My Eyes Are Wide Open Now

I have been reading blogs most of the week and a few of them have inspired this post ... many of them were about having and showing gratitude, specifically writing it down somewhere daily.  I decided that mine will be an online journal, private for me but I have committed to writing one thing in it daily and then reading them over once a month.  I think the more that I do this, the more it will remind me of my many blessings.

I have already entered my first two posts, I like that I have finally started it again... it has been years since I was consistent.  Today is going to change that... I have been wondering how I could change my thoughts around and reading those inspired blogs seemed to be the answer I was looking for... At first I thought, what a great idea, the second one I thought hmm... that is interesting; the third one made me sit up and right after that the fourth one popped up in my feed and that was when I made the decision to start.

So, today was the fourth week of the contest, to date I have now lost 13.8 pounds, there is six more weeks in the contest ... this last week was a bit of a write off for me and it showed on the scale when I lost .8 pounds.  I know you think that is a lot and yes it is a lot but I knew that I could have done much better as I had eaten more calories a few days.  This was a really tough week for me, the weather has been so nasty that it makes it near impossible for me to want to tread out in it for anything other than work, two it was Valentine's day... just another reminder that I am alone (I don't want to hear how great it is to be alone for this day, it's better to be with someone you love) and three, work has been so busy, it is tax time and tax forms have to be out by the end of next week and everybody is scrambling.
So, I went shopping last tonight and I bought all healthy groceries, I am going to be prepared with nutritious  food ... those posts reminded me how grateful I am for having lost this weight that has held me back for so many years.  Here is something funny, I am actually looking forward to having a full body shot by the end of March... Although I am nowhere near what a place like Weight Watchers would agree I should weigh, I am quite happy where I am at... I am curvy in all the right places and with the proper sized clothing ... it will only make my weight loss look even better.

I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, year end is almost over, which means work will become manageable.  Hopefully the weather will be better by late March where I really get some great long walks in daily.  As well, I had a light bulb moment about the trial I have been going through for nearly five or six months, it wasn't one that made me happy though but maybe something I had to know... It hurts just the same ...

All three of these are moving me in the right direction ... the more I travel that path, the more I see some things would have held me back from growing to my potential... I want to always have an active lifestyle, sitting at home night after night being sedentary is not my idea of fun.  I don't mean going out to socialize which is great on the occasion, I mean active by exercising or participating in a sport... something that will keep me strong and healthy.  I might never have got to that mind set if I had traveled another path.

The other thing I learned in the last six months was that people are rarely how they portray themselves... we all want to put our best foot forward.  There are a few quality traits that I expect from the people in my life ... one, I need people to be forgiving with me and others... I believe forgiving is the only way to be, otherwise you become bitter and you hold on to bad relationships from the past.  Two, I need people not to be judgmental, I try very hard not to judge other people and I find it incredibly mean when someone does that and thinks they are within their right. Third, I expect honesty, I give it back 100 percent... if there is no honesty, there can be no relationship.

All of these things have been challenging me and I think that is why so many bloggers decided to write about gratitude in one day... I was meant to read them and to finally be inspired to get back to writing about it daily... Here is something I am grateful for, I am happy that I know exactly what I want in any relationship I have now and in the future, my eyes were closed in the past but they are wide open now.
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109 comments :

  1. 13.8 pounds is 13.8 pounds less to carry around on your body. You've done so well Launna and although you've bought loads of healthy foods it's nice to have a treat once in a while as long as you don't go crazy with the cake.

    If the weather is bad outside, why not do some exercises at home. There are some great DVDs out there, or just running on the spot, dancing to music, use the furniture to exercise with, or use cans of beans as weights. The list is endless.

    As for how people portray themselves, if they pretend to be something that they're not, they are only fooling themselves at the end of the day. I always try my best to treat people how I want to be treated. I think we all make judgments of some sort on a daily basis, but as long as we judge others how we want to be judged then it's a fair deal.

    Enjoy the rest of the weekend Launna.

