Some Decisions Are Challenges That End Up Being Defining Moments

The only thing that matters now is my mission.  Nothing will stand in the way anymore.

Well, I made it out to Zumba finally, I had a great time... I knew nothing about what I was doing.  Valentina was telling me I was the worst, I just laughed... I will be one of the best before I know it.. I am like that, when I take something on, I give it my all.  I will be there two nights per week and I will learn all the moves. I am also going to go swimming tomorrow, I kept telling Valentina I would do this when I lost some more weight but I finally told her that we will be going tomorrow as I don't want her having body issues and thinking she cannot go swimming. I used to love to swim and I gave it up but I am going to treat it like Zumba and go and just have fun.

I have also decided that although I LOVE to comment on all the blogs I follow, I will have to slow down a little.  I will continue to read everybody's blog I follow because I adore all of you.  I will still comment but it most likely won't be on every single post.  This will be the most difficult for me as I LOVE to comment.  I promise that I will comment as much as I can but lately I am getting pulled in 50 different directions and I feel like something has to give.  I get so much enjoyment from reading all of your posts ... so I could never give you up.  I hope you all understand...

Everyone and I mean everyone is commenting on how small I am getting... yes I have lost a great deal of weight and I do see it, I still have almost 35 pounds left to lose.  I have had a really difficult incident happen in the past couple of weeks and I am dealing with it the best way I can, which means I am really not dealing with it all that great as I am not sleeping... I went to my doctors and she gave me a mild sleeping pill... that did not work.  She then gave me something a little stronger... I took half and slept a little better.  My mind won't shut down about this issue, I keep going over and over it in my mind.  I feel so much about it, sad... disappointed, frustrated... angry... the list could go on.  So someone said to me that they could not believe how I am continuing with eating healthy and exercising.
I told them that this is something I am good at... besides I have to figure out other ways to deal with the stress and it should not be putting that food into my system as I feel great with what I am  eating for the past almost 4 months.  Then another friend stated a truth... she said... this is something I can control. With my life spinning out of control, eating healthy and exercising is something I have control over.   I enjoy the way I think about what I eat before I eat it, I like that I think how my body deserves to have some sort of exercise daily as much as possible...

What I don't like is how out of control things in my life have spun more and more out of control.  It has got to the point that I don't feel comfortable talking to everyone about it, I know they will say what they think will help... I can guarantee you it won't help.  What will help is not what I can have right now, luckily I have a few people that I can vent, cry or just talk with... I suddenly thought about possibly dating again, I don't know that anyone could get through the iron shield I have up, I just thought it might be good to go to dinner, a movie, the gym... a walk.  Something other than just me exercising, I need to incorporate a little fun into my life...
A big part of me is not sure it is a good idea but I have held back from dating because no matter how hard I tried to get over my David, I couldn't... I still can't... maybe I just need to try to have a little fun, I am completely positive that I don't want to get involved in anything heavy, just a little dating where I get out of the house and do something other that walk the track at the gym.. or he could go with me.  Anything to get out of the bubble I have my life in right now.  Basically I work, blog, follow blogs, exercise, sleep (and I do very little of the sleep).  That is just existing and not living ... It is time for me to open up my life and do something a little different. I am apologizing to all men up front, I won't be easy to get through to, I am not looking for the great romance of my life, I had that with my David.... I am just looking to relax and have fun.

The last thing I wanted to bring up was that a woman named Kenya G Johnson from Here's The Thing asked if the the tag line on my blog were my words... I said yes as I remember someone telling me I should have a tag line... I had a quote for a really long time and then I was inspired to put the latest tag line there. She thoughtfully made me the cutest pictures with my tag line which is below.  I was SO incredibly touched and I felt very special.  Drop over and check out her blog if you have a moment, she is a real sweet heart.

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  1. Awww thanks for the shot out Launna ;-) It's a beautiful tagline. As for dating again - go for it. And to start off on the right foot, I don't think I'd mention David.I think the competition would be kinda like pressure.

