First some good news, my leg is healing pretty good... my insurance company from work has approved for me to be off until April 3rd, they told me they wanted to make sure my leg was healed before heading back to work. I am quite grateful to say the least, have I said how much I love the company I work for? If not, I love the company I work for... I am able to have surgery and recuperate without any financial worry. I am going to spend the next three weeks building up my strength, it is easy to lose your muscle while lying around healing.
The quote above by Jeanette Winterson that states how we handle change, how change is natural... what I perceive from this quote is that we have to have faith that everything will work out as it should, since change is a constant in our lives... we need to learn how to deal with it and the best way is to just have faith. I know for myself that when I come up against a change I am not sure I can handle, I tend to think about it too much instead of having a little faith that the change is necessary and good.
This year is a year of change for me, I am finally being healed... I am going to be able to start exercising soon, I am going to face my fear of heights this summer and I am learning to have faith in the changes that are happening. I really had lost faith in myself in 2012, I was so wrapped up in my loss that I couldn't deal with anything else. I understand that there are events in our lives that will bring us to our knees, test our faith and question all that we know... This was the time for me to have faith and know that one day the answers I searched for from my loss would be made known to me. I needed to stop wondering and give myself the permission to move on without the answers.
Having faith really does mean that I will have trust that what the future holds is exactly where I am meant to be. I don't think any of this is easy but when I think of the alternative which is living with fear and chaos, I am realizing that having faith is a much better option... Also, I still have my hopes, wishes, dreams... we should never give up on our dreams but when they are not working out perfectly, sometimes shifting things another way will still lead us to our dreams.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