Faith precedes the miracle!
I feel like my life goes in circles, I learn a lesson, I feel enlightened and then I'm tested and often I fail. I try again and I go through the same cycle; constantly trying to change the outcome so that I don't end up back where I started. My goal is to move forward daily, doing better than the day before.
Some days I succeed, others I wonder if I'll make it through. I feel selfish sometimes as I'm well aware that there are people in this world who have a much more difficult life than I do. People that have overwhelming challenges that blow me away.
When I constantly remind myself of this, it shows me just how blessed and lucky I am. I unfortunately seem to be one of those people who need to have it driven home to me daily instead of having the faith to believe.
Until I learn to have faith, I will continually be caught in that vicious circle where I'll never find true happiness. What if this is what I need to learn to have what I truly want? What if I am holding myself back from the blessings that are waiting for me?
What if the dream I've had for myself isn't big enough? Am I letting fear holding me back? I've been through the fire literally many times throughout my life, I could not have been saved for a mundane life, none of us were.
I need to be truly grateful for each and every trial I've had, otherwise I'll never learn the lesson and grow to my potential.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield