Living With The Joy And The In Betweens

I have been writing in my gratitude journal for 30 days straight now, I find it gives me a time to just reflect on what is really great that is going on in my life, it usually ends up that I write about the small things.  I think small things need to be celebrated, they are the steps we take on our journey to love ...

I finally have a word for how I have been feeling for the last six months, I am not ready to share it, for the moment it is just good enough that I know the word.  It has opened my eyes as to why I have been on such an emotional roller coaster.. I read another blog Friday night called .As Far As The Eye Can See, I have written about her before, she writes things that move me deeply.
What she wrote made me realize the word, I wrote in my other journal/blog Friday night... I wrote for over two hours.  I usually take the time to read it over and fix up the sentences.  Last night I was too tired, plus it gave me a lot to think about.  I have been feeling less joy lately but I don't allow myself to wallow in the feelings. Sometimes I cry and that is okay ... I laugh a lot too.  I have been in a why stage for so long ... when it doesn't matter why anymore. 

I opened a door finally... one which lead me to write for so long Friday night, it just poured out of me, no time was taken between thoughts... the next thought was there as soon as the last one was written.  Eventually I will will post it here, it is probably the most real I have ever been with my writing.  I tend to hold a little back for various reasons but mostly because although I share a great deal of myself... I haven't been ready to put it all out there. 
I slept for a little over three hours ... probably the longest stretch in six months.  I had decided to get groceries Friday night because I did not want to deal with the crowds on Saturday ... so that meant I had a day where I actually got some things done around the house, all the dishes are done and so is the laundry, I just have to get the floors done.  I can just imagine how much I could get done if I could sleep a little more.  At least the last two nights were headed in the right direction.  

I have made a few decisions for myself, one's I plan to share in my blog soon... I am first trying to get a little order in place so that I will be ready to move on with some of my plans.  Chaos and disorder do little to help me move ahead with ideas and plans, order is something I need a little of... otherwise I am just floating around, completing nothing. 
I wish I was better at letting go like some people but then I wouldn't be me who really feels... I would be them who never felt enough.  For when I have loved, I gave my heart and soul... I soared with joy... if I had held back, I never would have felt that joy, that is what people who hold back in life miss out on. So, although it is tough to feel emotions, I would much prefer to feel than to bury them and never really live.
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103 comments :

  1. Love the End of your Letter ,i agree ,we have to laugh ,but we also have Times to cry .. that is Life. I stay tuned ,wait your Plans :)

    Happy Sunday ,kisses <3

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  2. This is the third time I am going through your blog. Loved this one too. :-)

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  3. I love the idea of a gratitude journal - I haven't kept one in years but I really should give it a try again. I'm glad you're allowing yourself to feel more, and be honest with yourself!
    And I hope your sleeping improves! ♡

    xx

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  4. I have the same problem for 2 days :/ cant follow

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  5. I hope you are feeling better soon dear!

    xoxo
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  6. Love this post dear, just like you I also have a hard time on letting go of something or someone.


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  7. It is always a pleasure to read your posts dear Launna!

    Keep in touch on BLOGLOVIN

    Love,
    FASHIONHYPNOTISED

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  8. Great post and blog! Lets follow each other?
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  9. Wow! What can I say? ... intimidates me!
    Great post! I congratulate the ability and talent to curiosity to me!
    I will always be coming back for more: *


    Regards,
    Katherine Unique


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  10. Amiga post maravilhoso amei DEUS seja contigo.
    tenha uma semana abençoada.
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  11. This post reminds me of my daughter. She's on 15 (just barely 15) and she feels everything so fully and intensely. It's nice, but I get scared for her too because when she aches for herself or someone/thing it's so intense. It makes me want to scoop her up and protect her even more, but you know at 15 that's not possible. That's when the wings are getting their fullest. :)

    Hugs to you, and I'm happy you found your word!

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  12. You just told me about how writing really helps you to deal with things, and after reading this I think I believe you! For over two hours, wowza! :-)

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  13. I totally agree with you my dear, you have to listen to your heart and enjoy every single emotion, even when it may seem unbearably painful... because this is the only way to live life to the fullest!!
    Have a great start of the week darling!!!

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  14. I agree with you! Small things are the more important things!

