What I Know For Sure Now


I am feeling something I haven't felt for a while... strong and in control.  I had given my control away, I thought I had to do this to have what I wanted.  I was wrong, I had to be in control to have what I wanted.  I remember nearly two years ago when I knew, I mean I really knew without a doubt that I was meant to do something.  I didn't just think it, I knew it...  I knew it in my heart.  I put myself out there. 

Even when it looked like it wouldn't happen, I still believed... I never gave up and within six months it happened.  I was over joyed, so thrilled that I was fulfilling something that I knew I was meant to do.  I also remember everyone questioning me about how I was going to handle it not lasting, here is what I knew then, I knew that I was only meant to be there in that place for a time.  When it all came to an end, I surprised everyone when I was happy; exuberant even.

Fast forward to today...  something interesting happened, it reminded me of something I knew, not just felt but really knew.  I realized that I had given up my control, I gave it away... I forgot my true value.  Tonight brought it all back, it brought about a 'hmm' moment.  I cannot ignore those moments, they mean more than we think they do.  If we brush them off, we are not believing in ourselves.  I believe in myself and I believe in what I know... why did I let myself give up on what I knew?  Fear?  I thought my dream was too big?  I didn't feel I was worthy?
Tonight I knew it was sum of all those things, I forgot what I knew and what got me to where I was... I neglected to believe in me.  I was sure that I wasn't good enough for what I knew was meant to be.  I proved this by not standing up for myself, by pulling back for fear of pushing the dream away.  I am worth it, I am completely worth it... I am not holding back any longer.  Going forward, I am on my path... I am not going off track again.  
Gone is the fear, gone is feeling the dream is too big (I didn't dream big enough), I am more worthy than even I knew... Some things are worth holding onto, some dreams are meant to be... even when others can't see the outcome.  Oh and this one is meant to last, it always was... I just didn't have faith before.  I believe in me!

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

12 comments :

  1. Hello Launna:
    This is all so very positive, for which we are so heartened. And you will not be on your own.

    Towards the end of this week we will be 'off air' for a while. During that time you will not be forgotten and we shall catch up in due course.

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  2. Thank you Jane and Lance... I look forward to your next post when you come back... I am sure it will be another adventure that we will all look forward to hearing about.

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  3. Thank you Brooklyn Grace, I appreciate the very kind comment;)

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  4. good for you for having the control back.!.
    X)

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  5. Thank you Sayid Ann... I am in control... the thing is I was never out of control, I only thought I was... :)


    I look forward to a new post of yours:)

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  6. Good for you! Believing you're worth it and can accomplish whatever it is you really want is the first step in getting there. I wish you all the success in the world as you make whatever it is happen the way you want it to!

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  7. Thank you SO much Jenn, I appreciate your very nice comment ;).

    I can't wait to read your new book!!!

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  8. It's true, that is a choice that is up to us to make. Glad to hear things are going well for you.

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  9. Thank you Daisy... it was a 'hmmm' incident that got me thinking... Now I realized something that I should have always realized... The future has options that I should have always known..

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  10. It is very easy to feel we are not worthy...I think past experiences can do that to you and although we fight against that at times that not feeling worthy can creep back up on us. Thing is Launna YOU are of WORTH...Hod on to that and go for that dream. Smiles.

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  11. Hi Behind the Smile, thank you for the kind comment... we are all worthy, I personally just needed to remember it! :)

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