Goodbye To You‏

This letter is a very long time in the making... I didn't even realize I was going to write it until I opened this up to write. I had actually written the better part of a blog post but took a break, when I came back this was inspired instead.

Last week I found out through a mutual friend that 'he' was going in for major surgery. Our friend was shocked that I didn't know; how would I know? I don't talk to 'him'. I immediately prayed for him and asked others to do the same.

I then found out he was okay a couple of days later... I was so thankful, I wish I had the words to express how much but honestly I don't have them. I have had a few days to think about it and then I messaged our friend and I told him I no longer want to hear how 'he' is.... I would prefer not to know, he understood and agreed.
Over the last couple of days I have gone through a wide range of emotions... from being elated that he seems to be on the mend to being saddened that for how close we were for the last few years, I had to hear this through a friend.

Although I have moved on and made my peace with the whole mess that it turned into. It hurt that words were taken out of context and misunderstood and instead of talking about it one on one, I just received written words that never gave me the opportunity to respond.

He was my best friend and I will miss that friendship, I know I will love again but will I ever find a best friend again? That is what made losing him out of my life so emotionally hard... how very close we were and how we told each other everything and anything.
In this past week that I came to terms with the fact that 'he' and I will not be friends again. I needed to say goodbye, I wanted to send it to 'him' but I figured he wouldn't read it anyway. So I wrote it here to make it real, if I write it where others can see, it becomes more real to me.

I hope that he's happy, I most certainly wish this for 'him'... wherever he goes in his life...
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92 comments :

  1. Good for you for letting go and saying goodbye. Letting go can be really hard. I have a friend (well, former friend I guess) that I've had to let go and sometimes I still struggle with it. Sometimes I just want to write him and tell him that I miss him and that I miss our friendship. But I know that I shouldn't, so I don't. He's also clearly moved on from our friendship, so it wouldn't be right to dig up the past again.

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  2. If saying goodbye is making it easy for you to heal, then all the power to you. Emotions can be very fragile and we do have to take certain steps to heal ourselves. Please take care of yourself.and don't worry too much.

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  3. it's great to read you are still on the right way sweety!
    wish you a wonderful day!
    <3

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  4. I think you are so brave to write this! I think it is a good thing to let go and say goodbye sometimes. I am feeling the same about a friend of mine who I had to say goodbye to last year. You are so brave for choosing yourself right now! Take care of yourself and be really proud!

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  5. Letting go isen't easy.... good for you, you are so brave Launna!!!
    I wish you a lovely wed!!!
    KIsses darling!
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  6. So sad, and yet I'm proud of you. Making that leap...wow. Way to go, and here's wishing along with you for future and brighter relationships.

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  7. I loved reading this, your writing style is so peaceful, lovely post.

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  8. I can definitely relate on this post. It is weird and hard to go from being so involved with someone's life to learning about them through friends. Definitely an adjustment period.
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  9. It is cathartic and healing to write a goodbye letter even if the person will never see it. It's part of the process of letting go...and it's a necessary step towards the greater things to come :-)

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  10. You are so brave and true Launna......Its a very nice letter

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  11. ;)

    Se retomar uma amizade é doloroso pra você não faça! Algumas vezes é necessário tirar pessoas de nossas vidas!

    Ótima quarta, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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  12. You're so brave, dear! Letting go isn't easy, unfortunately!

    Alessia

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    Kiss

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  13. This is a very touching post. I find it hard to say goodbye as well. It's really tough.

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  14. Se valer apenas tudo bem mais se já ti fez muito mal
    mão faça isso, DEUS esta contigo pergunte a DEUS ele vai
    te responder e te fortalecer. Bjs.
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  15. Oh Launna, letting go is not easy at all. "He" was your best friend, after all. Saying goodbye hurts, but you will go through the healing process. It's sad, but sometimes we have to let go. You were so brave to do so. God Bless :)

    MJ // www.littlepandacrafts.blogspot.com

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  16. Hello my sweet Launna,
    I read your full of emotion post wuth very calm.
    I think itt's right that said goodbye to him here.
    You are a very strong woman and I'm sure you'll find many fabulous people in your life
    I wish you a beautiful day
    kisses
    <3 <3 <3
    Maggie D.
    The Indian Savage Diary Fashion blog

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  17. Saying goodbye can be a difficult thing to do, but it does bring closure and help you move on to better days ahead. Sounds like you've had an emotional time lately. Hugs to you.

