I guess that is why people always try to hide the pain, they can't deal with it... I am one of those people that try to hide the pain, what has it ever accomplished for me, nothing. I still have the pain, I just covered it for a short while with whatever... It didn't take it away, it always returns, the only way for it go away it to deal with it.
Hmmm, I just wish it was easier, it never is though. I have taken some wrong paths in my life that have lead to painful growth that has brought so much joy when I walked through the pain. I don't do that enough, I try so hard to cover it. Because I had a setback, I failed to remember how blessed I am... all I could think of was the loss.
It is so true that whatever you focus comes into your life, I need to focus on the wonderful things I have and try to get past the loss. There has to be away, I have dealt with it in the past, this one is just so much harder. I guess that means great things are waiting for me to get myself together and walk through the pain to a joy I can not even imagine.
I need to do a gratitude blog, when I do that I remember how blessed I am, I also need to talk and pour my heart and thoughts out to a very close friend. I really believe that the path to love is only found when being honest and open. If there is anything less in a relationship, it's not a relationship that is worth salvaging. I have learned that the hard way, at least I've learned it though.