Today was a truly rough day for me, I have had so much negativity around me the past couple of days. Tonight I had a so called 'friend' of mine who felt the need to advise me I was obsessed and that I was letting people use me which I had already dealt with this issue with someone else that I am closer to on Friday. Why do these people think I am obsessed when I just care about someone.
It's not like I let everything else in my life go, I think that I have balanced my life with work and raising Valentina. So what if I care about someone and go out of my way to try to make their life better, isn't that what a true friend does, they don't just walk away in someones time of need. If I did, what kind of friend would I be?
I know that I can be a little too focused when I want something or someone in my life but does that mean I am obsessed? I just know that if I was in a bad way that I would hope that my friends would do the same things for me and they have been there for me. I don't pull them down when they have gone out of their way to help me.
I am the type of person that will go the extra mile for someone that I care about. So when my so called 'friend' made it their mission in life to drag me down to their level of negativity, I had to make a decision about them and cut them out of my life. I cannot let anyone bring me to their level just because they cannot see the bigger picture.
I also know that I hurt someone very close to me and I truly feel bad for that but all I can say in my defence is that for the majority of my life, I haven't been all that happy and for the last couple of years I have been very happy. Is there something wrong with being happy? I am hoping that they can forgive me, truly forgive me and understand that for once in my life I was being true to myself.
Love doesn't come with a manual, it doesn't tell you who or how you should love someone. Life just puts people and events into your path and we are just to deal with it the best way we know how. Up until a couple of years ago, I would have said there was no way that certain situations could ever work out but since I have found out different I realize that I was being very judgemental in the past and who am I to judge anyone else. I don't have the right to tell anyone how to live their lives or who they should love.
So, if caring about someone and wanting the best for them is being obsessed, then I am obsessed. It's just too bad that I hurt someone close to me and that I lost a friend in the process but I have to be true to myself no matter the consequences because being true to me is all that I really have in this life.