The only thing that matters now is my mission. Nothing will stand in the way anymore.
Well, I made it out to Zumba finally, I had a great time... I knew nothing about what I was doing. Valentina was telling me I was the worst, I just laughed... I will be one of the best before I know it.. I am like that, when I take something on, I give it my all. I will be there two nights per week and I will learn all the moves. I am also going to go swimming tomorrow, I kept telling Valentina I would do this when I lost some more weight but I finally told her that we will be going tomorrow as I don't want her having body issues and thinking she cannot go swimming. I used to love to swim and I gave it up but I am going to treat it like Zumba and go and just have fun.
I have also decided that although I LOVE to comment on all the blogs I follow, I will have to slow down a little. I will continue to read everybody's blog I follow because I adore all of you. I will still comment but it most likely won't be on every single post. This will be the most difficult for me as I LOVE to comment. I promise that I will comment as much as I can but lately I am getting pulled in 50 different directions and I feel like something has to give. I get so much enjoyment from reading all of your posts ... so I could never give you up. I hope you all understand...
Everyone and I mean everyone is commenting on how small I am getting... yes I have lost a great deal of weight and I do see it, I still have almost 35 pounds left to lose. I have had a really difficult incident happen in the past couple of weeks and I am dealing with it the best way I can, which means I am really not dealing with it all that great as I am not sleeping... I went to my doctors and she gave me a mild sleeping pill... that did not work. She then gave me something a little stronger... I took half and slept a little better. My mind won't shut down about this issue, I keep going over and over it in my mind. I feel so much about it, sad... disappointed, frustrated... angry... the list could go on. So someone said to me that they could not believe how I am continuing with eating healthy and exercising.
What I don't like is how out of control things in my life have spun more and more out of control. It has got to the point that I don't feel comfortable talking to everyone about it, I know they will say what they think will help... I can guarantee you it won't help. What will help is not what I can have right now, luckily I have a few people that I can vent, cry or just talk with... I suddenly thought about possibly dating again, I don't know that anyone could get through the iron shield I have up, I just thought it might be good to go to dinner, a movie, the gym... a walk. Something other than just me exercising, I need to incorporate a little fun into my life...
David.... I am just looking to relax and have fun.
The last thing I wanted to bring up was that a woman named Kenya G Johnson from Here's The Thing asked if the the tag line on my blog were my words... I said yes as I remember someone telling me I should have a tag line... I had a quote for a really long time and then I was inspired to put the latest tag line there. She thoughtfully made me the cutest pictures with my tag line which is below. I was SO incredibly touched and I felt very special. Drop over and check out her blog if you have a moment, she is a real sweet heart.