Yet I Refuse To Give Up

Well this has been a week of ups and downs, first I wanted to tell you, I am committed on my healthy path. I ate very well and tracked all my food paying attention to eating balanced meals so that I won't feel deprived. Also, I have been exercising, I am walking as often as I can and not using excuses to get out of doing it... I am totally enjoying my walks again. Luckily the weather has been good and I have been able to wear my Nike's also the real Spring is only a short way off...  So the down part, I lost very little weight and I won't lie and say I wasn't disappointed because I was, however; when I thought about it, I realized that even if I don't lose any weight, I am still going to continue on this path. Of course I will lose some eventually but that is not the main reason I am doing this... 

This is a long term way of life, it's not about until.... or when... it is about becoming my healthiest self. I think it is great to have weight loss goals but I have seen people reach their goals only to find out that isn't what fulfills them... Gaining the weight is a symptom of the underlying issues and no amount of weight loss will fix that without doing the work within. As I have written in the past, there are going to be bumps that try to derail me but I don't plan to sit on the sidelines and say oh well... I guess that's it, I failed. 
I haven't failed because I refuse to give up, believe me there have been numerous times in my life that I just wanted to say, that's it... I have had enough and I am pretty sure it will happen again. That is a part of life, I have felt lost and alone for a great deal of my life, I even wonder why I had to take this path, why couldn't I have had the easier path?... however; the truth is, there is NO easy path, I sometimes think there is because some people portray it that way but we all have trials that we have to overcome, many are really good at hiding them. Some of mine seem so much more challenging ...  Yet I refuse to give up...

I have questioned why it seams that way, there are many of my blogging friends that write about their trials and it saddens me that they are dealing with them... It literally breaks my heart and many times I wish I could take on their challenge so that they no longer had to deal with them... I feel that way about my children as I am sure most mothers do but unfortunately we can't do that as there is something that they need to learn... just as there is something I need to learn from mine...
I have been thinking about why it seems that I have to be alone in this life, for me that has been one of my biggest challenges... I don't want to hear it will happen for me, I have come to an acceptance that this is not a part of my future. It's not that I would turn down an opportunity but I honestly am not putting myself out there anymore... I guess my future was meant to be on another road. My sister would say I was giving up but that's not true, I just no longer want to repeat the old patterns from my past.  I do know that I deserve more, I deserve someone who would be kind, dedicated and who would love me as I have been more than willing to offer this to another person...

Frankly, it is their loss... I would be an amazing partner, especially since I have grown and come to a better understanding of what real love is about... it isn't about adoration and being grateful that someone loves me... it is knowing that I deserve to be loved and understanding that both of us would be lucky to find love with each other. Many couples I have met or known... are unaware what real love is... I guess that is what they need to learn... I needed to learn that being alone doesn't make me unlovable...
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  1. You are one of the most lovable persons I know ♥ You are also very strong and I'm sure you will get everything you are determined to.

    Jasmine x

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  2. I love you Launna.... and, it is their loss indeed.
    But, I know without a doubt that love will find you, how can it not?
    You put out love ( your energy), it must be returned to you.
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  3. Lau querida a saúde é mais importante em tudo na nossa vida
    não adianta para mais continue buscando o seu alvo, tenha
    FOCO, FORÇA E FÉ.
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  4. Good to hear you've picked things up again!

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  5. Go on your way, Launna, eat well, walk a lot, then you'll see how much weight you'll loose suddendly. I share the same problem with you, since I'm nervous because of a bad atmosphere at the office and therefore I eat too many carbohydrates.
    A big hug and thanks a lot for your lovely comments!

    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  6. So good to hear the weather is cooperating with the walking. I think we can spend a lifetime studying ourselves. Finding our weaknesses and our strengths. Still, exercise is a struggle. You have to have a certain fight in you, to go on. And its terrible when you have friends who sabotage your diet. I really get upset when your boss even tells you.."You have to eat with us..you have too, what will people think, if you don't?"

    Here's looking to a great March with lots energy and staying on your healthy path.