    XOXO!

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  15. I am a believer in loving with every ounce of our being, even if that leads to heartbreak. Because if you loved with all of your heart, at least you won't have regrets :)

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  16. it is a beautiful post and of course agree with you! I hear only to my heart when have to take some decisions!
    ciao

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  17. Great post !!

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  18. I always enjoy reading your post, It is good to cry sometimes and its not weakness but its just letting the bad energy out.
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  19. Your posts are simply amazing ♥!!nI really like them a lot!!
    xoxo Melle
    http://melle-loves-fashion.blogspot.de/

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  20. Launna, I'm glad that you find sometimes to do thing like this. It so important in life when someone takes time to do thing that make them happy and working to prove themselves instead of others. once again, you doing thing so right, I'm proud of you. Me, do too, instead of look out of others, I rather focus on how well of my behavior I could be:). Wish you happy new week:)..

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  21. thank you for your lovely comment

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  22. i'm very happy that you find sometines to do thing like this ;)

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  23. If you listen to your best judgements and your heart your most likely to see that you choose wisely, the heart may not have the loudest of voices but its the purest!!. Have a great day Launna!! xx

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  24. Lovely post, Launna. I'm excited for you and your plans! It seems like your heading to the right direction, the one you have chosen. It's not an easy thing to do but you're definitely going there. :)
    Keep strong, Launna!

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  25. I don't do well with chaos or disorder either. Can't wait to hear your plans. Hope you had a good weekend!
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  26. hi Launna,love these phrases! nice
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    kiss

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  27. your reflexives posts always make me think about important things in life. Thanks a lot and kss.
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  28. I love the end of your letter! Your blog is so nice!

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  29. I always enjoy your posts because they are so raw...from the heart. They are real and thought-provoking. Self-reflection is such an important thing, and if you've been through a tough time, it's absolutely mandatory in the healing process. I think you are well on your way, and you're doing exactly what you need to do. Just through reading your blog, I can tell what an incredibly strong, honest woman you are. I completely agree with you that it's better to feel and work through your emotions than to bury them inside and ignore them. You'll never fully heal if you do that.... It's definitely not a way to live life. Thank you for sharing this post with us, it was beautifully written. <3

    xo, Sarah
    Hustla, baby.

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  30. Amiga bom dia tenha um dia espetacular
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  31. "I wish I was better at letting go like some people but then I wouldn't be me who really feels... I would be them who never felt enough." This line is so true Launna and touched my heart!! This is what I say to myself!!

    keep in touch
    Charu
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  32. I mean yes there is family, there are friends, but the only person you will always ever and ever have to deal with and be fine with is YOU! Take the time to find out what is important for you! Enjoy all these small details and if its only a perfect sunset, or the perfect song at the right time which moves you deeply!! Write it all down, wait one day and then read it all again! You will be fascinated what details you had in your mind and still forget immediately!!! I know that all your plans will come true!!! This one word, for sure I would love to know, but may you will keep it as your secret...cant wait to find out! I send you all my love and all the joy I can give!!

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  33. I always enjoy reading your post, bcz they are from your heart and they five me a lot of thoughts... Launna I know you are fighting with your weight, today I came across with nutrition page on FB, maybe it will help you, this is the link https://www.facebook.com/pages/Tonic-Nutrition

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  34. Launna, I think that it is great that you have been writing in your gratitude journal and also doing other writing. I know when I have the chance to write like that, it helps me see things more clearly. It's like when I write down my thoughts I can understand things better. It sounds like you are that way too. I'm glad to hear you have figured some things out. Things like this take time. Treat yourself with kindness. :)

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  35. Sounds like you have a lot of things going on and a LOT of new things to share with us! I'm still hoping you can find a way to get more sleep, though. It will make a HUGE difference in your life if you can. Keeping my fingers crossed for you that a solution will come soon.

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  36. I am glad you are writing in your gratitude journal. I have been writing in mine daily since I started it and it really does make a difference. It makes you really think about all the good things that are happening. I too write about lots of small things. I think that means they add up a great life.

    It sounds like your writing is helping you to figure out things that you need to understand to make you life your own. I hope it all starts coming together for you soon. Then, maybe, you will start sleeping through the night again.