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  2. Do not worry dear, you'll see for every problem there is always a solution!
    I'm sure you'll meet the man in your life, someone who will appreciate your great skills .... you are a fantastic woman!!
    Congratulations, you will still lose weight!!
    Happy sunday!!!!!

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  3. I love every post I read on your blog :)

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  4. Hey honey, I've nominated you for the Liebster Blog Award! I really hope you could check it out, because I think it's a really great way to get to know each other better and let your fans find out some interesting things about you! :)
    See you,
    Tina xx
    http://tinasstylesinners.blogspot.com/2014/02/liebster-blog-award.html

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  5. I know you can do it Launna. You are truly an inspiration.
    Beautetude

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  6. I think the gift of forgiveness is a big one. I thought I had it (too much of it, actually) and then something happened in my life and I held a grudge against that person (a relative). It took me a very long time to forgive, and I was very convicted and miserable about it, because I knew it was so wrong not to forgive. I finally made my breakthrough and forgave...and though it didn't change much, it also changed everything (because I'm not hanging on to anything that makes me unhappy). :)

    I'm glad you're grateful for life, that I read between the lines in your posts all of the time, no matter what it is you're writing about at the time. :) It's nice.

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  7. .."my eyes were closed in the past but they are wide open now." love this :) ,thank you for this Letter. it gives me so much Inspiration! (again sorry for my bad english ,hope you understand)

    Have a great Sunday ,big Hugs!

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  8. É muito gostoso mudar de layout, né?! Dar um novo visual para o Blog de vez em quando é sempre bom!

    Launna, se tiver a chance, teste! Shampoos secos ajudam bastante na correria do dia!

    O passo principal é abrir os olhos! ;D

    Ótimo domingo!

    Beijo! ^^

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  9. Launna, you are making such wonderful and loving changes for yourself!!! YAY!!! I'm so happy for you. Hugs!!!

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  10. Wauw beautiful post Launna! It's so wonderful that you have lost weight so much!

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  11. Your blog is awesome!!

    http://yourselfandme.blogspot.co.uk

    Follow back pelase

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  12. another time a very beautiful, beautiful statement. i love your posts, dear.

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  13. you're very welcome dear launna ... <3

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  14. You continue to amaze me both with your weight loss but also the way you look at things and make a plan! You have such determination that I know you inspire others!

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  15. I love reading interesting blogs too especially if the the photos and contents are really unique and inspirational, its always nice to post something interesting and not imitate what everybody else is doing. That's amazing dear, well done for sticking to your goals of losing weight, been eating lots of sweets and junk foods lately and not been exercising now I feel guilty about it hehe, I'll blame it to the rainy weather here lol. Have a great start of the week Launna :)

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  16. Great positive attitude here, Launna! Getting all of that healthy food will definitely keep you on track! You have great determination... you can do it!
    www.amemoryofus.blogspot.com

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  17. Diana Ashuayem commented:

    You keep on loosing these pound's! Great job. I wish I was determined like you.
    Effortlesslady.blogspot.ca

    (I was going to hit publish and accidentally hit delete... so I copied the comment from my email)

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  18. Forgiveness is an important thing for you to do... for you. Holding on to those hurts and resentments is like having to carry a twenty-pound weight around all the time. Twenty pounds doesn't sound like much, but if you can never put it down, it really wears on you.

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  19. It's funny how life puts hints in your way if you are just open to them. I think it is great that you are doing a gratitude journal. I had years when I was alone on Valentines Day and it sucks.

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  20. I am on mobile so it's really hard to comment. I am sure in the future you will not be alone on Valentines Day. There is someone out there waiting for you. You will meet him soon.

    Congrats on the weight loss. It's all about being healthy and happy with yourself, not about meeting someone else's idea of where you need to be.

    Launna you are such a great person and as I told you before you add to my life by knowing you.

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  21. I'm happy for you that your life is steadily improving, and all because YOU'VE made the decision to make such positive changes. Keeping active in crappy weather can be hard, but sometimes it's just a great reason to take a short break and focus on other aspects of your life :-)

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  22. wow! very inspiring post congratulations on the weight lost you have done something alot of people cant do :) , I really enjoy your blog so far and would love to follow each other--please join my GFC and I'll follow you right back! xo Agatha

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  23. Woow great blog I really love this subject I folow you now :)

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  24. Life is very difficult. I hope that all goes well for you. Have a nice week. Hugs!!