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  7. A pesar de fallar, hay que seguir intentando, es un largo camino.

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  8. Aquela bolsinha é uma graça! ;D

    O caminho é difícil mesmo, mas tem que ter força de vontade e foco. Você consegue! Eu acredito em você.

    Ótima terça, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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  9. Aquela água micelar é potente, viu?! Remove tudo mesmo! É um item muito bom.

    Ótima terça, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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  10. I'm happy to hear you so motivated and focused, Launna! That's the way to get what you want and deserve!
    Don't worry for your struggles, I'm sure that one day everyting will be perfect for you, you worth it very much!
    xxx
    S
    http://s-fashion-avenue.blogspot.it

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  11. I'm happy to read this very positive post of yours Launna. I've been going down the path of binge eating and fast food but all of a sudden I made a healthy berry smoothie and though this is a baby step, it indeed feels great to be on the track to become healthy again!
    Love,
    Nilu Yuleena Thapa
    BIG hair LOUD mouth

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  12. I like that your goal is to live a healthy life with healthy habits instead of reaching a certain number on the scale. Those who set a weight goal, stop the healthy habits once they reach that goal, and of course, they gain the weight back again. Hope you are having a good week! :)

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  13. It usually is peoples loss if they don't want to be part of your life, you can do much better! I am glad you are on a better path now!

    Raindrops of Sapphire

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  14. I cherish these words great motivation.Thank you for sharing the wisdom.

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  15. Hello Mam. Its been a while. How are you mam? I agree with you in every way. People should not give up whatever it takes



    Asep Haryono
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  16. So glad you are inline with your health goals... keep it up and you go, girl!!

    I also appreciate your rawness regarding bloggers who are going through a tough time... I must speak to that and say I always appreciate you stopping by my blog, actually taking the time to read my posts, and leave an encouraging comment!!

    Thanks Launna!!


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  17. I am so glad you are doing well with working on your health. Eating better and keeping track of your eating work for you and you are keeping it up! Awesome job walking more too. You are right it isn't about the weight, it is about being healthier and you are. The weight will come.

    You are an inspiration to all of us for peeling back the layers and telling it like it is. Often people think the lives of other people are easier because people only put the good forward and that can make others feel more alone. Thanks for sharing! Hugs!
    ~Jess

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  18. Dear Launna, the little weight you lost is still a big progress so don't beat yourself up. Glad you refuse to give up on this healthy journey.
    www.effortlesslady.com

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  19. best wishes and for us all life has been written by god and he knows the best for us!

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  20. You are loveable person that i know, btw i am happy to know you walk again, control the meal and about the weight its oke, it will following. Keep healty lauunna,

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  21. I am proud of you, you refused to give up and I am sure you can be a great partner. Have a nice day! xoxo

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  22. I love that you are this motivated, keep strong Launna! ❤️
    xxx
    www.travelera.es

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  23. I hear you. I struggle with routines too, and I have to keep reminding myself not too be too hard on myself. healthy eating, more workouts. all well and good. but lets not try to be too perfect either. some people are just not cut out like that.

    and as to not putting yourself out there anymore: you haven't given up. the fact that you are still talking about it shows that. and please don't get me wrong, I'm not criticizing ;) you're a very complex person, fully aware of all her million different and often contradictory sides, struggling to live with all of them (which is what I appreciate about you). and you're right, you would make an excellent partner for someone. in the meantime you are an excellent friend. xoxo

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  24. Life has a way of sneaking up on you. It is my wish for you that love finds you when you least expect it and adores you for who you are.
    R

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  25. Perfect when wheater coperates with walking!
    You're so adorable Launna... totally agree: it's very important to being healthier! You're always so inspiring, thanks for sharing your posts!!! Good luck my lovely friend!
    Kisses, Paola.

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  26. Dear Launna,
    I hope you are walking now, enjoying your day. I'm cooking hot chocolate for my kids, it's not so warm in Milan, still bad weather and too much pollution
    A big hug!


