Having Gratitude That I Know My Worth

I didn't sleep long last night but I slept well... I even woke up five minutes before the alarm went off, so I felt rested.  Waking up on my own is so much better than having the alarm jar me awake. My whole day starts off on a much better foot when I wake up refreshed and on my own.

My mind is with the families of Oklahoma... the devastation that a tornado can cause in such a very short time is very scary.  I feel for each of these people having to deal with such overwhelming tragedy.  I have dealt with some nasty weather... hurricane Juan in 2003 and white Juan in 2004... neither one of them are anywhere close to what Oklahoma is dealing with and both of those storms stopped our city for days.

I feel blessed to be living in a part of the country that doesn't have the wild weather that other places have... I will put up with my cold winters and complain less, I'm grateful. Lately I have been thinking about gratitude and how thankful I am for my life.  I don't always show enough gratitude... especially when I am handling overwhelming challenges.

Mostly I have been thinking more about gratitude, due to the many blogs I have read in the last little while, where the writer is down on themselves and writing all their negatives about themselves.  I honestly feel sorry for them because I have felt this way myself... I try not to dwell on those attributes, we all have quirks about ourselves that we don't like, I am trying to look for the good things in me and continue to highlight those traits more.

This reminded me about that quote by Albert Einstein below:

I need to remember this more often, I have awesome qualities, things that I am amazing at... some things I am not but I should not put myself down for those things... I should highlight those amazing qualities.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥ 

Being Uniqe And Standing Out

First, I did get a little sleep last night... not that I don't want more because I do... but I did get some, which was good as I was a lot less giddy then I was the day before.  One of my friends messaged me and asked what was wrong with being giddy, I said you may want to talk with my co-workers.  I have a loud laugh that I do not hold back when something strikes me as funny and when I have not slept... well, let's say it so much louder.  They are all good though, they told me it wasn't the same without me there and that the aisle I am in was much too quiet. 

I am positive that the people I went to junior high and high school would be in massive disbelief that I am as open and friendly as I am today.  I was incredibly and painfully shy that if someone looked at me, I would wish the floor would open up and swallow me...   Of course the people at work only know the boisterous and friendly me and find it incredibly difficult to believe that at one point in my life, I did all that I could to blend in so no one would see me.  At least I have my David who could vouch for me, he knew me when I was at my shyest, he says he likes how open I have become over the years, I know I am much happier not trying to conform to what others want.

 

I am me and if someone doesn't like me, oh well... I do what I can to be the best me and that is all I can do.  Not everyone is going to like me or get me, I am quirky...  but I like that I am unique and that I can make people  laugh with all my silly antics.  Where I may have been mortified in my youth to stand out, I relish the challenge... I no longer care nor do I want to be a cookie cutter of anyone else... that is the biggest issue with people these days.   People trying to be someone they are not to have someone like them or to conform to what they think they need to be able to fit in.  Really??? we are not in high school, we are adults and I for one celebrate all of our differences, it is what makes us special. 

I like being special, memorable and quirky... I am anything but boring and I don't ever plan to be boring...  Fitting in is just not where it is, it is those people that are willing to stand out that get places in life.  The question is do you want to sit on the side lines for fear of what other people will say, today I don't care... let others sit on the side lines... I don't want to get to a point in my life and regret not living my life to the fullest, I want to say WOW... I really lived life to the fullest and I had an amazing time.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