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  25. Have a fab start of the week darling!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Kisses

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  26. Congrats on losing another 13.8 pounds. Every bit you lose counts! I never exercise outside (unless you count hiking and skiing and stuff like that, but those are just hobbies to me). You can easily exercise inside, just at home. Grab a yoga mat and start werrrrking it! :-)

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  27. really great blog
    unconventionalsecrets.blogspot.it

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  28. Amazing changes so proud of you, keep up the good work!

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  29. hello dear. you have very nice blog. I love it <3
    tell me what about follow each other, I always follow back so let me know (>‿♥)
    xoxo from Spain
    www.thegrisgirl.blogspot.com.es

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  30. Dear Launna,

    Thanks so much for your lovely words on my post last week. I am glad to be back blogging and to visit you. I love the last saying so much, as it is so true and a great way to live. Have a good day dear!
    xx Easy Outfits, by Pip

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  31. Amiga boa tarde eu te desejo muito sucesso em tudo que for fazer
    e parabéns pelo o seu novo peso, tenha uma semana maravilhosa.
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br
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  32. i wish you a wonderful new week sweety!
    stay strong!!!

    <3
    http://www.getcarriedaway.net/

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  33. Have an amazing week dear!

    Stai in touch with me on BLOGLOVIN

    Love,
    FASHIONHYPNOTISED

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  34. You really are blessing woman Launna, and I really am happy for you of the rest of your life from now on. Keep up with all the hard work.

    Happy day to you:). ox

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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  35. I am so happy I got to read this Launna, gratitude is a great blessing to ourselves, God and others, it's one of the greatest gifts we can give and receive.
    Thank you for writing this, you helped me today.

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  36. thanks for the follow, following you back now :) cant wait to see your awesome posts

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  37. You are so inspiring dear Launna :) Keep it up!

    xoxo
    www.its-dash.com

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  38. <3 Launna, you are going strong and I´m sooo happy about that!!! :) One thing, that I´m grateful today: you. Thank you for being there..you know my path. We will wlk to that light with our heads up...:)

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  39. You're such an inspiration!! I really look up to you and how positive you are, everytime!! Congratulations on losing those pounds! I need to start doing so too :p :)

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  40. Send you all my love and light to you my babe <3

    Carolina

    www.theworldc.com

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  41. Amiga passando para ti deseja um dia abençoado
    e maravilhoso sucesso.
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br
    Canal de youtube: http://www.youtube.com/NekitaReis

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  42. WOW!! Congrats on the weight loss hun. Yours is an amazing story which we all need to constantly read. What I love most about your blog is that its timeless..inspiring today as much as it will if someone reads it years later.
    Much love as always,
    Roselyn!!

    http://kazinidaily.com

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  43. You know Launna, whenever I feel down I come to your blog and read your inspiring words and I get courage and motivation to feel positive and face anything with a smile. Your every post is priceless.... <3 <3

    Love
    Charu

    http://www.myglossyaffair.com/

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  44. I am glad that you know exactly what you want and I hope that your wishes come true. Keep writing though, as your blog is a great inspiration.

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  45. Very inspiring Launna! <3

    Diana
    www.ManhattanImageandStyle.com
    New Blog Post: 15 Things Every Woman Must Have

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  46. You've made so much progress. I definitely think this is quite an inspiration! I’d love for us to keep in touch via bloglovin’, GFC, or Instagram! Let me know on my blog, I’ll be sure to follow back!

    s a r t o r i a l d i n e r
    Instagram @ sartorialdiner

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  47. Gratitude can really change your perspective, at least it is that way for me. It helps keep me centered and focused on how lucky I really am when I take the time to remember to be grateful for what I have. I'm ready for nicer weather to come along too. I can't wait until I can get back outside walking again.

