I waffle daily with all the changes I have to make and stick to, it's been extremely hard. I make a firm decision then it saddens me and I rethink it over and over. I just have to make those changes whether I think I can handle them or not. I'm not handling my life the way that it is right now.
Ripping the band-aid off all at once is the right thing to do, right? Covering the injury will never allow it to heal, right? Part of me is so looking forward to the end of this year, the other part of me is so very sad that this year ended up the way that it did.
I've been feeling overwhelmed but then I read some blogs and started getting everything into perspective. There are people who are dealing with massive health issues, depression, loss of careers. Other than my leg my health is good, although I'm sad, I'm not in a depression and I'm lucky to have a pretty secure job.
Sometimes all we need is a little perspective. I have a friend who cannot understand how people who use or hurt other people seem to get off with it, yet people who are good, giving and kind seem to have it so much harder. The way I have dealt with that injustice in my life is to let it go, move on and don't think bad thoughts of them... that is the only way to be free.
I just want to be free, I have felt so lost and just wandering around in circles; sometimes I wonder how I hold it all together. Because inside I'm following apart. I just needed a little perspective...
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield