Life Is About Doing And Not Portraying

I know it's been awhile since I have written, it's not that I haven't wanted to write, it has been a time issue. I have stepped up my exercise, this month I have over 133 miles logged so far... also, I spoke of strength training the last time I wrote, hopefully I will be starting that this week... I am working on getting together with the lady who will be giving me some pointers. The last thing I want to do is injure myself by doing it incorrectly, so I will be waiting before I start.

Also, my mood has changed a great deal in the past two weeks... it happened almost overnight... I'm not as melancholy as I have been, which isn't to say that I am overly joyous by any means either... I don't know how to even explain my mood... maybe it's come with all the exercising and focus I have put there, maybe I've come to a point of change finally... All I know is that I have not had any major lows but neither have I had any major highs... At the moment, this is what I need ... I have a lot of anniversary dates coming up that I was not sure how I was going to cope with... Today I feel like I will be able to deal with them... 
Since I last wrote, I was able to lose a little over 4 pounds which was great from all the hard work I have put in... I never want the numbers on the scale to rule me, as that is not what my journey is about... it is about becoming healthier and stronger. As I have stated before I will never be really tiny as I don't want to be, I want to be able to be the best me with exercising and eating nutritious food. I want to do what I say ... instead of saying things I wish and then not doing them. Too many people I know say they want to make changes and then never do anything about it, that was me in the past but I no longer want to be like this.

That is when real change happens, when we really decide that we are important enough to put in the effort and time. When I changed my mindset in June 2013, I didn't do it for a week, a month or a year... I changed if for a lifetime. I fail from time to time as I am human but there is a part of me that will and can never go back to the girl I was before I made it important to look after myself physically ... I am grateful that switch was turned on then because I think that if I had not made those changes then, that all the challenges that came not long after would have buried me. 
I have often wondered why I had to deal with all the loss I did... lately I have come to see that it ultimately made me stronger by not relying on others to show me my worth. It has been one of the most difficult lessons I have ever learned in my life but one that I needed to go through. There were so many times that I thought I was not going to make it, that the pain and grief would be too much to take. However; I am getting through each day and I see my own worth which no one can take from me.

I think the biggest lesson I learned these past two years was that no matter how hard someone tried to take me down, they didn't succeed... I was and am stronger than they or I ever thought I was... Although I wondered for a very long time how someone could be so hurtful and still seem to have all that they desired, I came to learn that it just looked like it... I want to live an authentic life, that means I don't want to pretend everything is perfect when it's not... we all have ups and downs and trying to portray anything different ultimately only hurts ourselves...Life is about doing and not portraying....
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123 comments :

  1. Laura you are a strong women and i love this about you :)

    http://www.giveawaydose.in/

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  2. Amazing blog post, you are so strong Launna! X

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  3. loved what you said here. And no matter who or how hard someone tried to take you down, it didn't work. Way to go. That's truly loving and supporting you first. Hugs.

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  4. Well-said, sweetie. All any of us can do is take one day at a time, and realize that happiness can't come from anyone else. We've got to find it within ourselves.

    Happy weekend!

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  5. Fabulous post my dear, you trully inspire me!! Be strong, always <3

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  6. I love this post and what you said.... very well Launna!!!!
    You are always so strong!!!
    Kisses, Paola.

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  7. Beautiful sayings and teachings.Keep up the lovely work.

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  8. Great to hear that you on a good Point now. You are really wonderful and strong Launna <3
    My thoughts are with you :)

    Happy Sunday, lots of Hugs too :)

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  9. Life is an internal game and nothing happens unit you move. I think you're on the right track.
    R

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  10. amazing post ....

    www.crazyaboutcolors.com

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  11. Launna your post sounds like you're headed towards a positive change. I'm glad you feel better and change is slow but as long as you find the means to go towards that its always great. I'm going through a phase myself but I'm trying to change certain things in my life to find happiness alone :)
    Xx,
    Nilu Yuleena
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  12. Amazing post!
    Have a nice week-end!
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  13. Launna dear..your strength is divine...life isn't perfect for anyone but whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Thanks for being one of my inspirations. Xx

    www.sophsinspirations.com

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  14. Life is about taking one day at a time and enjoying it. A healthy balanced nutritious diet is good and allows for the fast food fix every now and again. Everything in moderation I say. Well done for sticking to it and losing all that weight, I'm sure you feel much better for it and I bet you look fantastic too. Life does have many challenges but just take your time and decide wisely what you want to do with them, and take responsibility for your actions. If things go wrong, you can correct them if you get another chance. If things go right, it's a win win all the way. So good to be here again Launna, and hope you have an enjoyable week.