    Congrats on the Zumba and swimming - go girl - you are doing it!

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    1. Thank you Kenya... I won't mention David... but I don't plan to give anyone the opportunity to love me... I just want to get out and have a little fun, go to a movie, dinner, work out together... nothing special. I am not willing to open my heart again... it isn't worth the pain, besides I still love David, that is where my heart is.... thanks again :)

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    1. Thank you so much Pooja... I don't really join into give aways... that is sweet of you though :)

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  3. What a sweet gift you were given! Hang in there -- read what you like and comment when you feel inspired to do so!

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    1. Thank you Kc, it is more for the people who write a blog every single day... it is hard for me to keep up and comment on every single one of them... although I do love commenting :)... Yes Kenya made me such a sweet picture, I adore it:)

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  4. I'm glad you had fun at Zumba. I bet you will have fun when you go swimming too, if you just allow yourself to. :) I see nothing wrong with you starting to date again if you want to do it. I definitely think you deserve to have more fun in your life. With or without a date, you could go to the movies or the zoo or shopping or to a park or whatever else you'd enjoy. You could go with a date, with a friend or relative, with your daughter, or by yourself!

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    1. Thank you Daisy, I did have fun swimming... :) I need to date to get out to these things.. I am more liable to go out for dinner or a movie if someone is taking me :)

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  5. Hey Girlfren, I understand about watching where you spend your time. I'd like nothing better than to visit all 485 of my followers and commenting, but I simply don't have the time.
    I'll visit blogs and comment when I can.
    I see a lot of people doing Zumba. I wears me out just typing it :)

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    1. Thank you Rick... Zumba is going to kick my butt once I get those moves down... lol

      I really hope everyone understands that I just cannot continue to comment on every single post... I would love to... but I need to have a little more of a life :)

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  6. Great decision Launna.... I love Zumba!!!!
    Happy sunday doll!

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    1. Thank you Paola and happy Sunday to you too :)

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  7. I'm not fimilair with Zumba, but I have heard many good stories about it!

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    1. Thank you Marion... Zumba is a dance exercise... fun to do ;-)

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  8. I have always wanted to try Zumba!! I've always thought it sounded fun. I understand not having the time to comment. I still try to comment on all my visitor's blogs. It's like a reciprocal thing. When someone comments on my blog it directs me back to theirs and vice versa. But yes it can be time consuming. I feel that blogger is a family :)

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    1. Thank you Keith... I will always comment on your blog and on anyone elses who comments on mine. It's the blogs that post daily that I will need to slow down on. Zumba is fun:-D

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  9. Having goals are important but going through with them is life-changing! You have done both and the results are fantastic. Trying not to trip over the challenges along the way takes skills and you're showing that you're learning the art of hanging on to your goals while dealing with painful obstacles...kudos to you!

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    1. Awe thank you Lesley... sometimes having these goals are what is holding me together... I am good at this and I'm thankful for that ;-)

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  10. I love your new tag line! She did a great job on it? She is an incredibly sweet person. I totally understand about not commenting on all the blogs. I don't know how you have found the time to do it all along. You should start dating and enjoying life. You deserve it. Dating should be an opportunity to make some new friends. Go out and have some fun! You are a wonderful person, you will probably have guys falling for you. Just remember that you are making your life choices, no one else. Do what you want and what you are happy with!

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    1. Thank you Betty...Kenya did a lovely job;-)...I will still comment... just not on everything... :-D .. Hmmm about the dating... if I do, I'm sure it will be for all the wrong reasons.. I am the one in control though ;-)

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I love and appreciate all genuine comments, to save a little time, I won't be commenting on the comments on my blog (unless you don't have a blog), I will just visit your blog and comment there, if you have left a meaningful comment for me... I would much rather spend the time reading and commenting on a few extra blogs ❤