Better Than The Day Before

The only thing that matters now is my mission.  Nothing will stand in the way anymore.

I spent two hours typing in the other blog yesterday and the day before, it is amazing what comes out of you when you just say what you feel no matter what, the only person that can judge you is yourself and I have come too far to judge myself that harshly.  I have made many mistakes over the years, some of them had bigger consequences depending on the incident.  What I came away with after I had written as much as I could write, was that although I have made mistakes, I have grown... lately I have grown in leaps and bounds.

No matter how difficult things are going in my life and currently they are not great... I see that I have a determination and commitment that I have never really had before.  I love that I am still so focused... I have a goal to get to for my weight and a goal to become the best me... Frankly the old me would have thrown the towel in and just gone to town with the food, not caring, just numbing myself.  I don't want to do that anymore, I always want to be cognizant of what I am eating...

When I say things are not great lately, I mean they are just so up in the air... I feel like I am just tying to get my feet under me but another thing comes along to add to the pile.  I have some great things happening, I am still losing weight and this week I didn't even put the effort in other than the food part which I followed.  I still managed to lose 1.6 pounds with minimal exercise... I can just imagine what I would have lost if I had put in the effort... Next week I am going exercise since I miss it so much, it is such a great way to get rid of tension... it is a good place to work things out.

I think writing the last few nights have helped me to see a couple of my issues in another light, frankly I have been overwhelmed by a few things which affects other areas of my life.  After writing last night I knew that when I exercised even when I felt this way, I would always feel better for putting forth the effort.  This last week I have had one thing come up after another so I wasn't able to make it out to the gym, those were only excuses though.  I didn't put the effort in, I should have bypassed some of those and just did it... I have that fire back inside.  I am looking forward into getting in some form of exercise tomorrow.
I planned to walk at lunch today but it poured rain, so I will attempt this all again tomorrow.  I am not giving up on myself, I am not sliding backwards.  Life may have just thrown me a dozen loops or more but I am not giving into the stress and allowing myself to ever go back.  I want better, I want more... I deserve more.  My body misses exercise, I miss pushing myself beyond my limits... I remember wondering how people could walk a mile in under 15 minutes... now I do it all the time.  Especially when I am pushing myself, it feels good to get out and get rid of some stress along the way.

I was thinking, I need a friendly little contest or competition, since I am highly competitive it would get me out exercising again.  I will have to come up with some idea in the next day or so, it would be fun to complete again.   I could be at my goal weight for January, the latest February... I am getting excited, I can hardly wait to see how I look when I get there and see how I feel.  Already I feel amazing losing 61 and half pounds and all in five months... I can just imagine how much better I will be feeling once the other 20-25 pounds is gone. 

Time for me to exhale again... I have been holding my breath waiting for the next awful thing to happen... tonight I am going to look for the next good thing and I am going to make good things happen.  I am not going to be defined by my past, I have moved away from that, I have made changes and I have learned a lot of hard lessons.  I have lost a great deal, more than I thought I could handle... I am still here though, still wanting to be better than the day before, isn't that all we can do...

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  1. You're such a lovely optimistic person Launna! Have a lovely day!

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    1. Thank you Nilu, you are such a sweet person, xo

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  2. Hopefully you can find another marathon like thing you can get ready for and maybe strive to beat your time. Do they come up often? We had rain today also - more than expected so I didn't get out either. Here's to tomorrow! ;-)

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    1. Thank you Kenya, I am thinking of preparing myself for a 10K, I have never walked that long before, so it would take some training and commitment which I am good at both... so I think I will do this too :)

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  3. That's right---just take it one day at a time because each day makes you stronger & stronger! XO

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    1. Thank you Marcia, your comments are always so sweet to receive :)

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  4. Lovely sweet Launna, I wish we were neighbors so we'd take our daily walks together and then I'd give you a very long and warm hug...with kisses on both your cheeks...You are very dear to me and I am sure you'll conquer it all...all your problems and fears and doubts...I believe in you.