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  15. Way to go Launna. No matter how hard someone tries to bring you down you don't let them! As I get older that statement becomes more true.
    Beautetude

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  16. My dear Launna, I'm so happy to see you back on blogging! I'm beyond grateful you took a moment to visit my blog and comment of each post, especially now that I know you were really busy. I truly appreciate it.
    I'm also glad to know that during this time your mood has changed for the better and that your exercising is paying off. Your words are so true, start working for that dream or goal we have is probably the hardest part but it's also what makes the difference between a dreamer and an achiever :) I know how commited you are in different aspects of your life and that's really inspiring.
    Have a wonderful day, dear!!

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  17. Launna, this is so super true! I love it because it reminds me again that dreams and wishing is nothing without having an actual plan! That is life changing. Thinking of you and sending you good vibes my dear friend! Good to see you back!

    Wishing you a fabulous new week!
    Love, Suzy ( ˘ ³˘)♥ xoxo

    THE KAWAII PLANET

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  18. I began strength training recently and I really love it.

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  19. you are so strong sweety!
    wish you a wonderful new week!

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  20. Amazing post, dear!
    Have a nice week!
    Angela Donava
    http://www.lookbooks.fr/

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  21. That Walt Disney quote is one of my very favorites of all time - and it inspired me to finally start my blog. Getting started and not just talking about it has been one of my biggest challenges, but it is so worth it in the end!

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  22. Oh Launna, you are the best. An amazing, strong and sweet woman. I love your point of view.
    Kisses
    Maggie Dallospedale Fashion diary - Fashion blog

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  23. Your posts are always so motivating.. i wud say its all in the mind atleast from my perspective.. once u make up ur mind u will make the effort automatically.. m happy ur really taking ur weight loss so seriously.. wish u a lovely week ahead Launna ♥♥

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  24. You are so strong, Launna. You have changed and now are stronger. Exercise is the best way to feel better, at least for me.
    Jasmine đź’—

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  25. Wow, that's a lot of miles to log! Congratulations on staying focused on that. Exercise generally helps to improve my mood too (although not always). I hope you have a great week!

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  26. Oiçam este poeta de tostão
    Que já prometeu e pediu uma mão
    Oiçam a palavra salgada de saliva
    NĂŁo tenho muito lugar, em ti, paixĂŁo


    Passei para te desejar uma radiosa semana

    Doce beijo

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  27. Thank you for making me smile today, Launna and you're wise as always. I'm glad to read that your mood has changed for the better but that's usually how it happens, eh? You're down for weeks and all of a sudden you wake up one morning and you feel light with no signs of the darkness that weighed you down.

    Never ever let the scale controls and dictate your life, I'm talking from experience here. I spent almost my whole 20s battling eating disorder and my life revolves around the scale. The lowest I went was 40kg at my height of 5ft4, it took me years and lots of will power to overcome it. I still have dark thoughts every now and then but my mind is so much stronger and healthier now that I managed to shake it off. xx

    Shireen | Reflection of Sanity

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  28. That's a great first quote. I am a "doer" and my husband is a "sayer". So obviously, we come at odds quite a bit. I end up using that quote to put a fire under his bum far too often, lol.. - www.domesticgeekgirl.com

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  29. , tenha uma semana abençoada.
    Canal:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgeQXJjUpSQ
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br/

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  30. Lau querida continue perseverando que tudo vai da certo,
    postagem maravilhosa tenha uma semana abençoada.
    Canal:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgeQXJjUpSQ
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br/

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  31. So happy to read your post and hear that so many things are going well. I am happy that your hard work on your journey to being healthier is paying off. I know the scale and numbers don't dictate success, but I also know it feels good to see some pounds come off. :) Wonderful to hear that your mood is improving. Keep it up! :)
    <3 Hugs!
    ~Jess

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  32. I enjoyed reading this because i can relate to so much and I am very happy for you with the progress you have made. It's so paralyzing having your self worth and happiness tied to someone else. I had to get my own life to feel better...and other people bringing you down, I don't know why others do that so much but it's a skill to deal with it.

