Panic Attacks?


The only thing that matters now is my mission.  Nothing will stand in the way anymore. 

I'm not sure what is wrong... I have had three panic attacks in less than a week.. I might have had three panic attacks in my whole life before that...

The first one came on the day of David's surgery... I can understand this one, my David was not able to text me for a little over eight hours after the surgery and I was scared that something had happened while he was under... but when he messaged me I relaxed, I thought that was the end of it...

Friday rolled around and I had one at work, I thought I was going to have to leave... I even started to cry. Thankfully it wasn't busy and I was able get my breathing back under control. I wondered why I had one again, David was fine, we had talked the night before. I was actually happy and relaxed.

The third one happened Saturday night in the middle of the night. I woke up at 4 am and I was having one in a dream that I continued with when I woke up.. I did not actually go back to sleep... I dozed... I get up at a decent hour and prepared myself to go to church, I was all dressed and ready to leave when I went to the washroom and the toilet overflowed... that was it for me, I crawled back in bed...  All day Sunday I laid in bed, not wanting to move, wondering if another panic attack would hit.

I did finally relax enough to get up, I took Valentina to a friends house so that I could go for a long walk.  I thought it would be good to get some of the energy out, which I hoped would really help me relax enough to sleep... Especially since I had been unable to get any exercise the previous two days due to the weather... I was ready for sleep Sunday night.. I laid there and hoped I could get through the night without another panic attack. There's nothing really stressing in my life... nothing more than usual. Something must be weighing on my mind that maybe I'm not aware of? I would rather deal with it head on than deal with it this way, where it paralyzes me.

Unfortunately if I don't know what it is that is causing it... I can't really deal with it... which makes me want to figure it out as quickly as I can, so that it won't cause anymore debilitating incidences. I can't keep having them and not try to figure out what is bringing them on... I don't want them to become daily occurrences. Luckily I didn't have another one last night but I did wake up at 3 am and I was unable to fall back to sleep, which will make for a very long day.

Also, just a quick update on my weight loss journey, on my 13th week, I was down a total of 42 pounds and still going down. I still weigh in on Friday's at work as I like to get weighed on the same scale to see my weight loss from the beginning. I also get weighed in on Monday mornings on my own scale as my sister and I are still on the journey to see who will lose 10% of their body weight first and we started on a holiday when I was unable to weigh in at work.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future  

30 comments :

  1. the little challenges make us who we are, stronger.
    I'm sure you're enjoying struggling, 'cause otherwise it would be so boring!
    Take Care, I hope things work well for David.

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    1. Thank you Purple... I am hoping David heals quickly..

      I don't like struggling but I know it is the only way to grow :)

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  2. It's the first time I come into your blog, I like it very much!I follow you now on GFC, if you like my blog follow me back, it'd be a pleasure for me! xoxo

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    1. Hi Milly, I am following you on GFC, Bloglovin and FB, thank you so much for you kind words :)

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  3. I had one as a teenager - it was very disconcerting. Fortunately I've never had another one since. I hope they cease for you soon.

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    1. Thank you Keith, they are nasty... just the dizziness, weakness and lack of being able to draw enough air in :) Non for the past 2 days, I hope they are done now :)

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  4. I'm sorry to hear about the panic attacks. Several years ago my husband suffered from those. He finally got to the root of the problem, and they went away. They can be quite troubling and debilitating, though. I hope you can figure out what is causing them.

    Congratulations to you on losing 42 pounds! That is amazing. Your hard work and determination has really paid off.

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    1. Thank you Daisy, did I tell you I was on a mission... I am not going to be swayed... I will lose the weight I need to lose and I will get myself together and get passed these panic attacks too :)

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  5. I hope that you don't get anymore. It sounds very scary. I do not know much about panic attacks, but if you know anyone with the knowledge and treatment please talk to them.
    You are loosing a lot of weight. I hope that you are getting enough nourishment. At the same time I am happy for you.

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    1. Thank you Munir, the panic attacks have been scary, I don't like that I can't get enough air and that I am dizzy but non for 2 days. I am getting enough nourishment and I am happy otherwise :)

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  6. I'm sorry to hear you're having panic attacks. :(

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    1. Thank you Rosey, no panic attacks for 2 days, hopefully that is it... :)

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  7. Oh, you poor thing. I can't imagine having them so close together! I've had two in my life -- over 10 years apart. You need meditation/prayer, maybe a massage, and, perhaps, a gin and tonic. :-)

    They can be quite medicinal, you know.

    Pearl

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    1. Hahaha, thank you Pearl, I am silly enough with out alcohol... my co-workers would beg that I never be allowed to drink... lol :)

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    1. Thank you Katherine, I will certainly look at your blog and follow you too :)

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  10. I am sending you a big hug. I would bet the second two were a result of just letting your guard down after the surgery. Hopefully they are behind you. Congrats on the 42 and keep up the good work!

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    1. Thank Kc.... I am hoping you are right ;-)

      I slept last night and no panic attacks ...

      Thanks... I'm continuing my weight loss ;-)

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  11. So sorry to hear you are having panic attacks. My husband used to get them all the time. He finally went on medication for it (and still is). That really helped him. I think yours was triggered by David's surgery. The subconscious mind works in mysterious ways. Hopefully you won't have anymore for a long, long time. Congrats on the weight loss--you are doing so well with that!

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    1. Thank you Marcia... I suspect you are right.. I haven't had any lately... I think I was overly worried about my David...

      I am working hard on the weight loss... I'm in the zone ;-)

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  12. Launna,
    Have you thought about taking deep breaths and praying? Give those panic attacks to God. Remember what the Bible says about anxiety..
    1 Peter 5:7
    New International Version
    Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

    Trust me once I started to believe that God can take these from me, I haven't had anxiety or panic attacks in a while and it sure feels great.

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    1. Thank you Rachel, I think I've come to the end of them... I really think a lot had to do with worry for David and lack of sleep. I got a little more sleep... no more panic attacks :-)

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  13. I started having one the first week after my son left for college. I was home by myself and it was the normal time for him to come home. When it started I got on the phone and talked to my husband. I didn't tell him anything was wrong. He knew it was unusual for me to call like that. I told him that evening. I didn't want him to worry about me.

    I bet the fact that you were so worried about David is what has brought them on. Maybe you are still subconsciously worrying about losing him. Probably is you got to see him it would be better. Maybe just having more time to talk with him on the phone will help. You just need to reassure yourself that he is fine and he will stay fine.

    Congrats on the weight loss!!!

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    1. Thank you Betty... I know of the stresses that can cause these panic attacks, thankfully they seemed to have calmed down. I was overly worried about David and I wasn't sleeping... the past two nights I have got a little sleep :)

      I do need to see him... the sooner the better... I am just not sure how I will accomplish it. However; I believe if the will is there, the way will be made :)

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  14. I've never had a panic attack, but I know enough about them to know I don't ever want one, either. So sorry you've been hit by so many in such a short period of time. I'd imagine that kinda puts you on edge, waiting for the next one to hit.

    Hopefully, they're done now. You David is fine, and you're fine, and you're still in control of your life. Congrats to you on the continued weight loss. Oh, you'll be pleased to know my hubby and I have gotten back to taking our daily walks again.

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    1. Thank you Susan, panic attacks are disconcerting.... I do think they are gone now.. I hope ;-)

      Yay... so happy you are back walking :-D

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  15. My panic is always silent, under the surface waiting to come out. For some reason I can always go back to sleep at 3 am.

    /Avy

    http://mymotherfuckedmickjagger.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you Avy and AWE... that is SO sad... I'm so sorry for you (hugs)

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