Being Resilient In Tough Times

I am feeling a big change coming, it might have to do with work... I have been in the same position for five years and it's about time I challenge myself in another department.  Also it might have to do with getting healthy, this is huge, I haven't made this big of a commitment to myself in forever.  This is not something I plan on taking lightly, I am putting my all into it.  Yet I still think there is another change coming, maybe as early as summer... I am taking a wait and see attitude, I am not going to rely on anything until I see it come together.

Part of me is really excited for all the changes that are happening to me right now and in the future, part of me is a little fearful I won't live up to the challenges.  I just don't want to disappoint myself by not valuing myself enough to really put my heart and soul into each challenge that is placed before me or chosen by me.

I am trying to get myself into a really good frame of mind, where no matter what the outcome is, I will not let it define how I feel...  I think there are things that can devastate us for a moment in time but somehow we are resilient enough to get past those life lessons and even become stronger for it.  When I think about the many challenges I have overcome in my life, I am happy to see how far I have come.  I definitely have more growth opportunity in many aspects of my life but one thing at a time, otherwise I could overwhelm myself and then not accomplish any growth.

You know what I find amazing is how a song can bring up emotions that I swear I have under control, all I have to do is hear the first line and I am in a certain place in time or it evokes uncontrollable emotions.  Much like a piece of poetry does to me, I think songs are just poetry with music... Lately I have been writing a little poetry on the side, I share an occasional one on my blog but mostly I keep it for me... mainly because it's so personal and so emotional.  I am glad that I finally started writing poetry again after 25 years, it has given me another creative outlet.  I can never have enough of these.

These next couple of months is going to show how resilient I am... with the many changes I am going to be making in my life.  One of those changes will either go extremely well or extremely wrong... although that is very scary for me, I am going to go with it... if I hold back in anything, I will always wonder what if...?   I hope it's all worth it ultimately, I guess having closure is always a good thing, one way or the other...

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future

16 comments :

  1. wishing you all the best with your changes at work. Resilience is one of the things we consider in teaching children. I wonder if it is nature or nuture. Have a few links to good links to interesting articles about it - http://echildhood.synthasite.com/resilience---nature-or-nuture.php

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  2. Thank you Lesley, I really appreciate the comment and I will definitely look into the links :)

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  3. Change can be good and I truly hope you find peace with whatever decisions you make .And good for you for getting back into writing poetry!

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  4. Change is good! One of the things I have learned after so many disappointments over the years is that you don't have to let that affect how you feel. Just shrug your shoulders and move on because you can't control every aspect of your life. Learn and move on :-)

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  5. Thanks Marcia, I want to find peace in this decision too... I really think limbo is harder than any outcome;)

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  6. Thanks Jaimie... wise words for sure, some disappointments are harder than others but you are right, they are all lessons:)

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  7. My mom used to say "Nothing changes but the changes," meaning that everything changes eventually. Being flexible and resilient will take us far when those changes happen. Good luck to you with whatever changes are coming.

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  8. Thank you Daisy... change is usually good, just so hard to deal with sometimes ;-)

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  9. Thank you Bad Word Mama... I keep telling myself that;-)

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  10. Change may be scary but it can be very good for you. I wish you all the best. May God give you the courage make things come in your favor. Whatever decision you make, I hope that it works out for you. Best Wishes again:)

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  11. Thank you Munir... I wish the best for you and your family;-)

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  12. Change is good and exciting and should not be feared but rejoiced! At least that's my opinion :)

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  13. Thank you Keith.... I'm working on being happy... no matter the reason.

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  14. I'm the same exact way with music. That's why I can't listen to it when I'm working on fiction, the character's voice goes all screwy and it doesn't sound good! Not limiting future growth is so important, being open to it is amazing. Good for you!

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  15. Thank you Jenn... I'll be writing a post and listening to music and than I have to turn it off so I can think ;-)

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