    You are a person who feels deeply and expects much from yourself. Please just realize how wonderful you are. It is evident in the comments you leave on blog posts and how hard you try to get to so many peoples blogs.

    I think it will be great to read the writing you have done.

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  37. This was a beautifully written piece, I'm glad I read it :) -Ryan

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  38. great post. i agree that the little things should be celebrated more. life is so fleeting... we sometimes focus on too many things, not realizing that life is now, at this very moment...over before we know it.. we are all different at how we hold on to things, people and memories. but like you said, we should focus on those that are good, even if its something small.

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  39. Great post Launna! I'm very emotional and I deeply feel everything! You need to laugh and be positive. Small things are important and they make life! Have a great week! x

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  40. Send you lot of love my friend <3

    Carolina

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  41. beautiful written dear, wish you a wonderful day!

    <3
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  42. Floating is okay for a time. We need the calmer waters between storms. I love that you're focused and working to keep yourself positive, and how do you do it on so little sleep? I was up until 5 AM again, unable to shut down my brain, and with 4 hours of sleep, I'm hoping I'll make it through the day. A good nights rest makes such a difference. Oh and food. Goodness, I should probably eat something today. Here's to making steady progress, one day at a time!

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  43. I'm sorry you're not getting adequate sleep, that plays a lot on emotions too. I've gone through bouts of insomnia. One time it was a really stressful time other times it was just for no reason (I guess). Anyway that was a side note - can't wait to see what you have in store.

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  44. I hope the article below is able to give you some tips to help you sleep better sweetie!

    http://manhattanimageandstyle.com/health-10-ways-to-sleep-better/

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  45. beautiful post!♥ as you said, sadness plays an important role in our lifes. It opens our eyes and it makes us appreciate happy moments♥

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  46. totally agree with you
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  47. Have a nice day Launna, thanks again for the kind words!! xx

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  48. Hi Launna, sorry for this inconvenience, try please this https://www.facebook.com/pages/Tonic-Nutrition/212587068921421?fref=ts I hope this time will work:))
    Have a great rest of the week!

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  49. another great post - love the photo quotes you added in, they are so true!

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  50. It sounds like you are experiencing some breakthroughs--- more reason for joy and celebration! Isn't it amazing how understanding oneself can be such a source of peace?!

    ~Alexis Grace of North On Harper

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    1. Hi Alexis, thank you for your comment;) I tried to visit your blog but was unable to...

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  51. Yeah this is life dear launna
    Sometimes we cry and sometimes laugh..
    I hope you will feel better..
    and become yourself it's better and will make you joy in your life

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  53. Lovely post and pics dear, your idea is amazing :) How about following each other via GFC/Bloglovin'/Instagram/FB page? I would love to :) just let me know on my blog and I'll make sure to follow back asap! Have a nice day babe xx
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  54. Hi Launna,

    Just stopping by to wish you a great end of week and weekend! Thanks so much for your kind words over at my blog! Means a lot to me dear! xoxo
    xx Easy Outfits, by Pip

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  55. Hope everything gets better for you my dear! Have a beautiful day!

    Keep in touch on BLOGLOVIN

    Love,
    FASHIONHYPNOTISED

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  56. Hello dear great blog I'm new follower,hope you can follow me too :)

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  57. crying is okay, indeed. it clears your soul. i also told that to a friend of mine whose father died some days ago. life isn't simply black and white, and we should allow sadness and happiness in the same way we allow life and death in our lifes. it's a natural circle, nothing strange. and it's very good to read that you can sleep a little better. 3 hours - you're on a good way my dear.
    btw i also do not like the grocery crouds on saturdays and in the evening on workdays - it's stressful.

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  58. thank you too for your dear compliments. i'm glad you liked my looks.

