I am beyond frustrated, I cannot even explain it to myself. I just keep going in circles trying to find what I want. It seems like an endless merry-go-round that I can't get off, I keep thinking if I get off that I will miss out on getting what it is that I truly desire. The truth is that I KNOW what I want, I just haven't been able to make myself trust what I know. I want what everyone else wants, I desire love, romance and feeling special to the one person that causes me to have fireworks and butterflies. I keep trying to fill that empty spot with things and those things never get me to where I want to end up. I need to make a decision to either stick to a plan to get what I want or to just give up the dream and move on. My question is if I give up, will I be able to create another dream that makes me feel as wonderful?