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  33. Yeah! Go you, Launna! You picked yourself up time and time again and you refused to let others bring you down. That is something to be proud of.

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  34. I always love reading your posts Launna..they are always motivational.
    Lots of Love
    xx

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  35. I am rooting for you, Launna! I made a post yesterday on my blog about my own melancholy mood, so I can relate. Sending you a warm hug. :)

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  36. I couldn't agree more. Some people say too many things but don't really deliver. They even do the opposite of what they say.

    Your words are not defining you but what you do does.

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  37. That is so awesome you should be so proud of yourself! And yes it is so true we are what we do not what we say we will do.

    Rae | Love from Berlin

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  38. Dear Luanna, I'm so happy to hear how much you improved yourself, inside and outside!
    Your mood is the sign that your entrire body is "healing", and that you are on the right way!
    You are a model for every woman: you are strong, but still compassionate and sweet, keep on going like this you're great! :D
    xxx
    S
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  39. That was really inspiring to read, it just reminds you that we need to take care of ourselves because we only have one life. You are a really strong and amazing woman so I thank you for sharing your story with us.
    Love,
    Lala

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  40. Hello dear Launna! Looking forward to your next post :) there's a new one on my blog! xoxo

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  41. From the tone and content of your post, you do seem to be in a better place ... and that is great.
    Well done on your weight loss and the way you've kept your walking going.

    Hope your week is going well.

    All the best Jan

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  42. Really good post! I am glad your spirits are better and I am so proud of you for kicking my butt at steps! I've been trying to keep up with you and so now I'm behind in my reading!

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  43. True words here dear Launna and congrats on shedding 4 pounds.
    www.effortlesslady.com

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  44. I agree. sometimes we decide what we need to do but end up doing otherwise. </3

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  45. This post was totally talking to me. This: "I want to do what I say instead of saying things I wish and then not doing them" is everything to me right now

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  46. Stay on Launna!!!
    I started to be careful diet, I'll have to start exercising as soon as possible...a big hug!

    La Flò ♥ blog

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  47. Hi lovely Launna. I'm glad to read about how well you're handling it all and on top of that you are even becomes more stronger as I seen you so far. Good luck with your exercise and everything else you have been up too in your now life. I reLly do love the second quote of your today post:). It's exact what everyone should do:) including me too:) which I usually already been done and doing. Wish you a wonderful week! Oxoxo

    Tanya
    http://attraction2fashion.com

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  48. Amiga Lau passando para ti deseja um dia maravilhoso
    Canal:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgeQXJjUpSQ
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br/

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  49. Fantastic post dear! Hope you have a lovely day.

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    xoxo;
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  50. I think it is great that you are in a better mood lately! I hope it stays that way and only continues to get better. I hope you are able t odeal with all the anniversaries well and that you make it through them okay.
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  51. My compliments, dear Launna, so much everyday work on you is doing well on your soul, that is really wonderful!!!
    I send you a super big hug from a rainy, cold, windy Milan... :)))

    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  52. We never ask to pass through trial or difficulty, but if we can endure them, we come out better on the other side. =)

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  53. Hello,

    So amazing ! :D

    Sarah, http://sarahmodeee.blogspot.fr/

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  54. Your such a strong person and a wonderful example of how to keep on striving!!

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  55. Dear Launna, hope you are doing fine :)
    Like always I loved reading your inspiring words. It has been a long time since I got time to read any blog and I really missed it!! Just trying to make a schedule and find time for blogging!!
    Hug and kisses

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  56. I'm glad you have been feeling better...congrats on the 4lbs! <3

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  57. An improved mood does wonders, doesn't it? I am glad you are moving forward, that's the best way to get to our ultimate goals. :)

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  58. Another very wise and well-written essay, dear Launna. I'm glad you're doing well!

    Bella Pummarola

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  59. Hello dear:
    They are very wise words. I felt depressed with my computer broken but I am feeling better. I agree that life is about doing, being and becoming, but sometimes we try to do what we wish so sometimes it is almost the same. Sometimes I don't like unniversary dates, I hope that you do it well. I understand that your mood changed. xoxo

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  60. Love all these quotes, Launna! So important to carry through with what we say and if we can't, to at least own up to it instead of glossing it over. An apology is always so appreciated. Nice work!

