Centered With A Purpose


The only thing that matters now is my mission.  Nothing will stand in the way anymore.

Lying here almost ready to sleep when I have an aha moment ... I was reading an older post entry and I realized how much growth I have made.  I used to wrap myself in emotions... now I exercise them.  I can totally understand how someone could have thought I was centered without any real purpose.  Back then I had nothing to focus on... just the blogging. For a long time there I poured out every dream, hope, desire I felt, without thinking of the future.

I feel like I have grown so much since then... this is a girl who doesn't have an excuse for eating poorly or not exercising... I just do it literally.  I used to blog everyday... not going to happen in the future... I want to write when I feel the mood.  Not because I feel like I have to, that way I will write more clearly and not so literal. Part of me thought about deleting some of those older posts ... but as I thought about it though, those experiences made me who I am today.  I'm the girl who took my life back with determination ..  I learned to love myself with this lifestyle change... I used to be so unhappy when I was big.  I thought I had limited options.

In less than 5 months, I have worked very hard to drop the 60 pounds I have lost just since June 15, 2013.  Even though my body is not perfect, I love it now.  It is shapely and curvy and so much smaller than it has been in years.   I have this to focus on... I'm not centered without purpose anymore and I don't feel like I have limited options.

In almost five months, I have not lost the focus of being healthy and strong... my knees are hurting less, my heart is thanking me big time, I gave up TV...  Also exercising is not an option, it is a necessity.  I don't want to take medication...  I want to be healthy.  I've come a long way... Still if I had reined myself in back then, I wouldn't be in this situation...  This is a huge lesson for me, we might think we are getting away with things at the time, eating poorly, not exercising, smoking... They all have consequences down the road... I am learning that and realizing how much harder I have to work now ....  At least I learned that lesson ... it seems like one I have had pop up a few times in my life and I finally listened.
I am hoping and praying that people can forgive me for being centered without any purpose for a long time, all I can say is that this has changed, I am busy and focused... I feel like I have endless options.  I would love to choose sleep though and I think I can get that with forgiveness which might allow me to sleep. The first person I want forgiveness from is me, I make mistakes, it's okay... I am not defined by them, I can grow from them and frankly I have.  I am finally centered with a purpose, for me to get in the best shape, body and mind... I am on the right path.

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    1. Thank you Nilu, I will pop over and see yours ;)

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  2. I always love your post Launna..... full of beautiful words and interesting quotes!!!! Happy friday my dear!!!!

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    1. Thank you for the lovely comment Paolo... Happy Friday to you too :)

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  3. I really see what a strong person you are! This post is so touching and inspiring, thanks for sharing! Have a wonderful weekend you lovely person! :) x

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    1. Thank you Pat....I just write from the heart;-)

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  4. Hi Launna, it's so great than you love yourself and your body, it makes you confident and gives you more strength to stand out

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    1. Thank you Oxana... we all need to learn to love our body's where we are ;-)

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  5. Being able to forgive ourselves is one of the hardest things to do sometimes, isn't it. I think we are much harder on ourselves than others are. I know I am anyway. I hope restful sleep will return to you soon, Launna. Have a good weekend!

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    1. Thank you Daisy... I'm hoping to get some sleep this weekend... yes we are hard on ourselves... some people close to us are hard on us too...

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  6. It's very difficult to sustain positive feelings about ourselves if we are surrounded by people who ooze negativity. If you can't eliminate the negative people, you have to learn to ignore them, and listen more closely to your own inner voice. Deep inside, you already know your own value. Appreciate yourself. As the commercial used to say, "You've come a long way, baby."

    Happy weekend.

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    1. Thanks Susan... it's not that the people are negative... it 's that they see the old posts and think I haven't changed.... but I have... you are right, I have come a long way... I wish they could see that too..... :-/

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  7. Aww Launna, I am so touched by this post. Your determination is inspiring. ♡

    Forgiving myself is something I am learning, too. And I think I am much better at it now than before. I used to really beat myself up but now I am doing my best to show more loving-kindness to myself.

    Hugs to you and God bless! ♡ :-)

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    1. Thank you Irene...I'm learning to forgive myself... now if other people could forgive me for the past... I deal with it a lot better... I can hope.. :-/

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  9. Very cool post Launna!
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  10. Being able to forgive ourselves and learning to love ourselves is a very freeing experience. You sound like you are well on your way and I am so happy to hear it!

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    1. Thank you Marcia... it's good to be on my way ;-)

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  11. I think your blog has documented your growth and how much more secure you are. I having loved reading and watching you blossom into such a self confident woman. You have faced many things in life and if you can come through those things as such a strong self confident woman it gives others hope!

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    1. Thank you Betty... thank you for seeing me that way, I wish I was a strong as people thought I was...

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  12. Rats...I just wrote this comment and lost it. Okay here goes again....I love your posts....and that you share your amazing journey with all of us. You totally motivate me and inspire. About mistakes...someone once told me making a mistake doesn't mean I'm a mistake. That helped me tons. Sending you tons of hugs launna...Happy Saturday.

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    1. Thank you Nikki... I wish I would feel that inspired from myself...

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  13. You look fabulous . I saw your picture on my blog and was speechless. Congratulations ! I am sure( I hope) that you must be feeling great.

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    1. Thank you Munir.... I do feel better physically... better than I ever have in my life...now if I could just feel better in other ways...

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  14. Good to hear you are doing well :-) Life is all about evolving and growing.

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    1. Thank you kiss... it is all about evolving and making nee decisions... I've made a new one...

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  15. It's just my two cents, but I don't think people have to forgive you for not being focused...we all go through that at one point or another. I like that you like who you are, that's a very important thing. I like you too. :)

    Have a great weekend!

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    1. Thank you Rosey, some people think I needed to divesify my thoughts... I have new plans now, I hope everyone understands... especially them...

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  16. very inspiring :)
    i wish i could focus on loosing weight :P

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    1. Thank you Prerana... that is the only thing I can focus on right now...

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  17. Wow, you look fantastic, and it sounds like you feel better, too. I hope this goes on to inspire others. Belief in yourself, in your ability, and your will power show that great things can be accomplished. I'm so happy for you.

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    1. Thank you Jamie... I hoped to inspire people too... I am still on my journey right now :)

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  18. Always so inspiring and motivating text. The photos are amazing. :)

    Have a wonderful day! :)
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    1. Thank you Jonnessa, that is very sweet of you to say :)

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    1. Thank you Jessica, I am following you on Bloglovin;-)

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  20. great post! its so inspiring!

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    1. Thank you Celyn, very sweet of you to say :)

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    1. Thank you Paola, Happy Sunday to you too :)

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  22. I don't want to take medicine either. So that's what I strive for. I was listening to a commercial this morning. It was talking about a drug for something. Initially I wasn't paying attention but then it went on and on and on with the side effects. I was like is this an infomercial about drug side effects? No it was a commercial! OMG - I don't want to have to take medicine. So glad you are feeling so good! Go girl!

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    1. Thank you Kenya... those ads are very scary... I'll take the healthy way :-)

      I am feeling a bit better, it feels good to get so close to my goal... yay

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