Gratitude for life

Today, I am thinking of how blessed I am and the gratitude I have for it. Sometimes when things don't go the way I want, I forget how lucky I really am. Just when I think I have it all figured out I have something good happen that reminds me I don't. Maybe we are not supposed to have it all figured out, if we did life would be pretty boring.

The bumps in the road we travel end up being what helps us grow, it's so hard to remember when we hit a bump though. I think gratitude is the way to remember, so with my blogging I am going to be grateful for one thing each time.

I am grateful for my two daughters, I could not be luckier in having two beautiful, kind, smart and caring girls. I don't always remember which I cannot believe I don't always keep that at the fore front of my thoughts. My life would be pretty meaningless without them, they ground me in ways I am sure they are not aware.

Now to work on being a better person each day so I can be a better mommy or mama.

Long Past Due

First I have to say, I have missed blogging. My computer was down for nearly a month and I never realized how much I needed it. I thought well, I have my blackberry but it is really hard to write a post on one of those items.

The older I get, the more I realize age is just a number. I am 46 yet I feel 16 sometimes. I still do foolish things that as an adult you would think I would know better. I feel like the way I act and the things I do, I would tell my daughters to grow up.  Well, I would be a fine one to talk with how I have been behaving lately.

I have also learned to cut myself a little slack, I have had so many things to deal with in the past two years. In dealing with all that has been dealt to me, I have not been myself.  I am starting to handle things better but I still want what I want;)

I guess I have also got to an age that I don't want anyone telling me how to live my life, even if they feel they know best.  I am sure everyone is well meaning but it gets tiring hearing the same thing over and over.  I will live the way I want and I am the one who will deal with the consequences.  No amount of fear will make me live a way I don't want to, I want to have fun, enjoy myself and live a little.

Well, I definitely plan to blog more, being without it made me realize how much I really miss it.