Always Reaching

The only thing that matters now is my mission, nothing will stand in my way anymore.

Before I was going to write last night, I thought I might get to my reading list but I ended up deciding to write first, then have an early night and sleep in hopefully... then get into my reading.  Do you sometimes find that with each good thing we get into our life, something else happens to complicate it?  I know I have to deal with challenges, otherwise I will never grow to my potential but sometimes it feels like the bad outweighs the good. 

Here is the good and actually I would say it was the great... as of today, I am in One der land, I have not seen a number on a scale that did not have a two in front of it for almost 30 years of my life.  When I think about that, I feel sad for that girl from the past, I had no self worth or self esteem... I definitely tried a few times over the years to lose the weight.  I was successful at times but I never got under the elusive 200, that is always the tough number... in the past I gave up and put the weight back on, today I pushed through and I reached my second goal, the first one being losing 50 pounds. To date I have lost 70 pounds, I have maybe another 20 pounds to take off.
That was a wonderful thing that happened to me in this year because with the weight loss, I started to gain my self esteem back and then came my self worth.  When I look in the mirror today, I like the body image I see... I think the last time I really did that was when I was 16, after that I just gained the weight year after year, losing some... gaining back more.  What is different about this time you might be thinking, that would be the exercising that I am doing along with eating healthy.  As well, I want it... I am dedicated and I am not letting anything get in my way.

Then along comes the challenges that I am really not going to get into because no one can make them right for me... suffice to say I sometimes wonder how I am still standing.  I remember when I was 16 years old and my grandmother told me how she thought I was one of the most tenacious people she knew.  It stuck with me as my nan wasn't one to hand out compliments very often, she was very kind and sweet though.  I remembered that through each challenge I have had, I have held on with tenacity.

I am beginning to believe I had to go through all that to be able to handle the ones I have been given this year.  Unfortunately it isn't just one... but that is life, I have to figure out how to find the joy from the pain that will eventually make me stronger than I am today.  I know this because every time I have dealt with something overwhelming I have been sure I could not handle the pain but I did of course and I became stronger.  That is why at the moment although it seems like I have been handed one too many things to deal with, in reality I just have to figure out a way through them... So I can see what I should be reaching for next.

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  1. I love it "One der land. Congratulations. Total of seventy pounds. Wow. You know something it is a wonderful thing not just for your looks but your health as well. You are a great example for people who are struggling out there. I wish that I could shout out and say "Look - - - it is not impossible. Just look at this girl and learn.

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    1. Awe thank you Munir, I want to shout out that it is not impossible either.... even though I thought it was for so long, yes it is hard work but it is worth the work :)

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  2. You have done so very well Launna. Just look at what you've lost so far. Isn't it great? Some days you might not feel like you've done enough but remember when you had that 70 pounds on and now it's OFF? Now, enjoy the festive season, don't go nuts but make sure you reward yourself with a good time, then move on nicely into the New Year and get to your goal weight. I know you can do it.

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    1. Thank you Rum Punch, It is great that I have lost so much weight and gained my self esteem...♡ ....It is time to enjoy the holidays... I hope you do too ♥

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  3. Launna, you are a very strong person and have proved to yourself that you can reach the goals that you set. If you can set and reach one goal, you can set and reach another. Be patient with yourself and hang in there. I hope you can work through whatever you are trying to deal with.

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    1. Thank you Daisy... I am hanging in there... I am trying to remember that my tenacity pulls me through... I just want to work one thing out, then I could really enjoy the holidays :)

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  4. Well, sounds like you've been doing awesome Launna! I'm back to work now, hope your weekend is wonderful!

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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    1. Thank you Tanya, I hope you have an amazing week... good luck with being back to work girl :) xox

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  5. I understand how you feel Launna, it happened to me a few times and I used to complain about why can't I enjoy ONE single thing that is good to me without having to deal with some complication that came with that good thing. Now I try to focus only in the positive side of the issue and that makes dealing with the negative side a bit easier to do :)

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    1. Thank you Deb, I try to do the same thing... see the good side to everything... lately it seems a little bit harder than usual but I am still working on it :)

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  6. I know this: you look a different woman in your profile photo that you did when I first began following you.
    That takes guts.
    This has been a tough year for Jilda and me too, but I refuse to stop believing the best is yet to come.

