Clearing My Mind To Untangle My Thoughts

 
I didn't have the energy to blog last night, due to the fact that I only had two hours of sleep the night before.  I attempted to write as I had some very wonderful inspiration, however; everything I wrote was garbled, it made no sense... I ultimately gave up and went to sleep.  I am still studying The Purpose Driven Life, it's very enlightening... I always come away with something profound or thoughtful.

I will write two catch up posts tomorrow to get back on top of things.  I already have a general idea of what I want to say, I just need to have the rested mind to actually write those thoughts out so that they don't come out all tangled up together.

I have been thoroughly enjoying being back to work, laughing and chatting with my co-workers... I really felt the love when I came back as so many people hugged me and told me how much they missed me.  It is wonderful to know how appreciated you are, they even wrote me daily notes on a note pad, counting down my return and how happy they were going to be... I felt so special ....

The other reason my thoughts are all tangled up is that I am disappointed and angry (the last one being my least favorite mood as being angry serves no good purpose), however; I am... It comes from when people say one thing to me, then do another and than act like I am stupid, either that or they are... either way it is maddeningly frustrating when it happens to me.

Then I am upset with myself since I don't address the issue because I am afraid of flying off the handle and then saying things that will make it much worse... instead I have allowed myself to feel angry which is foolish... I guess I will have to confront the individual and say my peace as nicely as possible...

Finally, I am really considering joining up with The Canada Games Center, it has a pool, a track, workout rooms, Zumba classes, yoga and so much more. I am wanting a family pass so that Valentina and I can spend an hour or more there in the evenings getting ourselves healthy.  It is a little spendy but so worth it for all the health benefits.  Much less time with TV and general wasting of time... I will have to be organized to still be able to put my blog together each night but I think this is a good thing.  I will blog about my progress as I want to keep a written journal...

If you have had anger with someone who says one thing to you but turns around and does the complete opposite, how did you deal with it?  If you confronted the person, was it worth it?  Did it change everything between you?  I totally believe in forgiving people and not holding onto hurt... this one has me stumped though... I am hoping with time, I will get a handle on that feeling and not let it take over my thoughts completely.... 
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future

12 comments :

  1. I am not good at confronting people so I can't really give you an answer.

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  2. You can't hold onto anger--it isn't healthy. However, I think it is best to get everything out in the open. If that doesn't work, then just walk away from the person that causes such grief. As for the zumba, DO IT!!! My daughter and I just joined a gym a month ago--we work out on the machines and do the classes--I love it and have already lost 8 pounds. I think you will really enjoy it, too!

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  3. Thank you Betty... I'm not confrontational either... I usually just forgive people and move one. This one hasn't been as easy but I'm sure I'll just forgive them.. :/

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  4. Thank you Marcia, I know that anger isn't a good thing to hang onto... I'm working on forgiving and forgetting.

    Zumba does sound exciting to me... I think it will be wonderful to do this with Valentina:-D

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  5. Thanks for your lovely comment! Don't let this anger bring you down :)

    http://thesmallnoble.blogspot.de/

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  6. I do not get much sleep because of choking in the middle of the night from Asthma and I do not have much energy left in the morning. I am always late in writing.

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  7. Forgiveness isn't always easy but it's always the best option because it frees us of those negative feelings.

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  8. Thank you Patriza from The Small Noble... so lovely to see you back posting :)

    I agree anger only brings you down, hence why I want to release it... still not as easy as I had hoped :)

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  9. Hi Munir, thank you... I totally understand... I rarely sleep :(

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  10. Thank you Keith, forgiveness is the only way... not the easy way but the only way... ;)

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  11. HI Launna...I can totally relate to you. I've learned not to let anyone define me anymore. I get to do that and sometimes people who don't really know me get me wrong. That's okay. I can't help that. I can only be the best me there is. I love your openness and the way you're reaching to live your best life. And know this...I'm in your corner cheering you on......Stay strong okay.

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  12. Awe, thank you so much Nikki... I never give up on trying to be the best me that I can be. It is not easy but I can't stop trying:)

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