David and I are closer in ways that most people are not, that is not easy to find even with just friends let alone love. Most people are not always that open, it takes a great deal of trust to be that way with someone. I think anyone who finds it knows how lucky they are and they don't take it for granted... I love that close friendship I have with David. I do know that I need to move ahead in the future, especially since I do not want to repeat my mothers footsteps.
I will always love David, I will always be close to him... he will be the person I go to when I am feeling stressed or judged or I just need a laugh. But I will need to step outside that huge comfort zone of mine since I don't want to spend my life alone... and I am great company, I am pretty happy being on my own... I don't need someone to entertain me... but I do think that having someone to share my life with would enrich me and make me a better person. A more loving and giving person... I don't want to become bitter and sad in my old age, I want to smile and look back at my life and think wow, I really lived.
Once the time comes, I am sure I will blog about the dates... That will be interesting for anybody I date, finding out they are being written about.... lol. I used to wonder what my David thought about me writing about him so openly, I asked him one time if it was okay or if it bothered him? He said no, it was okay... so that is why I am pretty open about him
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