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    1. Thank you Petronela, I hope I conquer my fair share of problems, fears and doubts... I always appreciate when you comment, you are so nice to me:)

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  5. you're a strong person! great article
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    1. Thank you Kelly... I appreciate your comment :-)

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  6. from the heart of one fighter to another - you go girl!!!!!

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    1. Thank you Nikki, we are fighters aren't we? :-)

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  7. You focus and determination are why you will ultimately succeed in your pursuit of happiness and fulfillment :)

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    1. Thank you Keith... I was feeling defeated but I'm changing that around :-)

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  8. Hope and determination are wonderful things, and it's amazing what they actually can see us through. :) Been there, done that (with my own not-so-happy things), and now I'm cheering for you!

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    1. Hope and determination are necessities in this life otherwise we will never succeed... :-)

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  9. You are a beautiful and very strong person Launna!!!! Congrats!!!!
    I love your last quote!!!
    Happy friday darling!!!!

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    1. Thank you Paola... you are so kind yo me xox

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  10. I think you are doing great, Launna! I lost the first 30 pounds and have been stalled there ever since. I'd like to lose another 20, but I can't seem to get myself motivated. I should just follow your example and do it--make time for it because it is important. You really are an inspiration to others. :) I hope you have a good weekend!

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    1. Thank you Daisy, let's do it together... I had my one week off.. I can't wait to get back on track :-)

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  11. so glad you have gotten rid of that lame David on your blog! he was never there for you especially a couple of weeks ago when you broke down. even if one is healing he could at least have send a little message.it was really painful to see how you waste all your love and gorgeousness on someone who does not care enough to deserve you! but i know how hard it is, loving someone who does not love you back is like an addiction, it makes no sense is bad for you and you cannot stop and still make yourself believe the addicitive substance has some quality...you are strong and beautiful!! and inspiring!

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    1. Hi Catherine, do I know you? I don't think David is lame... I think things happen and change... it doesn't make the person bad... he's actually a very good man... just living his life like the rest of us. Thank you for saying all the lovely things you said about me..

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  12. So inspirational! What a great article! <3

    Diana
    www.ManhattanImageandStyle.com
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  13. It is so encouraging to read you, Launna. Yes, keep moving forward. I think I'm going to create a new blog for myself and then just let the words flow, just like how you do it in your secret blog. Thank you so much for the inspiration once again! Much love to you and God bless! ♡ :-)

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    1. Thank you Irene... it's very therepuetic to write whatever you want write and not be judged...

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  14. nice blog! :)
    would you like to follow each other?
    just let me know
    xx
    Marlena

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    1. Thank you Marlene, I would love to follow you;-)

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  15. Inspiring...
    Hugs :)

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  16. You have a really great blog. Maybe we can follow each other on GFC and Bloglovin, if you want? Let me know :)

    Kisses,
    Maria
    http://retrostreetstation.blogspot.de/

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    1. Thank you Maria, I am now following you on GFC and Bloglovin :-)

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    2. Thanks for following! I followed back :)

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    3. You are welcome and thank you for the follow :)

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  17. The good news is good habits are as easy to adopt as bad ones. Okay, so not maybe as easy, but when we continue to do good things, as you've been doing, those things become the new habits that replace the old unhealthy ones. You go, girl! With your attitude, you can do anything you set your mind to do.

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    1. Thank you Susan... those good habits are not always easy to come by but they are worth it :-)

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  18. lovely blog dear <3
    Lets follow each other in GFC, Bloglovin and FB :)
    Kindly let me know where all you are following and I will return the favor

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    1. Thank you Aschaaa.. I am following you on GFC and Bloglovin ;-)

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  19. Exhale. Don't hold back. Leap back into life. You are not a survivor Launa, you are a winner :)

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    1. Thank you Rajesh, that's a good way to think about it... I'm a winner, not a survivor... I feel a post coming on :-)

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  20. Whatever you do just don't give up mate. Yes, every now and again you will hit a brick wall or bump into hurdles too high too jump over the first time. But you will get through if you keep trying. Nothing in life is easy, and sometimes you have to fight to get what you want. Giving up after coming so far is not an option. Keep it up, keep going.

