feel creative

It has been a very long time since I blogged, I have felt that I have been lacking creativity.  I couldn't even think of anything to write. Today is different though, I finally feel like writing again.  I had a pretty awesome day today.  I have been spending so much time organizing, cleaning and getting myself on a bit of a schedule.  Which I most certainly needed to do as I was in such a deep rut and my house told the story.

So, for the past month or so, I have done nothing but organize me and my home.  I have been working toward a goal, a goal that might have been realized today. I have been so goal oriented ever since I heard someone say that to find happiness you had to find your passion, your reason for being where you are in your life.

I found one answer to a path I knew I was destined to be on and now I have an opportunity to fulfill a goal I was meant to have. I don't think anyone of us was only meant to be here for one reason and one reason only. We were meant to be here for many reasons, to help out many people and to accept help when you need it. I have been so blessed to be able to be on the end of both accepting help and giving help.  I know how grateful the person who is getting help and it makes me feel so good to give to know that I have helped another person.

Not so sure where I go from full filling that goal but I know it will be where ever I am meant to go, I love that I am open and ready for whatever may come along. That's all we can really do while we are here, to just notice each other, care about one another and love each other. We all just want to know that someone sees us, cares about us and possibly loves us.

I feel so grateful, so at peace with what life will offer and what I have now.  I want to feel this good all the time but sadly that is not possible, for without sadness you cannot appreciate the happiness. I just have to be stronger when the unhappy times comes and keep positive as I know that happiness will be around the corner soon;)