A year later and I am more in the dark than I originally was; each day does not get easier. Lately it becomes more cloudy, harder to see the outcome. I loved when things were clear, they were. Something came along and took away the clarity.
Maybe I don't have the Faith I need, do you think it because I've been let down so many times it's hard to hold on to Faith? It's not impossible, it's just difficult. I wish I could forget the past, not hold onto it so fiercely. Maybe I need to let go completely? Maybe that's the only way?
Holding on could mean holding back, I don't know how to let go! I've tried and quickly I grab on and hold on for dear life believing that by giving up or giving in means losing. What if by holding on I'm losing the most.
When will I believe I'm worth giving in and realize it's not losing at all; it's really a growing experience that will show me the true path I'm meant to be on. Maybe the truth was that I deserved even better.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield