My Highs And Lows

The only thing that matters now is my mission, nothing will stand in my way anymore.

Some decisions are nasty no matter what way you look at them, either way was a lose lose for me... Anyway I can't go back and change my mind now, I just have to keep hoping that one day it will feel like it was worth it.  I know this time of year is really rough for a lot of people, including me... until a couple of years ago, Christmas was great but a stressful time of year.  I looked forward to cooking, baking and decorating... last year that changed and this year does not seem better.  I have decided that this week I am going to focus on Christmas, get the tree decorated and get my Christmas shopping done and wrapped.

Then the following week I can do my cleaning done and get my grocery shopping done.  I think with a plan in place now I can finally get into the spirit of the season.  I want 2014 to be the year I change even more for the better, I know I can't wait for this year to be over, it was a year of loss... both good and bad.  Both of which were at the really high end and the really low end of emotions, kind of like a roller coaster...  the highs and lows left me feeling somewhat like I have just ridden one of them.

For the past two weeks I have been a little lax with my food, having a few things here and there that I shouldn't have but that has changed in the past couple of days.  I am not going to allow anything to get in my way of continuing on my weight loss, I don't have very much left to lose and I have a renewed excitement for it ...  I didn't go overboard by any means, I ate enough that I only lost one pound in the past 2 weeks, which is still good on it's own. So I cut myself a break for the last two weeks, since I was dealing with something.

I also got out last night and had a great walk, it only took 15 minutes either way but I power walked there up hill, it felt great and then walking home it was snowing and I ended up testing out running in the snow and that felt amazing.  I actually ran further in the snow than I have on dry pavement... I wasn't even out of breath, I only stopped because I was home.  I feel very lucky to be in the health that I am, six months ago I barely walked for more than five minutes at a time, now I love those challenging hills and the occasional runs.
I know exercising evens me out, I expend so much energy on a walk/jog that I exhaust myself, in a good way.  Lately I am not getting those great walks in and I miss them, last night showed me I can still keep up with walking even in the winter... I just have to watch out for ice and I need to layer up properly like Fitness Cheerleader says.  I am amazed at how much I have physically changed my body in six months, if I had known what I could have done in six months... I would have done it many years ago.  That is why I have decided to make some other changes now, so that they will be accomplished before the the next year is out.

I don't know when I gave up having goals when I was younger but life became more about the day to day mundane things, I want more than that now... more than just getting by.  The only way it is going to get better is if I decide to make it better.  So I have made that choice, I believe having goals is something that will help keep me directed on this path I am on now.  Sometimes I wish I didn't have to lose so much to gain other things.  Wishing won't change things though, as Oprah says, forgiving is giving up the hope that the past could have been any different.

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  1. I think your plan sounds great! AND way to go on running in the snow. That sounds so wonderful. You are doing a FANTASTIC job!

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    1. Thank you Dana... I actually had a lot of fun running in the snow :)

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  2. Get into the Christmas spirit and enjoy it with your daughters! You have done great this year and I think next year will show continued growth for you. Celebrate during the holidays the progress you have made.

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    1. Thank you Betty... I have been working on celebrating the progress :)

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    2. I agree with Betty! You really should enjoy the festive season - you deserve it!

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    3. Thank you Steffy, you are so sweet :)

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  3. if i went out to make a power walk for at least 15 minutes i would be very proud of me - and you should be proud of yourself, too!

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    1. Awe thank you dk, I am proud of myself that I am keeping up with the walking, it was one of the best things I ever did for myself :)

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  4. Kisses Launna, and enjoy the holidays.
    http://atentamente-carmen.blogspot.com.es/

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    1. Thank you Carmen, have an amazing holidays too :)

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  5. It's a good thing to have goals, Launna. But it's okay to 'cheat' every once in a while. If you don't allow yourself to do that, then you'll end up going mad. And taking a little break doesn't mean you can't eventually reach your goals.

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    1. Thank you Kissandmakeup... I agree, it isn't bad to have a little something sometimes... but I am pretty close to my goal, once I get there that will be when I can test out how much I can eat and how much I have to exercise... it will be a balancing act then :)

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  6. I hope that 2014 will be a great year for you!
    You really deserve it! :) Enjoy the holidays.
    Enjoy the little things.

    xoxo
    www.its-dash.com

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    1. Awe Dascha... thank you much, you deserve it too :) xox

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  7. nice post :)

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  8. For me Christmas is a nice moment with my family and friends, because the rest of the year I'm far away and can't see and met them enough!! But I understand people who see Christmas as a rough time...Have a nice day!!!

    XOXO!

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    1. Thank you Fasion Lover... I hope you have an amazing holidays and a wonderful day :)

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  9. I love your plan Launaa... it sounds good!!!!
    Xmas is the best moment of the year to enjoy your goals with your family!!!!
    Kisses my dear!

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    1. Thank you Paola... I plan to work on changing my attitude about Christmas... I enjoyed it immensely before.. I miss that...

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  10. good luck in continuing your goal! and ya lately I'm lax with what I'm eating too... too much sweets... have a good time wrapping presents and decorating the tree!

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    1. Thank you Pop, have a great Christmas too... the tree is up with the lights... now just the ornaments... yay :)

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  11. It sounds like a great plan! Very inspiring for 2014! :)

    Diana
    www.ManhattanImageandStyle.com
    New Outfit Idea Post: Soft Torn Tones

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  12. Exercise always seems to help me get back on an even keel too. I think everyone allows themselves to eat more of what we enjoy during the holidays. It's pretty hard not to, I think. Besides, you've lost so much weight this past year that you can allow yourself to relax a little. Sounds to me like you are still right on track with your goals. And you're right about setting goals. If we don't work toward them, things don't change and can become stagnant.

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    1. Thank you Daisy, those goals are very important to me... I need something to focus on... I have lost far too much this year and I cannot take much more. I just wanted to thank you for each and every lovely comment you leave on my blog :)

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  13. i love reading your posts!! 2014 will be amazing for you!!

    www.lesley-kim.com

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  14. Hello wonderful Launna. Each letter is a mix of sweet and strong emotion.
    I think it's very important to have goals and your choice seems fabulous.
    The year 2012 was terrible for me .... I thought I had lost everything (including my husband) and I ran away from everyone. But after 3 weeks I realized that I had to change their mentality and I had to learn to love me.
    In this way, every day I photographer myself to be obliged to smile at least once a day and it makes me feel good.
    I hope with so much love that your 2014 is beautiful and full of goals, because you are a very special person.
    A big hug.
    ps: sorry for my bad english ;)
    The Indian Savage Diary

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    1. Thank you Margaret, I love your comment and your English is just fine. I hope 2014 is a good year for both of us ;-)

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  15. Exercise really is one of the best drugs there is out there, no bad side effects, it is legal and it is free! Keep it up! You can do it!

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  16. Some decisions pan out only in hindsight. Lets take it up for discussion once the winds have changed :)

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    1. Thank you Rajesh... sometimes that is true but not always... we will see.... :-/

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    1. Thank you Enara, you have a good day too ;-)

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  18. A lot of Kisses for you my dear blogger friend!

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    1. Thank you Paola... loads of kisses back xox ;-)

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  19. that's nice said, but these weren't my first macarons :) these were my first: http://www.strangeness-and-charms.com/2013/05/macaron-love.html looked much prettier, didn't they?

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    1. They do look good... I don't think baking is simple... you are right that you have to follow the recipe closely ;-)

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  20. a white phone must also look very nice. i would love to see it, especially with the purple cover!

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    1. Thank you Dk... when I get a new phone... I'll take a picture :-)

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  21. Launna,
    Great post dear and I have been getting up an hour before my 3 year old in the morning, so I can be up and have my coffee and be happy before I go in to get him in the morning and I am so much happier. It has been a goal of mine to do this, now if only I can squeeze yoga in as well in that time frame, I will be just great!!!
    xx Easy Outfits, by Pip

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    1. Thank you Pip... I always love my early morning ritual .... it makes the day faster ;-)

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  22. Get it girl!! You sound very determined && you have clear cut goals. I'm sure you'll do great. I used to look forward to Christmas all year long but the past couple Christmases have been pretty depressing && I'm not looking forward to this one. I keep a smile on my face for my daughters though no matter what. Anyway I really enjoyed reading your blog. Let me know if you'd like to follow each other on GFC.

    xo, Sarah
    Hustla, baby.

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    1. Thank you Sarah, I will visit, comment and follow you ;-)

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  23. you can't only dream things, you have to do those things! You write great :)

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  24. hi!!How are you!!! really amazing post..love the way you write !!I I think it's very important to have goals !! I try to weight loss but i eat all the time chocolates :P :P anyway It will mean a lot if you have time to check my blog and tell me your opinion about my post :)

    xoxo Stefania
    http://colorfulblast.blogspot.gr/

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    1. Thank you Stephania.. I will certainly look at your blog ♡

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  25. Thanks for your lovely comment on my blog
    http://www.facebook.com/AmandaChicFashionRoomLounge?ref=hl
    twitter & instagram : @fashionrlounge
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    A chic kiss ;)

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  26. Amazing words! Keep fighting even when the weather is bad and the inner voice says no :)

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  27. We're on a path. We're all struggling to find our way.
    Don't look back.

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    1. Thank you Rick, I'm not looking back but some things take longer to let go of... I will get there though :)

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  28. It's always hard at first for me to get out and get motivate to go to the gym, but once I do it I feel really good afterwards. Totally worth it. Glad to see that you are sticking got it. AND it's ok to eat a little cheat food every now and then! You are doing great, girl!

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    1. Thank you Marcia, I am still very motivated :)

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    1. Thank you Margaret, I hope you have an awesome week ♡

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  30. Enjoy your weekend my dear!!!
    See you soon...

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    1. Thank you Paola... have a fabulous weekend ♡♥♡

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  31. "A goal without a plan is just a wish." I love that!!!

    I'm glad you're still exercising. Be careful running on that snow!

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    1. Thank you Rosey, I don't think I will ever give up exercising... however; I will be careful :)

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  32. Hi Launna! Hope you've been great! Its a good thing you're exercising.. My work keeps me occupied for so long that I end up getting so tired so much that I've even quit doing Yoga that I used to do atleast thrice a week! Its good to hear that you are atleast expending your energy into something that'll make you feel good about yourself.. The stress I currently face in my workplace is making me pack unwanted fats in the wrong places and that causes me more stress! Have a lovely weekend dear!

    Love Nilu Yuleena,
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    1. Thank you Nilu, you are the sweetest, I hope you have a lovely weekend too :)

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  33. Setting goals.....I used to do that and your post reminds me maybe I should set a few again. Goals push me to reach for what I want. Without them.....I just wander. Thanks for the encouragement Launna to push forward again by making new goals....Happy Weekend out there. Snow blast here. If it's the same for you....have fun.

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    1. Thank you Nikki... the only way I reach any goals is setting them :) Have an awesome weekend, big snowstorm on the way Sunday...

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  34. Merry christmas nikki
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    A chic kiss ;)

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