"Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain.
The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?"
Mary Manin Morrissey
This thought make me really delve into my feelings... I guess I have been holding onto the past which has been holding me back from my future. I've never been one to release the hurt easily, I think I am okay and then boom, it is in my face again. The truth is that the past does not define me nor does it make me who I am today. I have the ability to be better than what life has dished out to me in the past. I think what I need to do is realize how far I have actually come in my life despite all the set backs life has offered me.
When I ponder it this way, it acutally makes me recongize how strong I really am. I know it's hard to always feel positive and uplifted when life keeps throwing curves at us but it seems it is the best way to deal with all the crazy ups and downs.
I also found out that I cannot be one of those people that is only out for herself, I tried it as I thought it might be fun to actually get my own way. Then I realized that getting what I wanted at someone elses expense wasn't that great at all. How can other people be like that? I could not live with myself if I were to take what I wanted and it made someone else sad or uncomfortable.
People certainly have not minded doing that to me but it doesn't make it right for me to do it when I know better. I am kind of disappointed that I even attempted to be like that, at least I got it together and changed it after I immediately felt bad.
Anyhow, this quote made me really think and I don't want anything holding me back from the future, least of all the past.