The only thing that matters now is my mission, nothing will stand in my way anymore.
I have been wanting to write all weekend but my mind wouldn't settle long enough to get the thoughts out... I would start a blog post and half way through I would be writing about a completely different thought. So I scrapped those two and decided it would be best to just get to bed early, I ended up waking up at 3:30 am and basically I have been up ever since. Which has left me a great deal of time to just think about things, some things are hard to let myself think about so I tend to do whatever I can not to ...
Since I am not sure where I will be living, I may have to think out of area which would be changing Valentina's school, I think that would be really hard on her, she will be eleven this spring. That is weighing on my mind, I want to do the best for Valentina and I think keeping her with her friends is the best option, if at all possible. Also with work, it could mean changing positions which could be different hours, like I said, lots of changes for me in the near future.
I am still losing weight but slower which is fine, I need to get more committed to the gym again, which means less time for writing. It's a good healthy trade off to be able to get to my goal, I am really excited about that. It has been a long time since I have been excited about anything, I would like to take this excitement into other parts of my life. I went out on a date, really nice guy, friendly, respectful but there was nothing there for me. At least I am trying, I am sure I will meet someone else soon, I am just taking my time and waiting for the right one.