I Need To Have Joy In The Moment


How much in a humans life is lost in waiting?

I know my post was all over the place yesterday, it's because my mind is on overdrive.  I make a decision and within five minutes I'm doubting my choice, wondering if I can live with the consequences?  Then I weigh it out in my heart and mind again, coming to the first conclusion again, only to doubt it all over again.

It's because I am not covering my feelings, so they are all over the place.  I'm realizing that I trust myself so little that I keep thinking that other people know better about what's good for me.  I just want to trust myself again, I want to believe in my decisions so that I don't sway from them. 

It's just that I've made some pretty poor decisions in my life that I was so sure were going to be good for me and weren't.  It's hard to trust myself when I've been so wrong in the past.  Somehow I have to get past all that and believe in me.


I came to church this morning and heard an amazing talk, it reminded me once again that I need to be grateful and have faith.  Why is that so hard for me?  I have been so blessed even when I don't have enough faith.  Shouldn't that be enough for me? 

 That beginning quote above grabbed my attention last night  'How much in a humans life is lost in waiting?'  I realized I have been waiting and not enjoying the wait either; I've been feeling that if I could just have... whatever it is that I want at the moment that I would then be happy, then have joy, then be what and who I'm meant to be... if....

I need to be happy now, I need to have joy now and I need to be all that I am meant to be right now!  Not when I feel the time is right! 

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

6 comments :

  1. My Dad used to tell me I was wishing my life away which was his way of telling me I should enjoy the moment I'm in instead of always wishing for something else. I didn't realize until later how right he was! :)

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  2. Your father was right Daisy, I learned so late in my life... At least I learned it; let's see if I can remember it now :)

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  3. Everybody have doubts with decissions in life but at lkast we have to look foward. Very interesting, as usual. Have a nice week!

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  4. Thank you Armando, most people do have doubts, I feel mine are quite unreasonable at times :).

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  5. This is very uplifting, and you are so right about it all. I feel like I have spent most of my life waiting for the "next big thing". Now that I am on the other side of fifty, I realize how much time was wasted on waiting for life to "happen". Carp Diem--seize the day!

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  6. Thank you menopausal mama... I too wish I had learned this lesson much sooner... I have learned it now though... I am grateful for this:)

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