If I Just Believe

Changes are in the wings, most of them exciting, some I am sure I will have to adapt to... what is life without changes?... it really is all about learning to grow and become a better version of ourselves from each challenge that comes our way. I don't like wishing my life to move along faster, especially since I am aging but oh how I wish I was working from home now... I feel like my life is on hold and it shouldn't be ... I just somehow feel like I am in limbo, waiting for this big transition that is sure to change my life in many ways. 
 
I have been using the excuse that I will get on track once I am working from home, until this happens I have been letting myself do as I please... yesterday as I was getting ready to go to the grocery store I was reflecting on where I going in my life... I honestly have lost my way when it comes to my health... I have been walking but not the type you can call exercise... I don't track my walking with Map My Walk... I have been logging on to My Fitness Pal but I am not entering my food. I am uncomfortable with where I am health wise... 
I have talked about how I have strayed but to be honest, I have given up, I didn't even want to admit that to myself... if I admit it, I would have to do something about it...  Frankly I kept telling myself when I had more time I would exercise, I would plan my meals better, I would.... on and on... Those are just excuses to continue down a path that is easier but truthfully not one that I am happy with. Part of me is wondering why I won't just do it?... I have done it before and I loved it... 

I'm not afraid of failing, it is a part of life. I'm not afraid of letting myself or anyone down, I have no desire to impress anyone as I am not looking for anyone else to impress me... Addictions are difficult, they can control us in ways we are not pleased with...  food addiction is one of the more challenging ones to deal with... it is like walking a tight rope, you need to eat but you need to learn to do it in a healthy way... not with massive restrictions.
It's at this point that I have come to understand more now than I ever did... I have to find out why I give up on myself because if I don't, I will never succeed...  because yes I need to eat but it shouldn't be so uncontrollable... I also know I can't wait for a day, a good time or an event... I really just have to start and once I do, I know I will wonder what took me so long. 

For me to be successful, one I need to have the to desire change, two I need to set myself up for success by purchasing the proper food and third I have to decide to exercise again and do it... The last time I did this I started with a contest but that is only a way to start... it's not what will help me to be be committed long term. That has to come from within, I have to want to make these changes for me and for no other reason. I have what it takes if I just believe...
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61 comments :

  1. I'm sure you'll succeed, Launna. The best is yet to come.

    Jasmine ♥♥♥

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  2. "you need to eat but you need to learn to do it in a healthy way" Great Words Launna! It is a important Point on the Way to love ourselves.

    kisses and Hugs <3

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  3. Just remember that there is no such as ultimate failing. Like you said, failing is a part of life. There is no success without failing. And there is no such thing as 'permanent' failing. You can always start over again and do better.

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  4. Oh Launna....big hug!!! I totally understand you... I do. You remember, when I was going through that, too? And I didnt saw my path? Suddenly I saw some views.. not clear to me even now, but I´m hoping that I´m going on right way. When I quit with myself, before this hard training thing, I needed to see bottom. I went straight to bottom so I could see the light. That was a hard way...but..just maybe..sometimes we need that to see more...? Dont give up on you...there´s something bigger for you, and maybe you need to go harder way..price is: you will be wiser and to be able to enjoy even more. Just a thought... how I have felt during this crazy life! xoxoox and you are in my thoughts dear :)

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  5. I feel you Launna, there's really that one time that all of a sudden we just get tired and have to take a break from it. I have been eating too much these past few days, and I know that I'm gaining weight again. I need to exercise again and to sweat it all out, I just need a full determination. And oh yes, I need to pick the right food this time, it's just really so tempting to eat. Anyways, let's both do it Launna, I know we can get back on track. :) wishing you well! :)

    xx
    Rica | www.sassycebuannachic.com

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  6. It will be ok, after all we are humans and we need to take a reak too.

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  7. I think most people struggle from time to time with these issues. I know I do. I beat myself up and after a while, I simply start with one aspect of my plan...and that usually gets me back on the path. Someone said a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.

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  8. Right now, I'm too hot to care about exercising. And I know, the next one will be in winter..its too cold.

    I think your best bet is moderation.