    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  27. very nice words sweetie
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    kiss

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  28. It's a cruel reality that metabolism slows down with age, even when you work to keep an active lifestyle. *shakes a fist* But, you're right, it's about living healthy--and that means mentally too. Relationships have such a far reaching influence. Everyone needs the positive end, whether from a spouse or other family members. No matter where we're at, as women, I think we struggle with loving ourselves and that's part of the reason we find so much fulfillment in loving others.

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  29. Love the motivation that you have dear Launna! So great that you are on your healthy path. Keep up the good work and stay strong!

    xoxo
    www.its-dash.com

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  30. Hi my sweet Launna,
    I'm proud of you and I agree with you: it's very important to being healthier!
    Have an adorable day
    Kisses
    Maggie Dallospedale Fashion diary - Fashion blog

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  31. Of course you won't give up! Besides being determined you have such a big heart and such a good soul. You will succeed at whatever you try to do.

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  32. It certainly is their loss! I'm glad you're out and about again. Walking is such a - can't think of a word - hmm - but it just makes you feel good especially when the weather is nice. Keep moving! I also love the quote "You never fail until you stop trying". That applies to so many things.

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  33. your compromise with life is always present in your posts and this is the best way to be healthy!
    kss a lot Launna
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  34. So true, you are definitely loveable Launna. They say you must love yourself first, and I really believe this to be true. Glad you are able to walk again and you are back on your fitness journey.

    Much Love,
    Tania
    http://inspiremyfancy.blogspot.com/

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  35. Launna, you are a wonderful Woman <3 i am so glad to know you!

    lovely Greetings :)

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  36. Lau querida passando para ti deseja um belo dia
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  37. Im always inspired with your stories :) You seem motivated self-confident and in balance with yourself... It drives me to be so as well... thank you :)

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  38. You are the most inspiring gal I know Launna darling. I may not have told you this but when I feel down, I visit your blog and your posts never fail to be very up lifting. Thank you my friend!

    http://fashionablyidu.blogspot.com/

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  39. I totally think you don't fail until you give up! Keep on pushing and striving for your goals!
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  40. Spring certainly brightens our spirits and makes it easier to go outside for walks. Keep going, and don't give up!

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  41. You never fail until you stop trying. Love it!
    I always love quotes! It gives me motivation all the time :)

    TreatU

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  42. I'm SO happy to know that you're commited again to your healthy lifestyle, Launna. I knew you will because I know how strong your will power can be. I have also questioned myself many times why I always seem to choose the hardest path: with my career, my (failed) relationships, and many aspects of my life. However when I look back I see the lessons I learnt from each and every single one of those complicated situations I apparently put myself into. And believe it or not, after I found your blog I've been more conscious about this process, and I instead of just complain about shitty situations I try to learn something from them.
    By they way, I love how you say that if you're single well, it's their loss! I just love that attitude (not only because it's badass, haha for real!) but also because it that sngle sentence you're stating your self-worth and independence. You go, Launna!! ;)

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  43. Your posts are always very inspirational. My daughter loves the serenity one. You are so right about not giving up. Really it makes a lot of sense. It is very deep thinking thanks for sharing. God Bless You.

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  44. Your last line says it all. And congrats for sticking to the diet and exercising this week. The weight will start falling off again, you'll see!

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  45. Never give up
    Stay true to yourself

    Just eat healthily and enjoy a walk when you can.

    Have a peaceful weekend

    All the best Jan

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  46. Have a lovely end of the week my dear friend!!!
    Kisses, Paola.

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  47. Dear Launna,
    it was a hard day at work, I'm resisting from eating too much... I wish you a super lovely weekend :)
    A big hug!

    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  48. I always knew in my heart that some people didn't need to have partners. I felt that I was one of them. And honestly, there isn't anything wrong with not having a romantic partner (notice I didn't say "alone" :) ).

    You're a strong woman and I completely admire that. I love that with every post you recognize what you need to improve on and what you've been working on. It's inspiring.

