Finally I got a little sleep, 7 hours... not a solid 7 hours but much better then what I've been getting. I think when I start the running club I will be able to sleep great, I hope.

The dreams I had were sporadic, I think my body took over and just put me to sleep.  Sometimes our bodies just have to take control or we'd never get any rest.  Does the day look any brighter?  Not yet but I'm sure it will one day in the future. 

No one can change your life except for you!  Random I know but I'm listening to music and as I was listening this song came on "Hold on", I've never really listened to the words until now, hold on for one more day, things will go you're way.  These words were touching.

Time for me to figure out my purpose so that I'll be able to hold on until things go my way.  I've been feeling fear in my tummy, my tummy is all jumbled. I haven't felt this for a very long time, I thought I'd felt fear before but this has been overwhelming. 

Everyone who knows me, knows how scattered I can be, my "D" came in and centered me.  Showed me how wonderful I was and pointed me in my potentials direction.  He believed in me when I didn't believe in myself.

I really need my best friend in my corner, cheering me along, being proud of me.  I excel so well when I know someone cares like that. 

Off to work, I hope it's a good day and maybe tonight... 

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield


  1. You cried reading this about 'I miss you' and I cried when I wrote that.. we have so much in commen. Thanks for saying this kind words I really need that. OH and didn't you want your hair to dye purpule?:)

  2. Thank you Marta, I'm still doing my hair in purple when I get my bonus later this month.

    I'm still kind of in that sad mood, working on getting my positive self back;).

    Thank you for commenting :)


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