    I'm also one of those who can't keep busy enough while waiting for that ONE THING to happen. All the while beating myself up with guilt, the past, etc.

    So I do think little steps are important. Be good to yourself. And of course, Keep writing!

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  9. I think it totally stinks that everything has to be so damn hard all the time.
    Anyhow it is summer and summer is stupid and icky so I firmly believe in turning on the AC and snuggling in bed with a cat for a nice nap.

    BTW getting enough sleep is a major factor in weight loss. So go relax, get the cat, and have a good snooze. xoxo

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  10. I know you can do it because I've seen you be successful with taking care of your health before. I have the same problem. It is much easier to just make excuses and avoid taking care of myself. Most of the time my biggest roadblock to success is myself.

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  11. Change can be so, so very difficult, but believe in yourself, Launna! I believe in you, with all my heart. You can do this! Sending much love and strength! Xoxo

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  12. I think you're being too hard on yourself, Launna!! Walking without tracking it is better than not walking at all, right? And maybe you aren't logging your daily diet, but if you are or start to make conscious healthy eating choices, then that's applaudable, too!!

    You know the power for change rests within you, if you want it bad enough, you'll have that wave of a desire to chase what you want.


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  13. Let's be honest. As women, we naturally nurture others, frequently putting ourselves on the back burner. When we know we need to do better, it's a struggle, and can take some time to get started. You, like so many of us, are on the right path, we just have to have faith, believe in ourselves as you remind us, and jump in. Hang in there! Hugs...RO

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  14. You're already well aware of the hills and valleys of life, so I won't belabor the point, but you have been going through a period of discouragement. You didn't give up on yourself exactly, but you kinda felt like "What difference does it make?" Right? Now that you're admitting what's been happening, you've cleared the way to getting back on track. It IS worth it: YOU are worth it. Dare to be happy, sweetie.

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  15. I can totally understand where u come from.. Life is all abt changes & changes are inevitable.. health wise it is something which has to be followed forever and the moment u go astray u feel u have not done enough fr ur fitness and health.. I hope u get back to ur healthy lifestyle in the manner u have thought... As for me I am watching what I eat bcoz i have to loose weight fr health reasons..
    Have a great week ahead Launna ♥

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  16. Lau querida uma ótima postagem, tenha uma semana abençoada.
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  17. There's always hope. Just believe in yourself.

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  18. What an interesting post. You are right. We have to want the changes ourselves in order for us to make them. I also agree that it is important to believe in yourself. Finding out why you have given up on your health in the past sounds like a good step in making healthier choices to me. Good luck! I know you will achieve your goals! :)
    ~Jess

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  19. Launna, aquele perfume Ă© encantador! O cheirinho Ă© muito agradĂĄvel! *.*

    Sei o quanto Ă© difĂ­cil controlar a comida. Mas antes de qualquer coisa vocĂȘ tem que pensar na sua saĂșde! Fique tranquila, que Ă© sĂł vocĂȘ ter foco para conseguir alcançar seus objetivos!

    Ótima segunda!

    Beijo! ^^

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  20. You can do this, Launna, it won't be easy but you've beaten this demon before and you will again. The first step is acceptance that you have a problem and you're ready to embrace it and I think you're already there judging from what you wrote here. Hugs!

    Shireen | Reflection of Sanity

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  21. I totally believe in you Launna. I know it can be hard believing in ourselves sometimes I am actually go through that. I have such a high determination to start working out but my breathing issues are making it very hard but I am still determined. I know the sky is the limit for you. xoxo
    BEAUTETUDE

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  22. Change is inevitable... we have to face them in the calmest way possible.
    Have a nice day my sweet Launna!
    Kisses
    Maggie D.
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  23. Addictions are so hard to break, but I think finding a team to help you along the way is a great way to keep you on track. When you have others holding you accountable, you are more likely to stick to the master plan. I think have others cheer you on is a big motivator! Getting people who will walk with you, or even those who have a FITBIT. I know some of my coworkers had them and they were always in some kind of challenge with eachother that kept them motivated. Hope that helps, and we will cheer you on Launna!

    xx,
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  24. I believe in you, Launna.
    I know you're stronger than you think and that you deserve better. I'm cheering you on.