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    1. Thank you Rick and I really hope things get better for you and Jilda too :)

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  7. Thanks Launna for your lovely comments today! I really enjoyed reading them and I hope your weekend is going well! :)xx Easy Outfits, by Pip

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    1. Thank you Pip and I hope your weekend is going well too :) xox

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  8. Nice blog, please check out my newest post! http://ccfashion16.blogspot.com/2013/12/3-holiday-outfits-ft-1-dress.html

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    1. Thank you ccfashion16, I am now following you on GFC and Bloglovin :)

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  9. Well done. You've lost so much weight that shows true dedication and committment. Such an achievement. I'm pleased its contributing to your self worth coming back. I love your attitude. We sure can take comfort from situations that we found painful and overwhelming in the past but actually got through. It provides strength to keep going

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    1. Thank you Imogen, that is very true what you say about getting through painful situations which gives us strength to keep going :)

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  10. I know you can do it, Launna, and you know it too. You've already done really well, so all you have to do is continue working hard.

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  11. Tenacious is a great quality. And nice grams are awesome, I had one too. :)

    Congrats on being in One-derland, that's rocking awesome, Launna!!

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    1. Thank you Rosey.. I'm so thrilled to be in One-derland ;-)

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  12. As usual phenomenal post! You are a champion!
    I can see that you love what you are doing!
    Thanks for posting! I love you :-*

    Let’s Swap Postcards!


    Regards,
    Katherine Unique


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    1. Thank you so much Katherine, you are such a doll xox :)

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  13. Love the Part that you lost 70 pounds! :) You are a gorgeous Woman with a wonderful Heart ,i can see this in your Words! <3

    Happy Sunday ,big Hugs!

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    1. Thank you so much LoveT, your words are so kind :)

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  14. Another great and inspiring post!! You are such a beautiful woman, both in and out! ;)

    Diana
    www.ManhattanImageandStyle.com
    New Blog Post: Tips to Relieve Stress This Holiday Season

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    1. Awe thank you Manhattan... that is so sweet :)

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  15. Love the quote which says i dream for my future

    http://www.facebook.com/AmandaChicFashionRoomLounge?ref=hl
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    A chic kiss ;)

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  16. You are a really strong person!
    Really inspirering!:)

    xoxo
    www.its-dash.com

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    1. Thank you Dascha, I hope I am as strong as people think... :-/

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  17. Congratulations on making it to one-derland. That's fabulous. When you set your mind to it, the sky really is the limit.

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    1. Thank you Susan... isn't that the truth ;-)

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  18. I send you strong hugs and thanks so much for being my friend <3
    Xxx

    Carolina

    www.the-world-c.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Carolina xox strong hugs back ♡

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  19. I love your posts, always full of inspiration!!!!
    Tnx for sharing Launna!
    Have a great start of the week, my strong friend!!!!

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    1. Thank you Paola...have a wonderful start of the week... ;-)

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  20. I so enjoy your posts! What a positive influence you are!

    Pearl

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    1. Thank you Pearl, that's so sweet of you to say ♥

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  21. Hello hello,
    Your blog is so so cute, loved the layout and all the fantastic photos :)

    With love, Bárbara
    www.preppylemonade.com

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    1. Thank you Barbara... that is so kind of you to say ♡

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  22. Love it that your nan dished out a wonderful compliment - words stick with us forever - good or bad.

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    1. Thank you Kenya... words do stick with us ♡

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  23. No Two! How incredibly exciting for you!

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  24. Way to take off the pounds!!!

    I hear you when it comes to having more than you can handle. I keep hitting my threshold as far as responsibility/time/resources/sanity, and then get pushed beyond. I find I'm actually dropping the ball more than I ever have before, but I'm also accomplishing so much more than a single person should be capable of doing. The longer I'm on this path, the greater my capacity, and so I press forward. One day at a time, eh?