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  48. Appreciate your insights Launna, hope your having a great day xo

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  49. You have such an interesting blog !
    I'll be reading <3 :)
    Can we follow each other ?:)
    xoxo Alexi

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  50. I'm glad I made you smile, we all do need one every day. You do deserve a happy heart daily. You are a hard work see how far you go now, :).

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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  51. Beautiful post Launna!♥ It's so inspiring! I'm sure that step by step you will achieve all your goals!:)

    www.Lorietta.cz

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  52. I feel your upbeatness! I don't know if that's a word but it's the first one that came to mind. You are doing really great!

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  53. I think journaling is one of the healthiest habits out there. I set a goal at age 14 to write 1000 days consecutively. It took until I was 19 to pull it off (I'd miss one day and have to start over...), but I got there. It's been one of the best habits I could have established. Every night I sit down before bed and write about my day, reflecting on the wonderful and the bad, but trying to focus on the good.

    I'm so proud of you taking off the weight and eating healthy. Way to go!

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  54. very interesting words yet it makes sense if i think about it...i love the last one gives me a good feeling! ^_^

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  55. hi Launna,have a nice positive attitude
    I posted a new article, I'd love to know your opinion
    would you like to pass from my blog?
    tr3ndygirl.com
    kiss

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  56. Amiga passando para ti deseja uma noite abençoada e fique
    com DEUS.
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br
    Canal de youtube: http://www.youtube.com/NekitaReis

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  57. thanks for your lovely comments on my blog

    http://www.facebook.com/AmandaChicFashionRoomLounge?ref=hl
    http://fashionroomlounge.blogspot.com.es/
    Twitter / tumblr/ instagram: @fashionrlounge

    A chic kiss ;)

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  58. You inspire me every day. I have been losing my holiday weight and you've helped inspire me!!

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  59. Oh my goodness, what an incredibly open, honest and clear minded article! I'm not the only one who thinks this, given how many comments you've received. 69 people, if we count me into the mix. That is beyond impressive, sweet girl. I've been blogging for over four years now, and I've never received that kind of response to even my most popular article, so congratulations on your solid readership!!

    You do yourself proud with how present and consciously you are living. I've probably said that in different ways to you over the time we've known one another, but it bears repeating. So many people walk around in an state of numbness, distracting themselves to blank out the pain of everyday life. You're living authentically and you're making such strides on all manner of levels. I spent Valentine's Day alone this year, as I have for many years, and I had to laugh at your comment - I agree with you that no, it's not the end of the world to be alone on such a day, but it's way better to spend it with someone you cherish and who cherishes you in return! Something tells me that all this inner work you're doing is preparing you for something big, chickadee. I hope for that to be true. You deserve bright moments!

    Much love,

    Dawnie

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  60. I just love your attitude, Launna! No matter what happens to you, you always find the upside to things and seem to draw even MORE strength through adversity. You have really turned into a beautiful butterfly since I have know you! I'm so happy for you! XO

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  61. Thanks for visiting my blog dear. Hoe you have a lovely day.
    Beautetude

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  62. thanks for your comment dear launna, oh yeah i also love colour in make up, especially in lipsticks!

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  63. Good afternoon dear launna..
    Sorry just now i came here..
    very late.

    Nice letter have you wrie, but i'm a little confuse,,, hehee you know it's all because my english

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  64. Have a lovely day doll!!!
    Kisses from Italy!!!

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  65. Amiga bom dia passando pata ti deseja um abençoado
    dia com muitas vitória e sucesso.
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br
    Canal de youtube: http://www.youtube.com/NekitaReis

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  66. Have a beautiful day Launna!

    Stay in touch with me on BLOGLOVIN

    Love,
    FASHIONHYPNOTISED

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  67. have a wonderful day sweety!

    http://www.getcarriedaway.net/

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  68. Yor post are inspiring! I agree that people are rarely how they portray themselves, it is sad but true. Would you like to follow each other on Instagram? x

    http://instagram.com/dolores_lory

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  69. what a beautiful post!! i feel the same way.. my blog is constantly evolving. at first it was what everyone is doing out there... but then it evolved into a blog diary- an outlet for my thoughts.,love your blog and your comments =)..
    www.lesley-kim.com

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  70. great post dear! congrats on loosing that much pounds you're doing a great job. :)


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  71. I like how you think. :-) And keep filling that fridge with the good stuff. I think that's so much of the battle...