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  61. Amazing! I love your post!

    WWW.ANGELICHIC.COM

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  62. sounds like you are doing better. I'm glad to hear. we're all on the same journey, I believe, just some of us are more aware of it than others. keep going. you rock xoxo

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  63. Stay on Launna! You are such a strong person. Keep that in mind! I want to wish you a lovely weekend with a lot of happiness and joy!

    xoxo
    www.its-dash.com

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  64. Aquela blusinha Ă© muito fofa! ;)

    Launna! Sinto que você está cada vez mais forte! É importantíssimo você enxergar seu valor. Independente do que as outras pessoas falam.

    Ă“tima sexta!

    Beijo! ^^

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  65. Lau querida esqueças as pessoa que ver o seu mal e lembre-se
    eu posso, eu consigo, eu sou a melhor e DEUS já mais vai te
    deixar só um abraço, bom final de semana.
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  66. Amen! Love the conclusion! I happy for you that the melancholy is lifting. Maybe it's the fall in the air too? I don't know if that affects your spirit the way it does mine ;-)

    Anyway how about I hurt myself doing yoga? It's last but for a few days but my balance my have seriously been off, it was a thumb, my shoulder and a toe!

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  67. The best way to get started is with small steps.. exercising really does help improve our mood & it is such a good stress reliever! Glad to hear your doing well and living life. Have a great weekend Launna! <3

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  68. I think you have to go through all of this, because god knows that you are strong enough to deal with all the pain and hard work.

    Im so proud each time I see you walked a mile on Facebook!!

    I mean all your efforts and every step you are going forward is changing who you are and it´s only natural that your mood changes from time to time as well!!

    These anniversary date will always mean a lot to you!!! You are strong enough to handle it!! Im pretty sure when its about that!!

    Many hugs,
    Martin

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  69. Good for you, Launna! Stay strong, my friend, and stay on the path to inner happiness.

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  70. Loved your last line! I've been visiting family and I'm sure I've gained an extra 5 or so pounds. Oh, I don't think I could live with them, anymore. They just don't see how I can live without certain foods. Of course, they didn't have any of the foods I normally eat. And the heat. Oh, I was so not used to their August weather that's plunged into September. So great to see you are staying with the program and being careful too. All the best in everything you do. Stay strong!

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  71. muy cierto, no hay que pretender que todo es perfecto.

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  72. Lau querida passando para ti deseja um domingo maravilhoso
    Canal:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgeQXJjUpSQ
    Blog: http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br/

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  73. Hi Launna, You always write the deepest and most thought-provoking stuff. I'm so glad to hear that your spirits are lifted. Exercise does wonders. Besides keeping your physical health in check, it also keeps you well mentally and psychologically. I'm so glad at all the exercises you are doing and how they have helped you. Exercise definitely help me too. Stay strong!

    Jo
    Jo's Jumbled Jardinière

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  74. stop talking and start doing. Yep. Great message for me. Happy Sunday beautiful lady.

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  75. Perfect inspiration to start the week! :) Have a nice week dear! ***

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  76. I agree with this Launna. It's all about the action, going after your goals, chasing them. And not just wishing. I wish you all the best! God bless :)

    xoxo, rae
    http://www.raellarina.net/

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  77. Aquele protetor é incrível! Além de cobrir minhas manchinhas ele tem um efeito anti brilho muito bom. Estou adorando usar!

    Ă“timo domingo, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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  78. Completely agree. Wishing you all the best!

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  79. I like the first sentence, that life is about what you do. I am reading a book about Michelangelo, I am enjoying it. Have a nice day dear!