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  18. I think you are wise to not want to be kept informed anymore. It is one thing to be past something and another to have your nose rubbed in what you no longer have. Good choice. Hugs.

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  19. I feel for you. Letting go is not easy. It
    Says a lot about you that even in your pain you still wish him well.
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  20. The last quote is so sweet. Really sums up life.

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  21. So nice of you to pray for him when he was sick. Good bye are hardest but sometimes its the only choice we have.
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  22. Goodbyes are never easy. Sending you a hug.

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  23. You are a great Person Launna ,love it how you say goodbey to "him" <3

    kisses :*

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  24. Goodbye's are always painful..lovely post Launna :)

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  25. Really nice post launna another life lessons thanks for the visit =) New outfit post pls. shoot me some of your opinions on how to improve my blog.
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  26. it's great post dear Launna!
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    kiss

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  27. Oh Launna....that was, I understand....big step for you. Not easy to make..As they say, when one door closes, another will open. I hope, that it will open to you soon <3

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  28. It's hard to lose some good friends.. But you will finde some great new friends Launna!!

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  29. Great words Launna!! I hope you are well.

    XOXO!

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  30. goodbyes are always hard to find,we lose some and get great new friends
    xoxo

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  31. Goodbyes are absolutely terrible not the act of saying goodbye, the fact that you don't know when you're going to see them next. Choosing to let go of people who really aren't true to you is the best decision you can make. Take care of yourself first and foremost! Have a nice day Launna! :)

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  32. Aww, the stage of healing is hard I know but youll make it through. Take it each step. Saying goodbye isnt easy but sometimes its a necessary farewell to better things for yourself. :)

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  33. Good for you Launna. Saying good bye or letting go can be one of the hardest things but down the road it's whats best for you.
    I am proud of you.
    Beautetude

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  34. I completely understand, Launna. I know how hard is to say goodbye to someone you loved, especially if that person decided to walk away even before you were ready to say 'that' goodbye. I've been through that experience and it was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. However, now after almost 2 years I feel stronger than ever and I am proud of the decision I once made. I'm sure you will feel the same way soon, Launna. Just stay strong :)

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  35. I'm sure it must have been a rollercoaster of emotions for you this past week. It is so hard to let go. Especially, a special friendship. Stay strong. I know you will.

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  36. I am proud of you being that bold, because goodbyes are never easy.They are far from it. I always 'console' myself that, for every door closed behind us there are infinite horizon of possibilities awaiting us. We just need to take that first step into the 'unknown'. Stay blessed Launna, hugs.

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  37. it took me two years to get to the point of telling people that I don't want to hear about him anymore. in retrospect it's unbelievable. two years. but it is hard to wrap your head around the fact that someone you were once so close with is now less than your neighbour or the guy you buy your bread from...

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  38. brave and true sweet Launna
    have a nice day
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  39. Making peace with yourself then goodbyes are the surest step to move on. I hope you are happy now, and don't worry, if there are days that you'll miss him, just remember the fond memories when you and him are happy <3

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  40. Launna its like you wrote my heart out!! Its exactly what I am feeling these days, still trying to cope with everything and telling myself again and again that there will be some good in goodbye. Still there comes a point when I just break out and nothing except fear comes in my mind. I find it next to impossible to say goodbye to the ones I love!!
    You are really strong Launna, be like this!

    Have a great weekend :)
    Ritcha
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  41. You've taken quite a step! Good for you.

    And of course you will have other close friends. You will. Know that "he" served a good purpose in your life for a time, but that purposeful time has ended. Not all friends are meant to last a lifetime, but trust me, you will find many other... and better... friends. You will. Now that you've let "him" go for good, it'll be even easier to form other friendships.

    Happy weekend!

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  42. You are doing the right thing. It is hurtful to hear news through a 3rd party - good news or bad. I'd rather not know either in this situation. I hope that saying it "out loud" gives you some closure.

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  43. Oh wow, that is so heartbreaking, you are such a strong woman. <3

    ~ Lu
    xx
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  44. I only just met you at Susan's blog, but I believe you've moved past a milestone here. Good wishes for you as you continue down this path.

