Instead, I woke up restless, my mind is racing.... I am on the horizon of change, in getting there, I feel like I am losing a part of myself. That is what change is about, losing parts of yourself... only to gain better parts... I know deep in my heart that better things are on that horizon but it is very painful losing that part of me I don't want to let go. Unfortunately when a part of me is more sad than happy I need to let it go. I want to be strong enough but honestly I don't know if I am... some challenges are bigger than others, some take a very long time.
I am not sure if I will feel like writing, then again I think I may feel like writing more... I really don't know how it will affect me all in the long run... I am hoping it will be the latter and that I will write, which I think will be therapeutic for me, I feel like I have come so far. I guess that is why we are given those trials, to show us that we have what it takes. I have to believe in myself even though I don't see the steps or the way through to the end... that's the daunting task in front of me.
I am hoping when I get to the other side of the horizon that I will be able to see that letting go was my only choice.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