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  25. Everything is possible in life. The worse is miseries cropping in. I was away busy with accident with one death and two seriously injured.

    I cheer for you maim.

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  26. "Addictions are difficult, they can control us in ways we are not pleased with..." I loved this line.
    If you can write this much better, you can do it, I believe.

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  27. If you did it once, you can do it twice, Launna. I know it's easier said than done but I believe in you. The first step is deciding that you're gonna do something about it and now you just did so. The hardest part, yes, is commitment but I've seen you mastering your commintment for a healthy lifestyle before and I would think 'Gosh, I wish I had that willpower!' (althoug I'm aware that willpower is not something you simply happen to 'have' but you have to build it). Just remember the feeling of having accomplished one more goal, you can do it!

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  28. Congrats for your job changes! I'm sure you'll find the balance to organize and will take profit of your new situation
    kss
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  29. Aw dear, don't give up!!

    You know where I live, people have now started getting their meals delivered once a week for the week. And you can sign up for a mth's worth etc. Maybe you can look into that to keep your eating on track and will give you more time to focus on getting fit - walking again etc.

    Try not to lose sight tho. *hug*

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  30. I am struggling here with sticking to a healthy lifestyle too. I want it so much, but for some reason I keep slipping back every time I make a progress. Anyways hope we can get back on track and be more discipline. Great post and still hoping for the best for us. :)

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  31. Eating healthy can be a big challenge but It is never too late to get back on track. Don't be too hard on yourself, take baby steps and make small changes everyday. Wishing you a great day,hugs.

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  32. I was wondering if you're ok Launna as you hadn't posted in a while. Big hug. I know it's tough, I actually am in the same boat as you right now, believe it or not. I've been in denial about my health properly, I've given up on trying to eat really healthily because I get stomach pain no matter what I do, but then if I eat bad food I get more stomach pain, yet some how this just isn't enough to stick in my head. I can do a few weeks or being perfectly good, then it goes all out of control and I can't contain the cravings or the food addiction to chocolate. My thought process is very similar to you right now in that I am waiting until I get back from holiday to try and sort things out properly, but why do we wait when things can be done now? I have no idea. I can't offer any advice because I don't know the answer myself. I seem to punish myself a lot too and there shouldn't be a reason for it. The human brain is crazy.

    Raindrops of Sapphire

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  33. Thanks for another touching post I need change for myself too. The life is constantly changing around me and sincerely sometimes I don´t want be out to the bed. But I need pushing forward for abetter future.
    xx

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  34. Oh Yes, You are so strong Launna and I believe in You!!!!!!
    Have a wonderful day darling!
    xo Paola
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  35. I'm also on a phase of being lost in life, like, I usually think of.. am i in the right path? why am i doing this? is this really what i want in life? I guess we all just go through this phase. Also, addiction to whatever is also difficult. And I truly understand you. I fangirl over David Archuleta and 5 Seconds of Summer so much and people just see it as "fangirling" but for me, there's a deeper story on why I fangirl over them so much. Oh Launna, I'm sure you'll get through this food addiction. Controlling yourself is the key, though it's really hard. I mean, food is life. I love eating too and I hope I can go healthy living as well even at a young age but I'm having a hard time. I'm not even trying much. Anyway, I hope you'll succeed Launna. I'm sure you will. Just believe in yourself. God bless! :)


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  36. I'd like to hug you tight dear Launna!
    I kinda understand you since I'm in a phase of transition too: for different matters than yours, but I'm looking (and doing, to be honest) my life changing and I don't know where it will lead me...
    Guess I'll have to just wait and see, and I know that probably I'll be able to adapt myself to these changing (since I wanted most of them), but having no control of anything scares me a bit, and makes me very excited on the other side!
    Your struggles are different than mine and probably even more tough to deal with, but I'm sure you can overcome everything! Look at the way you did since a couple of years ago!
    You are strong, powerful and intelligent woman, I'm sure this is just a down moment!
    Good luck on everything, and never give up, sweetie! :D
    xxx
    S
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  37. It took my husband dragging me through this low carb diet for two months before I quit fighting. I get it. Starting is the hardest part, but to be fair, there are times when other things take priority. I tell you what, I'm looking forward to being done with this diet, but I'm also terrified I won't be tolerant of so many of my favorite foods anymore.