    I don't believe you're giving up simply because you don't seem like a quitter. I'm really proud of you for walking and eating healthy. I've found that I feel better the more fruits and veggies I eat. No processed foods for me anymore.

    Have a wonderful weekend, Luanna! <3

    xo Azu

    www.raven-locks.blogspot.com

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  49. Nice messages :)
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    Maria V.

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  50. You've come to a lot of very important decisions. How'd ya get to be so smart, girl? :)

    Yes, no matter what, always know that you are lovable. Have a wonderful weekend.

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  51. It's great to hear that you have been continuing with your healthy routine. That's the most important thing, not how much weight you have or haven't lost. Great job, Launna! Also, that first quote is perfect.

    Bella Pummarola

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  52. Launna, another beautiful article.
    I think that the biggest problem in this world in general is that people don't know what the real love is and what it means. You hit the nail right on head there!

    Take care my friend! ♥
    Happy Weekend!
    xoxo Suzy ( ˘ ³˘)♥
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  53. Dearest Launna,

    Your fitness story at the moment sounds almost similar to the one I'm facing. But I'm trying too and all I can write is let's try together and we will document how far we've come soon!
    Love,
    Nilu
    <a href="http://bighairloudmouth.com/>BIG hair LOUD mouth</a>

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  54. nice words sweetie
    I posted a new review, I'd love to know your opinion
    would you like to pass from my blog?
    <<< Pamela Soluri fashion blogger >>>
    kiss

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  55. I know the feeling of wanting to lose weight. And once you starting you are so motivated and determined that everything is going to be ok, but it gets so hard and giving up at that moment is the easiest thing to do.
    I wish you all the best!

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  56. Wonderful post and great words!
    Have a nice week-end!
    Gil Zetbase
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  57. I love how raw and honest your posts are Launna. It really takes courage to talk honestly about such personal issues. First of all, bravo for continuing to choose a healthy path and make decisions that will be better for your wellbeing.

    I think it's really tough to feel hopeful about love again after having your hopes dashed. I would say there is something valuable about being single and independent, and living on your own terms. If love does come ultimately, the quality of it would be better, as you wouldn't repeat the same mistakes after everything you've learned.

    First and foremost, it makes sense to focus on being your best self, then you can review how you feel later.

    Saba x

    www.trulymadlydeeplyfashion.blogspot.com

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  58. That is one of the biggest life lessons... never give up! The moment you give up, is the moment you fail! <3 - http://www.domesticgeekgirl.com

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  59. Love comes quietly, when you do not expect.

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  60. Wonderfully insightful post. Thanks for sharing Launna!

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  61. Hello dear! Maybe you lost few weight but now you have more muscles. You are doing the good way. I am fine :)
    xoxo

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  62. Compliments for your strength of will dear Launna.
    Kisses

    La Flò ♡ blog

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  63. Dearest Launna,
    I saw your comments and Thank you so much for your support. This is a tough phase in my life and friends like you make all the difference. Thank you for being you and I'm so happy I've found a person like you though virtually but someone who makes a difference in my life!
    Love,
    Nilu

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  64. Que maximo postagem maravilhosa, tenha uma semana abençoada.
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  65. Estou me sentindo meio vazia sem emprego. Mas ao mesmo tempo aliviada por agora ter tempo de fazer as coisas que quero no Blog!

    Ótima segunda, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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  66. Dear Launna,
    I've been trying to eat correctly day after day regardless if I feel nervous. I always think on your inner strenght the helps me :)
    I send you a super hug!

    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  67. Hello my darling, don't worry and stay strong!
    Kisses, Paola.

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  68. You are incredibly positive. Stay strong and focused. And happy Week.

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  69. Hey Launna,

    Happy Monday! Congrats on getting back on track. It's so hard to keep up with long term goals, but hey, we all falter. It's those of us that get back up and keep going that make it to our goals! Gah- like grad school is so hard for me right now, I feel myself doubting myself and as far as academics, feeling a bit disappointed, but hey... I can not give up. I must not! :) God bless you Lanna! xo

    Blessings,
    Christine
    Ethical Fashion + Faith
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