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  80. Oh Launna, way to go!!! You are such a strong woman... and putting your heart to work out... that is a choice, that you have made. I have to say... pretty good one. One life, one health... ;) But truly your path also, has took power to walk on. As you stand now, you may see a shadow about that woman.. some years ago.. she needed you.. :) have a great week <3 xox

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  81. I agree with what you said Launna and yes one should stop talking and start doing, this is the only way to achieve our dreams!! Hugs and kisses :)

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  82. Amiga passando para ti deseja uma semana abençoada.
    Canal:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgeQXJjUpSQ
    Blog:http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br/

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  83. Dear Launna,
    We are all sick, fall has come, weather is so changeable... I hope you feel well, I promised myself to do some exercise but in these days it's so difficult to find time for it. I try to walk as much as I can...
    I big hug from Milan :)))

    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  84. Love these sayings dear, stay strong !
    xoxo

    www.sorananistor.com

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  85. Loved the post!! This is the first time I visited your blog, but found a strong woman here! www.makeupxpressions.com

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  86. So motivating as usual Launna. Hope you will enjoy strength training and glad to hear you have less lows than you used to. Love your life attitude. X

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  87. Dear Launna. I appreciated your busy time to dropped by and it's always lovely to hear you're ping good. Hope also life brings you more blesses:). My very best go to you:). Oxox

    Tanya
    http://attraction2fashion.com

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  88. I love the first quote so much, I really feel that if we all lived by this, life would be so simple.Glad you are on a course of doing, and your spirits are up. Take care and keep up the great work.

    xx,
    Tania
    http://inspiremyfancy.blogspot.com/

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  89. Dear, Launna. I hope everything is going well. Have a wonderful week!

    Jasmine ♥♥♥

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  90. Hi Launna, I hope you are well and that you are serene, kisses!

    La Flò ♥ blog

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  91. I'm really glad to hear you are doing better Launna. That's amazing! Of course exercise and being active really does change your mindset, but sometimes after you have been down and sad for so long, your body just decides that's enough and you change like a light switch just got turned on. I've seen it happen to so many people. I'm glad you have gained strength and you don't let people get you down. Nobody has the right to determine how you feel, only you do! Stay strong! xx.

    Raindrops of Sapphire

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  92. I'm so glad to hear you're doing well! I've been going through some things myself this past month but I realized there's no point in being sad or miserable and waiting for someone else to come pick me up. I have to snap out of it myself. And honestly, your quotes are very inspiring! Thank you :)

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  93. You have said it right "it ultimately made me stronger "
    Life's ups and downs make one stronger.

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  94. Woohoo love this Launna - I love that you don't let anyone take you down. You are strong and beautiful and determined for happiness! You're an inspiration and have a blog I honestly love visiting when I am down because you always inspire me to perk back up again.
    Thank you endlessly xxx

    www.bohemianmuses.blogspot.com

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  95. your posts always inspire to me. They's so reflexive so it helps me to look myself and question where I am. Thanks once again Launna.
    kss
    new post: http://tupersonalshopperviajero.blogspot.com.es/2015/09/cooking-and-nature-emotional-hotel.html

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  96. My dear Launna,
    after a hard day, where my boss wants me to work much longer without paying... I'm trying to find some calm in myself and reading posts. I wish I could do some Pilates later this evening, even though I'm not willing too much...
    I send you my best kiss!

    xoxo
    www.bellezzefelici.blogspot.com

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  97. I don't have my computer fixed yet. I can't live without internet and computer T_T
    Have a great week dear!

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  98. Sorry my late reply, I have not been much online in the past days, just travelling..., great post Launna! Im following you in GFC and Bloglovin xxx
    We could follow each other in Instagram too xxx

    www.travelera.es

    Instagram: @travelera.es

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  99. Stay motivated Launna, have a good day! <3

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  100. I can relate so much to this, Launna. Beautifully written.

    M xx
    Lois Lennon

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  101. Hello dear! I've been so busy and haven't blogged lately... I'm happy to read you are feeling more alive and happy... definitely a good idea to proceed with caution but enjoy life!!! Enjoy being yourself and keep up the positive vibes.


    Amber
    All the Cute
    Latest Post: Graphic Tee, Denim Skirt & Pumps

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  102. Passando pra ti desejar um noite maravilhosa arrasou
    na sua postagem.
    Canal:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgeQXJjUpSQ
    Blog:http://arrasandonobatomvermelho.blogspot.com.br/

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  103. This is soo insipiring! I have to tell you that i feel excalty the same way! <3

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  104. Great that you lost 4 pounds and that you walked through those anniversaries. Truly awesome! I look forward to your posts. Have a wonderful week.
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