Miracles Can Happen Every Day


I've been thinking about the decisions I've made in my life.  Some were great, some not so smart; I often wonder where my brain was at times?  Like I've said many times, I'm pretty sure I wouldn't change my past decisions, even for all the foolish mistakes, for I could have missed some of the best times I've had in my life.

I would never change having my children, not even at the age I had them; Andrea at barely 18 and Valentina when I was almost 40.  I do sort of wish that I could have given both my children better fathers.  I was never good at choosing good men.  Thank goodness I have such wonderful strong girls, I've truly been blessed.




There are days like today that I'm finally feeling like I'm healing.  At least it is measured in days and not just hours here and there.  For awhile there I wondered if I'd ever feel better?  My heart was crushed, it's still damaged but I now feel like it won't hurt as much as it has.  I feel like I'm coming back to me.

I've missed me, the happy optimist, I let her go with my self worth.  I allowed myself to feel inadequate, not enough.  Funny thing is, that is the last think David wanted for me.  He loved the optimist and exuberant woman that I was.  That was what drew me to him.

He adored how upbeat I was, he wanted to feel what I was feeling.  Instead of maintaining that feeling, I had allowed myself to feel less then positive, I was drained.  There is nothing wrong with loving someone with you whole heart and soul.  Just as long as you remember who you are and what it was that actually attracted someone to you.  Oh that's right, being myself.

I guess I didn't believe in myself enough and I changed, I didn't keep my positive and happy self. The sun is out today and my mood is in a sunny mood.  There are miracles waiting to happen, I just had to get up and attract them into my life.




"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield  


10 comments :

  1. I'm happy to read that you are letting your wonderful self shine in the world. Blessings to you :)

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  2. I am THRILLED for you! Life throws us curveballs but what it sounds like is you are learning to bat the pitches out of the ball park. You are a truly wonderful and gifted woman and your time is now! Embrace and fly hun! xo

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    1. Thank you Brenda, I am grateful to finally start feeling better for more than just an hour or so;)

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  3. I try to live my life without regret. The choice we make all lead us to where we are now and I'm so happy that I am the person I am today. It's nice to see that you feel the same way. I'm sorry to hear about your struggle, but you're a strong person who should love herself. I'm glad to hear that you're feeling that way!

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    1. Thank you Allena, I really appreciate your kind words. I am becoming stronger each day, it just took a while to get here:)

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  4. This is wonderful to read! So much of what we get out of life has to do with how we choose to feel while living it. Feeling happy & positive will breed more happy & positive things. Sometimes that's hard to remember but its the honest truth. Keep your chin as high up as it is now and that smile on your face :-)

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    1. Thanks Jenn, I really love reading your comments, they are always so thoughful:)

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  5. L-I-F-E is spelled A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E! And you've got it, girl!:)
    P.S. I love how the curser leave a little trail of fairy dust when I scroll across your page. Neat!

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    1. I love how straight forward your comments are Diane.

      I love the fairy dust too... it's just a little, not too much.. cute:)

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