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    1. Thank you Crystal... you are right... one day at a time .... :-/

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  25. Hi my sweet Lau, This a strong and lovely post (my favorite in this moment). One sentence has touched my heart "When I look in the mirror today, I like the body image I see…" So strong and adorable words.
    I'm very happy, It's a pleasure to be your fan.
    Kisses
    The Indian Savage diary

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    1. Thank you Margaret, you always say such lovely things to me xox :)

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  26. What you have shared here is true. I am also fat and i too feel so much. But once when our body get little bit reduced will feel so happy in it. We will gain some self power within us.

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    1. Thank you Weekend... I am learning self control daily :-)

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  27. <3 you are so rolling in your life Launna :) I´m so happy about that!!!!!

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    1. Thank you Maarit... it's great we can be happy for each other ♡

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  28. Thank you so much babe, it doesn't matter if you can't vote, your spiritual one is the best I received <3
    Love

    Carolina

    www.the-world-c.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Carolina, I'll try to use translator so I can vote ♡♥♡ xox

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  29. Tnx for visiting and for your funny comment my friend, have a fab day!!!!
    Kiss

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    1. Thank you Paolo... have a fantastic day too ♥♡♥ xox

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  30. UR SO AMAZING

    http://iamaleena.blogspot.com.au/

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    1. Thank so much Aeena... you are so sweet ♥

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  31. Greeat post like always!!! We have to focus on good things and try to deal with bad things without loosing the smile!

    XOXO!

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    1. Thank you Fashion Lover... you are so kind ♥♡♥

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  32. Hi sweetie, I don't know if you realize but Google has delete the GFC and I'm triyng to get in touch with people that I was following and that was following me back to ask to follow each other on Bloglovin' so that we can stay in touch. I will follow you right back. Thank you, Kisses Ana
    http://www.bloglovin.com/blog/8529505/city-girl

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    1. Thank you Ana, I just got this comment... GFC is back and I am following you on Bloglovin :)

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  33. Lovely and inspiring words! I cant agree more!
    Follow (if u like): www.theforeignergirl.blogspot.com.es

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  34. Always be strong :)

    Federica
    http://www.thecutielicious.com

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  35. Loads of love babe!

    Carolina

    www.the-world-c.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Paola... you are such a doll ... xox ♡♥♡

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    1. Thank you Margaret... you are so lovely to me

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  38. hi Launna, have a great day to you, thanks so much for stopping by!!!

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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    1. Thank you Tanya... you are such a sweetie and I adore all your comments... have an amazing day <3 xox

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  39. WOW! One-der-land! Congratulations, Luanna!

    I'm sorry you are still having trouble sleeping...I can only imagine how aggravating that it. Even with all my anxiety issues in the past, I've always been able to sleep. I'll remember you in my prayers that you get some relief from your sleeplessness. Take care.

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    1. Thank you Grace, I really appreciate that ;-)

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    1. Thank you Paola and have a fabulous day yourself too :) xox

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  41. Lot of love my dear!

    Carolina

    www.the-world-c.blogspot.com

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  42. Merry Xmas


    http://www.facebook.com/AmandaChicFashionRoomLounge?ref=hl
    twitter & instagram : @fashionrlounge
    Fashion room lounge

    A chic kiss ;)

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    1. Thank you Amanda, Merry Christmas to you too ♥

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  43. touching post, and yeah sometimes I go through my old post when I was going through rough times and feel blessed on where I am today, I hope you have a great holiday with your friends and family, and keep working with the weight loss you can do it :D

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    1. Thank you Pop...Have a very Merry Christmas ;-)

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  44. your words are always so inspiring!
    happy holidays and i hope all your holiday wishes comes true!

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  45. Também achei! ;D

    Tem que ter força de vontade!

    Ótima quinta, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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    1. Thank you Amanda, I hope you have a wonderful Thursday too xox

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  46. I am a little behind on my reading. I am excited that you made it to One derland

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    1. Thank you Betty..I'm excited to be in One-derland ♡

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