She never believed that having someone truly love her was a possibility, wow... I was so afraid of never having it that I pushed it away and I did things to prove I was lovable and put up with things that I never should have tolerated. I am so grateful though, if I had not went through that journey, I wouldn't be where I am right now.
I wouldn't trade my experiences in the past because I may not be where I am now and be who I am with. I have someone now who I believe, he's honest, kind, caring, thoughtful, sweet, loving... he is what every woman would want in their life. I want him in my life because he's led me to believe that I too am someone he can believe, trust, feel safe with. I wish everyone could have that, it is better than any love we attempt to fill our lives with in the past and present.
A Christmas wish I have had for many years was to have a calm, happy and relaxed Christmas. I am getting that and I get David with it, he's right, we are both lucky to have found each other.
I have goals again, I've had a desire to travel... I am planning for that to happen now. I have many things that I want to do, I am looking forward to everything. I love that I feel so alive, I love that I believe in myself and mostly I love that I don't give into fear.