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  59. Hi there, strong one :) I´m so happy to be able to follow your growing. As you grow and learn new things about you, you give so much to us! <3 :) And by growing you have this gift..to receive. What ever life is all about: your life. And also..thank you for supporting me ;) Hugs! And have a great evening <3

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  60. I know someone who would really benefit from writing, like you do. I wish I could convince her to start a blog! I'm glad you were able to pinpoint the word you were looking for and take time to write for 2 hours and get some rest, clean up a little. Those things make me feel better and refreshed, ready to move forward, as well ♥

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  61. Totally agree with you!
    Very inspired post, loved it!
    Follow each other? ;)
    xx
    S
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  62. Hi Launna, Thank you so much. And I wish your day is as wonderful as you, also have a blessed of the rest of your week:)..... ox

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  63. Good night dear launna...
    Really thank you so much for always come in my blog

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  64. Hi launna your post do inspire me. 'I've been planning to make my own gratitude journal. You know these past days I am not really in my best self so i think having something to list all your gratitudes will definitely be the best. thanks for sharing =) http://anotsosecretlife2011.blogspot.com/

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  65. Amiga tenha um final de semana abençoado.
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  66. Great words, and you have such a great and inspirational blog.

    xo

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  67. wish you a wonderful weekend sweety!

    <3
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  68. I love it that you've got a gratitude diary! That's the best idea!

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  69. Ok Launna I learn something new every time I come to your blog - I have never thought to keep a gratitude diary and the idea of it sounds lovely, definitely something I will be doing too. Hope you have a wonderful weekend xx

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  70. I'm so sorry for commenting back late Launna! I'm not keeping well! The transition of the weather always does this to me! Anyways, do have a great weekend my friend and always stay the beautiful person that you are!
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  71. What a heartfelt post. Thanks.
    I should start writing positive things too in a journal or something. Right now I am feeling good but my BP has been going crazy high and I have to go for some tests too. I am so thankful for bloggers like you who send positive vibes every where.

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  72. The quotes are great, thanks for this wonderful post :)

    Have a nice day,
    Maria
    www.retrostreetstation.blogspot.de

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  73. I can relate, wish I was better at letting go too. You are very inspiring and have such helpful ideas.Thinking of you and wishing you the best.

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  74. I'm glad you had a breakthrough! I hope things continue to get better.

    Writing is a huge help to me too. Better than any therapist I've ever been to!

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  75. Great post dear.. your post always give me support. I thought just me people in the world that cant be honesh to my self. I will learn to enjoy this life, andd thankfull for àll i had.

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  76. I hear more & more people feeling down & powerless... :( Where does this feeling come from?
    Something must be wrong with the world, 'cause I just can not believe it's your or my fault, or anyone elses fault for that matter, for feeling the way we do.

    I hope you'll be able to go fully through with your decision that you have in your mind...

    Follow the royal Peach!

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  77. So true Launna...and the first quote....right on. Happy Weekend.....hope it's amazing for you. You deserve the good. Hugs.....

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  78. Amiga passando para ti deseja um belo sábado e domingo maravilhoso.
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  79. You are so right about the small things that matter Launna! Thanks for your advice on baby food, I really appreciate it!

    Keep in touch on BLOGLOVIN

    Love,
    FASHIONHYPNOTISED

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  80. Hi Launna :) ,happy Saturday! big Hugs

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  81. I've learned that taking time for yourself is part of the healing process! We do not give ourselves time enough to recover from what ails us. However, when we do, it leaves us so much stronger. Hang in there my friend!

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  82. Thank you so much Launna for your beautiful of comment, I really much appreciated that. I hope you are having a lovely day! oxox.

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  83. Hope you are doing well on your Wednesday Launna. Keep up the inspiration post:). thx for a lovely dropped by! oxoxo:).

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  84. Thank you so much for your sweet comment on my blog! I always love to hear from you! Recently I only got problems connecting with GFC so I‘m going to turn it of soon! But I would love to stay in touch with you, so would you mind adding me on G+ instead?! By the way your outfit looks awesome! Hope we keep in touch - Lots of lovely Love :) Kyra
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  85. Thank you so much Launna:). I took time off from blogging 3 days. Just to finished all of my important work. Lol. still haven't done yet. as I work an extra hours after put my kids in bed every night. also working on blog at the same time. wow, You know how I feels. Have another blessed and productive weekend lovely Launna oxox.

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I love and appreciate all genuine comments, to save a little time, I won't be commenting on the comments on my blog (unless you don't have a blog), I will just visit your blog and comment there, if you have left a meaningful comment for me... I would much rather spend the time reading and commenting on a few extra blogs ❤