I am feeling my strength build up, I am not as exhausted as I have been but I am not rushing it, I want to make sure both of my legs are healed... I do NOT want to go back to the hospital. I am going to do whatever it is that I have to, to make sure I don't end up there again. I don't like the feeling of being trapped and being dependent, I am so looking forward to feeling like myself soon.
I don't have anything to cloud my thoughts which believe me is much harder than I thought it was going to be. I want to run away, hide and give up but my tenacity won't let me, it reminds me that I am stronger than I thought and even stronger than I want to be. Sometimes I wish I wasn't quite so tenacious, I think life would be a little easier if I didn't hold on so tight.
Then I am reminded that my tenacity has got me to where I am today, definitely farther than many people would have believed, even myself sometimes... Other times I think it can be a strength to know when to give up, I am still working on this one... knowing when?
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