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  38. Everyone has their down days. Keep marching. You'll get through it.

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  39. Launna, aquele produto deve ser bom para peles secas, jĂĄ que hidrata muito bem! ;D

    Ótima quarta!

    Beijo! ^^

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  40. Just take things one day at a time. You've done it before, so know you can do it again! I believe in you :)!

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  41. You can do this! You have so much inner strength and you know from past experience that you can do anything you set out to do. But boy do I understand how difficult food can be. Potato chips are my downfall and really bad for my blood pressure. I just have to stop buying them. Easier said than done so I do understand. Big hug!!!

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  42. Dear Launna,
    I think you are a great woman, I know it's diffiult to believe in oneself, but I believe in you and in your inner strenght. I've come back from Toscana, back to work, it's pretty hot now and little Raffaele still wakes up 3-4 times a night... Patience? :)
    A big hug!

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  43. Keep strong Launna, don't give up. I do not know why the changes take long and I am not a patient person, things have been difficult in my life but I always look for something to keep going and be excited about it, keep positive and enjoy life, we do not know how long it last xxx

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  44. Hope and faith are two important words. Keep hope Launna!

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  45. I wish you all the best as you restart heathly eating habits,i know how hardit can be.Am sure you will do it.

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  46. That you said it's true but for eat best reason are in ingredients to make a food good for our sanity..life is beautiful ❤

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  47. We all fall off the diet and exercise wagon every now and then---don't be too hard on yourself. I can tell you've already landed on your feet and are on your way to getting back into the groove!

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  48. This is indeed the mantra of real happiness. I too believe in me and this belief keeps me going. Happiness is within us and its all about inner peace. I learnt this from kung fu panda. ;)
    Hugs and kisses <3

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  49. Is life ever the same? No, because change is happening constantly ... and being part of our rich pattern we must change/adapt to. It may not always be easy, but something at times we all need to do.

    I can't wait for the moment when you are working from home and can go forward, as I know you want to do.

    In the meantime patience and focus on your health ...

    It's July now - I wish you a good one.

    Sending positive thoughts your way

    All the best Jan

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  50. I'm sad to hear that you don't feel good about yourself right now, but this too shall pass, I'm sure of that. We all have our ups and downs, stay strong :)

    Bella Pummarola

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  51. I love your opening paragraph and change is surely inevitable and good. It's hard to keep up with things that we 'have to do'. I so relate on the walking cos I haven't been to the gym in forever or done any kind of exercise shame on me. I hope you are successful in making the changes that need to be made. Sending you good vibes Launna. Happy new month.

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  52. So glad to read that you are feeling more in tune with yourself. We always go through highs and lows in our life, and I am hoping you ride this high!


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  53. You can get back on track!! I can tell you have a good understanding and I recall how much you got out of walking. But don't be too tough on yourself, it is hard and life gets in the way.

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  54. It's great that you've recognised your patterns and are prepared to start challenging them Launna. Comfort eating is an easy habit to fall into, but once you make changes and start to feel better, it gives an incentive to keep trying. Remember that new habits can be learned to replace old ones, and these new and healthier habits will soon start feeling more natural too.

    Saba xx

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  55. Blessings.....
    I have found that when you get lost in the dah dah dah dah dah of life, it is best to pick one thing from the few things that needs changing and just do, don't try, just do and do and do until it becomes a habit and as natural as breathing, then you move on to the next and the next and the next. Giving up, is not an option because you are worth of the effort of doing, let go of trying - cause it means you not really doing.

    peace.
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  56. Blessings....i came back to leave you with a few words from Dr. Maya Angelou.

    “I don't know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, 'Well, if I'd known better I'd have done better,' that's all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, 'I'm sorry,' and then you say to yourself, 'I'm sorry.' If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can't see what we're capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that's rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.”

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  57. I think we all make excuses sometimes....and building a sincere relationship with ourselves is something we all sometimes forget to do.

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