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  45. Oh Launna, did I understand it right that you lost a best friend? That your are not close any more? I'm so sorry, what a pain. But you're right: Writing helps a lot...
    I wish you a nice weekend :)

    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  46. Launna, This is such an honest approach when a major falling out happens with a friend and I'm actually surprised how well your handled it in both your actions and writing it here. I've actually heard breaking up with a friend can often be tougher than breaking up with a significant other. I always have hope people might patch things up but it definitely sounds like you really thought this through. Take care and have a great weekend!

    xoDale
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  47. Have I ever told you how much I like to read your posts?
    I hope you have a great weekend
    kss
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  48. For a moment there at first I thought you were saying goodbye to blogging. I am so thankful you are not because I don't even know what I would do. I understand what you are saying and the wide range of emotions you can feel over the one situation often surprises me. I find this so hard too and love your honesty which helps others.

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  49. I know this was hard for you but I think you did the right thing. It's time to move on and start a new journey in your life. You are a different (and stronger) person now than you were then. Only good things from here on out! XO

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  50. it's so stinkin hard saying goodbye and letting go. And I've figured out like everything else, it's a process that takes time. I think you have a great attitude though. You wish him well...that says so much about you. Hugs Launna.

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  51. I would like to say thanks for the efforts you have made compiling this article. You have been an inspiration for me. I’ve forwarded this to a friend of mine.
    From Hary

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  52. sometimes you have to say goodbye and let go for something better!

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  53. I'm sure this period of your life is really difficult for you, but I think writing this down was therapeutic to a certain extent, wasn't it? :)

    Bella Pummarola

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  54. I've always found that writing can be EXTREMELY healing! Whether it's in the form of a letter you never mail or a blog (or both), if it helps you work through it, go for it!

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  55. You seem to have such a big, kind heart, Launna. I think it's a huge thing too that you asked not to hear updates about him. Of course your new best friend is waiting for you, you just haven't crossed paths (yet!). Hoping your daughter's feeling better now, or if not now very soon!

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  56. Wow Launna, so sad :-( That is not what you calling a great week..
    Saying good bye can be very difficult, but sometimes it is better..

    Keep strong <3

    xoxo
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  57. I think that you can find a best friend again. xoxo

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  58. Hello my dear Launna! I am feeling so much better now! Thank you for always leaving your sweet comments on my blog! It never fails to make me smile! Love you, dear! <3 And as for your friend, I am so glad that you have decided to let him go. It's not easy, in fact, it takes a lot of courage to do so, and you did it!! YOU DID IT! See, if it is bringing you down, you should let it go! And I am so glad you did!!

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  59. Dear Launna, it's tough hearing such serious news from someone else but I think you did the right thing.

    Steph,
    www.liebeladies.com

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  60. nice post

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  61. Thanks for following its really valuable for me Definitely following you back ! :)
    From Harry

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  62. stay strong sweety, i wish you a wonderful new week!

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  63. sweetie i repass
    new look on my blog
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    have a nice day
    kiss

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  64. Dear Launna, I tried to leave a comment this morning, it was really early, but the internet didn't work. I'll do it now :)
    Thanks for your explanation. I would have done the same as you. Jealously is a bad sentiment, it can ruin people. Go on on along your way, you will feel better :)
    A big hug from Italy :)))

    xoxo
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  65. Saying goodbye is often a great way to discover those who mean the most to you. Have a great day Launna! <3

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  66. It's so hard to take that step... But it's so necessary to fully move on...

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  67. Ótima postagem tenha uma semana abençoada.
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  68. In Poland we say: Do not enter twice into the same river.

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  69. Thank you so much for your lovely comments as always, my dear Launna! you've got no idea how much it cheers me up!! Thank you so much!! <3

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  70. Have a great day Launna! Hugs and kisses

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  71. Have a lovely day :)

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  72. Sweet Launna have a nice day!
    www.mrsnoone.it
    kiss

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  73. Lu querida obrigada pela visita amei a postagem
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  74. Hi sweetie
    Have a beautiful week
    Kisses
    Maggie D.
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  75. when i lost my best friend i felt like that, too. but life goes on ... if they go, they weren't the right ones for you. because true friends will stay by your side, no matter what happens. i am so greatful that i have found some very very good friends in the past few years. you've got wonderful friends, too. friends who love you. i would love to be your friend, launna.

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