Deal With It I Will

The only thing that matters now is my mission.  Nothing will stand in the way anymore.

I just have to write a quick follow up... it is late and I haven't slept, really slept for days... still just getting an hour here and there... I just wanted to let everyone know I was feeling a little bit better.  Not awesome but definitely better.  I saw my doctor and she has given me sleeping pills which I will take a half of one later this week... I took a full one almost 4 years ago and I slept until past noon that time, so I am a little leery of taking any.  I will test it out over the weekend to make sure I can wake up in time.

Next I broke the 15 minute mile tonight, I can give a great deal of thanks to a friend who ticked me off and I went out there and walked so fast to blow some steam off. I felt like I was speeding... I have a new goal, I want to get under a 14.30 mile.  Maybe that friend can really tick me off, lol.  I am still not going to talk about what devastated me the other day, it is still there, I still have to deal with it, the reason it was so difficult for me was because I was side swiped with it... maybe if I had known anything and not just have it thrown at me the way it was I would have handled it a whole lot better... Anyhow, that is neither here nor there, regardless, I have to deal with it and deal with it I will.
I can't promise I won't be sad in the future, I can't promise I won't cry but I will get through this... not sure how, like walking that track at the gym, I am going to have to dig deep, deeper than I have ever gone before. It is not going to be easy but I have no choice.  Well, I have a choice but the second option is so much worse than even the incident... so I will get through somehow.  Ultimately people are important, incidents are just that, incidents and I can forgive...

Finally I just wanted to write a funny story, I have told you all about how competitive I am ... well, let me tell you about a funny story.  About two weeks ago I was walking and at a pretty good clip when I caught someone out of the corner of my eye, looking like they were trying to pass me.  I don't like to be passed, so I just sped up and I kept seeing someone out of the corner of my eye speeding up with me. I was getting a bit frustrated as I was not sure I could keep that speed up for much longer.  Finally I glanced to the side, there was no one there... get this... it was my shadow... lol

I told you I was competitive... but whoa... racing my shadow... too much.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future  

64 comments :

  1. Another magnificent post! Great read! And I love to come back!

    Regards,
    Katherine Unique


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  2. I feel like I an running from my shadow sometimes! Enjoyed your post! I am a very competitive person too! I don't know why, but I hate to lose. I hope you get the sleep situation figured out soon. It just makes you feel miserable when you can't sleep.

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    1. Thank you. Betty... I'll be working on the sleep this weekend. :-/

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  3. I'm not sure I could drive a mile in 15 mins :) I usually drink camomile tea at night which usually helps me to sleep. But if I'm really upset for some reason, nothing much helps.
    R

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    1. Thanks Rick... I think I have been way too upset to sleep... I'm hoping I find a way soon;-)

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  4. I am so sorry about the insomnia. Have you tried Wal-Mart's over the counter sleep aid?? It has helped cure mine.

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    1. Thank you Keith... if the sleeping pills my dr gave me are too much... I will try the pills you suggest ;-)

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  5. I'm glad to hear things are looking a little brighter for you. I enjoyed the shadow story. Haha! They say it is best to compete with yourself instead of with others. Sounds like you were doing that quite literally! :-)

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    1. Haha.. thank you Daisy... I laughed so hard when I realized what I had been doing... oh well... I got a great work out. I always enjoy your comments :)

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  6. Being irked with someone does make for a good workout. :)

    LOL at the shadow!!! I really did laugh out loud!! :)

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    1. Haha, thanks Rosey, I thought I needed to lighten it up a bit after being so deep and serious... and that shadow story cracked me up... :)

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    2. I think people are laughing about it because they can see themselves doing the same thing!! I know I could. :) Have a great week, Launna!

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  7. I think we are all trying to race our shadows -- but that is funny! Congrats on the speed!

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    1. Thank you Kc.... I was flying, it felt great-;-)

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  8. I don't know how I stumbled on this blog. I loved your blog very much, so much of beauty and love in it. I hope I can keep visiting your site. Have a good day!

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    1. Thank you Riku... you have a great day too ;-)

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  9. Hey Launna..wishing you an awesome Friday....you shine.

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  10. My love hope everything is going fine to you <3
    Giant size kisses

    Carolina

    www.the-world-c.blogspot.com

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    1. Awe thank you Carolina... you are such a doll ;-)

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  11. Hello dear,
    would you like to follow each other's blogs on facebook and bloglovin? Btw, love your blog's design, so chic!

    Best wishes,
    Gabriella
    http://gabriellawolf.blogspot.com/

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    1. Thank you Gabriella, I am now following you on Bloglovin, Google+ and your Facebook fan page :)

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  12. Hey Sweets,

    Nice blog..
    Maybe we can follow each other on GFC and Bloglovin..
    Keep in touch,
    www.beingbeautifulandpretty.com

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    1. Thank you Pooja, I am now following you on Google+, GFC and Bloglovin :)

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  13. I am glad you get a little bit better. I've been there done that, while ago when I first moved with my job to the US by myself and living my life all alone. I have leave my family and friends behind. I could not sleep at all, home sick, confused! Big adjusted of my life. I had to go see the Doctor to give me a sleeping pills but then I took pills for while and after that I throws all pills away!

    I told myself it isn't healthy and not the right choice for me, I turned my head up, told myself, I'll have to deal with any kind of any situations. I cannot count on other people or pill to make me happy, I am the only one that can make myself happy. I make my own choice, then I took everything as easy as lonely Tanya could take. Our brains so amazing and powerful whatever side we choose to do or go, the brain will work with us and your great soul. take opportunity to challenge the brain Launna. since then I have been take and look everything as a normal thing in my lives. that it cold happen to anybody as well. remember, you're not alone. But again, we all comes from a different foundation. Things works with me it may not easy for you. Cry if you want too but you will be fine after you wiped out your tears. wish you all the best. you're one of a greatest person I've been know through our blogging. Here's a big hugs from me. XXXXXX

    Wish you a lovely weekend. I will speaks to you later.

