Just Enough Light


Amber May Be inspired my latest post with this quote she had on her blog it is one of our most difficult challenges in life, to keep taking that step forward when we are unable to see the outcome and we just have to trust... trust that the little light we are given will show us the right path.

I am one of those people that keeps trying to see ahead of the light.. instead of just having faith that the light knows the path.  There in lies my issues with trust, it seems that until I begin to actually trust that I am on the right path, going in the right direction I will never travel without fear of the unknown.

Trusting is one of the hardest things I have had to deal with in my life... it comes from not being able to feel safe.  From the time I was a child being raised by my insane ex step mother... I wondered if all people had to deal with this but found out that this wasn't normal.  I know that I have not been the best mommy (mama)  but I definitely try to build trust and happiness into my relationship with my children... I want them to feel safe.

Unfortunately because of my trust issues... I continued along in my life making poor choices that led me down paths that were incredibly challenging.  Ones I wondered if I would ever escape from... finally I reconnected with my David and I actually felt safe... I felt like I was home.. I felt like I could really trust someone.  Then everything fell apart with us too... we ended up being just 'friends'. 

When I read Amber's blog and saw this quote... I realized that I needed to trust in myself... trust that I am on the path I am meant to be on and that I will take baby steps to keep following the path.  Maybe it's because I am older and I understand that truthfully, we don't always know what is best for us... sometimes I just need to put my foot forward and believe that the light knows the path better than I do.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future


6 comments :

  1. Some days I want to be able to look ahead and see what is going to happen, but other days I think I'm better off not knowing and to just enjoy each day as it comes as much as possible. I think we're all at least a little bit afraid to trust what the future holds for us, though. Nice post!

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  2. I know what you mean Daisy... my controling part wants to know... mostly I just want to enjoy the day as I am where I'm supposed to be:-).

    Thank you for your comment Daisy

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  3. You are so true, Launna. I've dealt with trust issues my whole life, many times with no reason and most of the time, it just came back to me and not in a good way. It's a learning process but it deepens my issues whenever I meet people that do nothing but to disappoint me :(

    Have a lovely Sunday

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  4. Thank you Petro.... it is SO difficult to keep trusting when people keep letting us down... we need to trust ourselves:-)

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  5. I wish that I could read the page on which my destiny is written. While I am waiting to find out about my own future I like to think that I am helping others.

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  6. Thank you Munir... I like to think that I am helping others too... even while they are helping me;)

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