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    1. Thank you Rum Punch, I'm not giving up... you are right, I have come too far;-)

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  21. Your posts are always so inspirational. They make me realize that everyone goes through these things.

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    1. Thank you Kissandmake, everyone does go through these things;-)

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  22. Oh,such a beautiful post.So inspiring and motivational.I love these kind of blogs :)
    xx
    Style Of OzOz
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    1. Thank you Ozden, I am following you on Bloglovin ;-)

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  23. hello dear,

    i follow you too :* have a nice weekend :)

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  24. Discipline is the key and it sounds as if you've mastered that. People can do or be what they want if they have the discipline to do the "homework".
    Reading your blog is inspiring.

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    1. Thank you for the very kind comment Rick ;-)

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  25. Wow! What can I say? ... intimidates me!
    I love you! You are soo inspiring!
    Great post! I congratulate the ability and talent to curiosity to me!
    I will always be coming back for more: *


    Regards,
    Katherine Unique


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    1. Thank you Katherine, you are always so nice to me with the loveliest of words :)

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  26. That's right ;)

    I follow you beautiful blog. I hope you will follow me back and I will wait for you in my blog www.gabusiek.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Gabusiek, I will definitely look at your blog and follow you too :)

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  27. You are a stronger person Launna! I am so sick but sneak a lil time to only answer and visit back! I hope I will be better soon! Hope your weekend is great!

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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    1. Thank you so much Tanya, I hope you are feeling better very soon... xox

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  28. Have a wonderful sunday my dear blogger friend!!!!!
    ^-^

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    1. Thank you Paola, have a wonderful Sunday too :)

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  29. Launna you look great with you new photo..anyway im happy again can visit your inspired blog..and i just want to say "Never give up " i wish i have a discipline like you ^__^

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    1. Thank you Wawa... it's hard to stay disciplined all the time... I will never give up though...

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    1. Thank you so much World of Photography :)

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  31. Thank you my Dear Friend,,, thank you for join us really appreciate the gesture and I'll join you,,, hot warm greetings from Spain
    I joined the blog and google......xoxoxo

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  32. love how you find the positive in everything - your journey will be a success because although there are rough days, you don't give up! Keep working to make the effort Launna! :)

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    1. Thank you Vett, that's very kind if you to say :-)

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  33. Launna, I am glad to hear you are writing on your other blog. I think writing about things helps to work them out.

    I know what you mean about one thing after another happening. It seems my life has been that way too.

    My pap came back with bad results that showed I had an aggressive strain of HPV which probably meant cancer. Thanks goodness the biopsy was good. Lots of other things going on too.

    I am amazed at your weight loss!

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    1. Thank you Betty, I was so happy to read that your biopsy came back good... that is something to be grateful for, for sure.

      Lately I find writing out everything helps to get rid of some stress :)

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  34. Really inspiring post :)
    Did you had a great weekend?

    xoxo
    www.its-dash.com

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    1. Thank you Dascha, I had a relaxing weekend ;-)

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  35. Launna, it's incredibly inspirational post, especially first quote is truly amazing!

    Thank you for lovely comment, have a happy week ahead
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    1. Thank you lavendar... I love that quote too;-)

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  36. writing sure helps a lot while reflection about everything which hits your mind

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    1. Thank you Sammie and yes writing is good for a lot of relection....:-)

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  37. Happy monday girl! A lot of kisses!!!!!
    http://expressyourselfbypaolalauretano.blogspot.it

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    1. Thank you Paola... have a great Monday too :-)

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