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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    1. Awe Tonya... you are so kind to me... you make me feel loved... this has been such a sad week for me... I'm hoping I can get it together soon. .... :-/

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  14. I love the picture of you trying to outrace your own shadow. I can just picture that... and can also picture myself trying to do the same thing.

    Sorry about the insomnia, kiddo. If the pill proves to be too much, Celestial Seasons "Sleepytime" tea might help.

    Happy weekend!

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    1. Thank you Susan, it made me laugh that I was trying to beat my own shadow... oh my... :)

      I will let you know about the pills, I really need sleep... otherwise I will never feel better :-/

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  15. Hi :-)
    Great blog, mind following each other ? i would love it <3 I am new here :D
    *le haywire - blog*

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    1. Hi Lisa, thank you... I am following you on GFC and Bloglovin and Google+... I look forward to your next post and I would totally appreciate a follow back :)

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  16. I'm so glad you're feeling better, Launna. And I know you will keep feeling better and better <3
    Oh! racing your own shadow? That's indeed a funny story :D

    Deb

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    1. Thank you Deb... I am trying to get through... although the devastating thing that happened has taking the air out of me and left me with tears only... I can barely breathe and rarely sleep... I just sob nonstop about it..... :(

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  17. Racing your shadow? OMG I am dying laughing!! You are too funny! Well, whatever bad thing it is that happened, I hope you are able to accept it and make peace with it. You are getting stronger every day and I am so proud of you for making this journey!

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    1. Thank you Marcia... I am not sure I can get past this... it is so much more than I can even explain. You have to wonder if I am more than willing to trade all my horrible days just to take my Monday away... Even though I know that is not possible... I pray I find peace too.... somehow

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  18. oh thank you for following <3 i am following you now too.
    your blog is very interesting.

    *le haywire - blog*

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    1. Thank you Lisa... that is sweet of you to say ;-):-D

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  19. Seja bem vinda! ;D

    Ótimo sábado, Launna!

    Beijo! ^^

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  20. Hey Doll,
    Thanks a lot for dropping by my blog and for following
    I am following you back on GFC and Bloglovin
    keep in touch
    www.beingbeautifulandpretty.com

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    1. Thank you Pooja... I look foward tou your new posts :-)

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  21. Great blog! Your posts are wonderful!

    I would love it if we could follow each other!
    I am now following you on GFC and would love for you to follow me back!!!

    http://style-memoirs.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Claire, I am following you on GFC and everything else... :)

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  22. You have such a nice blog, loved reading this post! Great pictures btw! :) Would be an honor to me if you would check out my blog too! And, if you want, we can follow each other! Let me know and I'll follow you back asap! :)

    Have a great day! x

    Never Not Inspired

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    1. Hi, thank you for your lovely comment, I am now following you on Bloglovin, GFC, Twitter and Instagram :)

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  23. Well I tell you, there's nothing like a good pissed off walk. Glad you weren't pissed at your shadow though. LOL! Hope things are looking up.

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    1. Thank you Kenya... haha... If I was as pissed off at my shadow as I was my friend... I would have out run it... :)

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  24. I love the story about the shadow, great blog. :)

    Would you like to follow each other? Follow me if you want and I'll follow you back. :)
    www.jonnessa.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Jonnessa... I'm following you on GFC and Bloglovin...;-)

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  25. Hi Launna..im happy to see you getting better more better..keep it up..and nice to hear you been motivated by your own shadow to racing ahah..anyway take a good care of yourself because nothing better to take care is our own self..have a nice day ...and smile always yeahh ^__^

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    1. Thank you a Wawa ... I am trying ti smile always :-/

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  26. Hi Launna! Just to let you I was be able to followed your Google plus and added you to my circle, because your last visited my blog did show your Google icon, as you know I had no time to look an extra thing more than a comment. and visit. have a great and relax Sunday. I wish you doing much more better than the last time you had told me!

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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    1. Hi Tanya, thank you for your visit... I was at church when I commented and google was the only thing that would let me comment... sometimes it is so weird and won't let me comment where I normally write from. I hope you had a great weekend...

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  27. Quando tiver a chance, use! O produto é ótimo! ;)

    Adorei a última frase, Launna!

    Bom domingo!

    Beijo! ^^

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    1. Thank you so much Amanda... I will have to try it for sure :)

      Muito obrigado Amanda ... Vou ter que experimentá-lo, com certeza :)

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  28. the last pic is amazing! i also have a figurine at home, my mum bought me one when i was in a very creative phase ...

    following you now via GFC and bloglovin.
    check out my blog, too :)

    x
    dahi

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    1. Thank you DK, I am now following you on GFC, Bloglovin, Twitter and FB fan page :)

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    1. Thank you Marie and exactly... that is so true, love people, use things... :)

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  30. What else I didn't follow you yet? I just followed your GFC.. sorry for not mentioned about the follow at first we were met. I hardly asked people to follow me, I have to go through your twitter to be here and I saw your exercise results has been awesome Launna. Keep up the good work!

    http://www.attraction2fashion.com

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    1. Awe thank you Tanya... I have pretty well everything and I follow everyone on everything. I follow you on GFC, Bloglovin, Twitter FB fan page, Twitter and Pinterest :) ... I just adore your blog and I don't want o miss out when you post :)

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