I wasn't sure if I would write tonight, I became quite exhausted at 7:00 pm that I fell asleep... I did wake up two and a half hours later... feeling a bit more refreshed. I am trying to get in a comfortable position on my bed so that I can write with ease... I think I have found the solution.
"What you still need to know is this: before a dream is realized, the Soul of the World tests everything that was learned along the way. It does this not because it is evil, but so that we can, in addition to realizing our dreams, master the lessons we've learned as we've moved toward that dream. That's the point at which, as we say in the language of the desert, one 'dies of thirst just when the palm trees have appeared on the horizon. Every search begins with beginner's luck. And every search ends with the victor's being severely tested."
I read this quote above from the blog 'The Daily Love' by Mastin Kipp... I feel like it is a metaphor for everything I have gone through and how I want to realize my dream and I want to appreciate the path I took to get there. If I want to be victorious and I do... I need to expect that I will be severely tested and I think I should be more thankful for that... for with each trial, it gets me closer to having my dream being realized.
It's like the quote about 'Happiness is not the destination, happiness is the journey'. So many times we say... I will be happy when... I need to be happy now even if I have some trials that seem difficult and overwhelming, I do know in my heart that things will turn out the way they are meant to be. This knowledge doesn't always make me see my trials in this light as we all have down periods.... until we are able to see again.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