    Pearl

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  72. Nice write up. Would you like to follow each other? Please let me know if you're interested. Check out my blog and outfits on LOOKBOOK

    Louisa Moje
    http://lapassionvoutee.blogspot.com/

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  73. great words!!1 loved it

    btw do check out my new post
    stay in touch'
    xoxo

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  74. Don't be too hard on yourself with the weight! We all struggle with that, or many of us do, and some weeks aren't just as healthy as we wish but that is life:) I try to eat very healthy during weekdays and then comes the weekend were I treat myself, too much perhaps but I couldn't be so strict during the whole week otherwise. I think we need to find a balance of both. Have a wonderful weekend! xo Caroline

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  75. Come on!! You can with it!! I'm very busy now too, because I have a lot of work, and I feel that my health is going down these days. I know I must relax, but it's very dificult when you think that 24 hours in a day are not enough.

    XOXO!

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  76. Amiga passando para ti deseja um dia abençoado e com muito sucesso.
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br
    Canal de youtube: http://www.youtube.com/NekitaReis

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  77. Morning Launna!!!!
    Have a lovely end of the week!!!

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  78. Morning !
    unconventionalsecrets.blogspot.it

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  79. Great post dear. I always inspired after reading your posts, congrats on the weight loss.
    Have a great day.
    Kisses from Kenya

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  80. thank you so much for your sweet coment about my b-day! it was so cute! thank you :)

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  81. Such a great post dear :) xx
    www.ambifashion.com

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  82. Have a beautiful weekend dear!

    Stay in touch with me on BLOGLOVIN

    Love,
    FASHIONHYPNOTISED

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  83. So inspiring! I so love this post. Have a happy weekend!


    xoxo;
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  84. Nice blog! :) Do you want to follow each other on GFC? :)
    Let me know on my blog please!

    >> The Annelicious

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  85. Estou gostando muito daquele batom! *___*

    Ótima sexta, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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  86. Thank you for your always sweet and kind words on my blog launna. There are worthy to read from the first to the last one and I really much appreciated them all. Happy and blessed weekend to you Launna:).

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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  87. Everything you have to say Launna inspires me.

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  88. thanks for the follow dear !! i am following you back on GFC and on Google plus :) have a nice weekend :) xx
    www.ambifashion.com

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  89. Thanks hun for the sweet comment on my blog! have a nice weekend!! <3

    XxX

    http://fabulousstylews.blogspot.com
    www.facebook.nl/fabulousstylews

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  90. Hi blogger!!How are you today?? :) Really amazing post... :) Congrats on losing another 13.8 pounds. Every bit you lose counts! I try to lose weight too!!But all time i'm eating chocolate and biscuits :( :(

    xoxo Stephania,
    http://colorfulblast.blogspot.gr/

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  91. Love your content Launna!
    I posted a new article, I'd love to know your opinion
    would you like to pass from my blog?
    tr3ndygirl.com
    kiss

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  92. love that first quote. I'll do my dreaming wtih eyes open. Yeah!!!! Have a beautiful weekend. You deserve it. Your fight to be the best you ever always inspires me.

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  93. Amiga Deus abençoe tenha um ótimo sábado e domingo.
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br
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  94. I'm glad I found you, your blog is really inspiring. I will read more of your posts tonight. Have a nice weekend!:)

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  95. How are you? hope you okay?!

    Happy Weekend ,much love from Vienna xoxo

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  96. Launna, I really am sorry to hear that happens to you and your blog. Keep strong as you really are Launna. I know how you feels.

    may angles all around you!!!

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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I love and appreciate all genuine comments, to save a little time, I won't be commenting on the comments on my blog (unless you don't have a blog), I will just visit your blog and comment there, if you have left a meaningful comment for me... I would much rather spend the time reading and commenting on a few extra blogs ❤