My Potential Is More Than I Know












I have had an interesting/dull day, I woke up at five am and worked on my CPA assignment for over two hours.  This course is so much more boring than I ever thought possible...  I am at the point of who cares.  I cannot see myself doing this as a career, trying to figure out which taxable, non taxable car allowance the employee is supposed to have.  I like the job I have now as it is helping people and I don't need to know boring legislation.

I completed the assignment in a little over two hours, of course I did spend a couple of hours last night researching in too... can I say dull.  I am thinking it would be more fun to watch paint dry, lol.  There is one more of these courses that I have to take, I am seriously wondering why I am torturing myself.

Anyhow, I then slept for an hour until Cindy arrived here, I had her look over my assignment, then I sent it.  I read a ton of blogs, there are so many talented and uplifting people throughout this world, I love getting to know other people in the world through their blogs. I am always pleasantly surprised how much we are alike and yet culturally different, I have so much desire to travel and see the many types of cultures out there.  There is so much beauty in this world and I want to experience it all.

Then I wasted the rest of my day away until I picked Valentina up, did laundry and then dishes... woo hoo... Finally, I got to settle down and talk to my David.  I had been kind of weepy today... I had no real idea why.  I mean I have good things going on in my life, I couldn't figure out why I was weepy and reflective, I still haven't figured it out.  At least David and I chatted and he made me laugh as usual.  He can certainly lift my spirits easily, how did I not always have him in my life?  If I just had not been so darn shy when I was younger.

I don't have the time or energy to be shy any longer, it seriously is such a waste of time. I missed out on some very wonderful experiences in my life because of how shy I used to be.  I had been thinking about joining Toastmasters at work but then I realized I don't really need this as I can talk in large groups with no issues.  Not that I always could but as I get older I lose that fear more and more, now if I could just lose all my fears.  Then again, if I didn't have fear, I wouldn't be able to grow to my potential.











Fear is actually a good thing as long as we don't let it control us!  Fear can keep us safe and if it is irrational fear and we see this, we can embrace it and grow beyond our wildest dreams.  I have had some things happen to me today that most people would have fear about, I would have had fear about it in the past.  Today I just think, oh well... that is life, time to move on to my next stage.





8 comments :

  1. I think your accounting assignment had something to do with your mood. LOL!!! Just kidding!!! I do remember when I was 22 years old I going to school to become a CPA, until after a couple of assignment, to which I thought it would be much more fun to jump out of my 4th floor apartment window than continue on that path. I love numbers, but not all of the time.
    I do understand what you are saying!!! It sounds like you are really listening within and what you want to something else. How exciting!!! Best of luck with new and wonderful possibilities!!

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    1. Thanks Suzanne, I think you understand what I mean. I am wondering why I am wasting time with dull CPA things when there is so much beauty in life around us. I am listening within myself:)

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  2. You are so right, there´s so much in this world to see. I feel like i have been blind so many years ans woken up :) That is so true also, that fear.. it helps us to go forward.. if we dont let it control us.. Again, i love your blog :))))

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    1. Thank you Maarit, I feel like I was blind for far too many years and now that I have woken up, I just want to get moving:)

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  3. I'm a French-American (born in France to an American mother and French father...), so I already have that blended Franco-American culture (98% of the time, we eat late, etc). But I totally understand what you are saying.
    I do have a question, Launna. I would like to know if you would like to be a guest blogger on my blog.

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    1. Charly, I would love to travel to France someday too ;)

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  4. I feel exactly the same way about my electronics course in college at the moment. So hard to just not give up. But then I ask myself what was the point of my parents paying all that money?
    I also was very shy when I was younger, but I am getting better as I get older and writing my blog really helps. I am glad to see that you got over your shyness :) Fear is what helps us grow. Life wouldn't be any fun without fear. The adrenaline rush that can come from facing fears is amazing :)

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    1. Yes, I agree... fear is what helps us grow, the more scary the more growth. I am talking about the fear that scares us in a good way and makes us see our potential:) Thank you for dropping by Pacman656 and commenting:)

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